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BY
(dedication)
TO HENRY JAMES, I DEDICATE, FOR GOOD LUCK, MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT A
NOVEL.
and the brown cistus tufts,--all these things seemed to have lost for him their emotional colour, their imaginative luminousness. He tried to realise the time when all these things had given him a thrill, had gone to his head, nay, when the mere sense of being in Italy had done so; but now the very words "thrill" and "intoxication" seemed false, disgusting, and vulgar. Formerly, at least, such things had soaked into him, dyed his mind with colour, saturated it with light; instead of remaining, as now, so separate from him, so terribly external, that to perceive them required almost an effort. He and the world had been becoming paler in the last three years; it was melancholy, but that seemed quite natural and in keeping; and besides, a washed-out world, a man with worn-out feelings, have quite as much psychologic interest for a poet as the reverse.
Walter Hamlin had never been your splash-of-scarlet and
dash-of-orange-and-skyblue,
lust-and-terror kind of lyrist; but he had begun his poetical
career with a quiet concentra-
tion of colour, physical and moral, which had made his earliest verses affect one like so many old church windows, deep flecks of jewel lustre set in quaint stiff little frames, with a great deal of lead between, and supreme indifference to anatomy and perspective. And as a painter (perhaps just because, despite his own contrary opinion)--he certainly had less original genius as painter than as poet--he had continued in this habit of gemlike harmonies of colour; but in his poetry, and in his reality as a man, it struck him that he had little by little got paler and paler, colours turning gradually to tints, and tints to shadows; pleasure, pain, hope, despair, all reduced gradually to a delicate penumbra, a diaphanous intellectual pallor, of which this utter listlessness, this indifference even to having grown indifferent, was, as it were, the faint key-note. The world was a pale and prismatic mist, full of vague, formless ghosts, in which it was possible to see only as far as to-day; and, indeed, why wish to see that paler to-day called
to-morrow? Perhaps there was a little depression added to Hamlin's usual listlessness. It had given him a kind of little shock to see Melton Perry again, after those twelve or thirteen years; bringing back to him the time when he had been the most brilliant and eccentric of that little knot of æsthetic undergraduates, at whose strange doings as Greek gods, and Provençal poets, and Norse heroes, Oxford had murmured in those philistine days, and which had welcomed young Hamlin, with his girlish beauty and pre-Raphaelite verses, as a sort of mixture of Apollo and Eros, sitting at the head of the supper-table dressed in green silk, with rose garlands on his head, while Perry led a chorus of praise, dressed in indigo velveteen, with peacocks' feathers in his button-hole, and silver-gilt grasshoppers in his hair. Poor old Perry! Absurd days those were, thought Hamlin, as he walked slowly towards the house, through the grass and hemlock bending with dew, pushing aside the fig branches and vine trails along the narrow path between the
terraced olives; absurd days those, and at which he could now, having grown grave and listless, only faintly smile. Still the sight of Perry had brought back to him that recurring sense that all those absurd lads of long-gone days, turned humdrum dons, and parsons, and squires for the most part, had had a something, a spontaneity, an aristocratic fibre, a sort of free-bornness, which he missed among the clique-and-shop shoddy æstheticism with which he now associated, and which sang his praises as those boys had sung them so many years before. Professional poetry! professional art! faugh! thought Hamlin; it was that feeling which had been making London odious to him of late, and sent him abroad, he knew not whither. He was a poet himself, and a painter also, to be sure; but somehow he liked to feel (and yet it oppressed him) that he was not of the same stock as his fellow-workers--that he had his coats made by less romantic tailors, and cut his hair and beard in less pictorial style. The sense of his difference from all those pen-
and-pencil-driving men of genius, those reviewer-poets and clerk-poets, those once-a-week-studio-receiving painters; the sense of the dust and smoke, as it were, of the æsthetic factory, had been choking him of late: he would rather go and associate only with well-dressed numskulls, go and flirt with empty-headed Faubourg St Germain ladies, or emptier-headed Monte Carlo ladies--he would not touch pen or brush for years. It had been silly to accept Perry's invitation to spend September at the Villa Arnolfini; he had accepted, thinking of Perry as he had been, a wild, roistering, half-French creature, brought up at Louis-le-Grand, and telling wicked French stories. Good heavens! what a change! When the wretched, thin, wasted, depressed-looking creature, fit for a medieval picture of mansuetude, had greeted him by night at the nearest station, and had driven him in the gig, he had been quite unable to realise that this was indeed Melton Perry. But he had understood all, all, when, in the bleak drawing-room, in the glare of an ill-
trimmed lamp, that lank, limp, lantern-jawed leering creature with a Sapphic profile had come forward and seized him by both hands, and kissed them, crying--
"Dear Mr Hamlin, I must kiss the hands that have opened the
paradise of body and soul to so many of us."
She, and her speech, and the damp dab on his hands, had passed before
him like a nightmare; he felt that he would never be able to disassociate
Mrs Melton Perry from that horrible smell of ill-trimmed, flickering
oil-lamp. It seemed to him dreadful--a sort of hideous,
harpy-like proceeding--that his old friend should have thus
been metamorphosed.
"You see," Perry had said, "I must paint
things--well--not the sort of things I exactly
admire,--because, you see, there's Mrs Perry and the
children--five girls,--and last year's baby."
Perry's depressed voice had remained in Hamlin's ears. This
was the end of a bright, original fellow--married for love, too! And
six children! Hamlin had already made up his mind that he could not possibly hold out long at the Villa Arnolfini. That Mrs Perry, with her leering Sapphic profile, her almost amorous admiration, the limp gown, the five girls, and last year's baby, the all-pervading smell of oil-lamp, were too much for him. In three days, he calculated, he might decently, on some pretext, slip off to Florence. And then--why, from Florence he might go to America. He thought all those big hotels, with the fifteen hundred inmates and thirteen brass bands, all that tremendous strain, telegraph-telephone vulgarity, might be refreshing.
Hamlin had got to the bottom of the hill, and in front of him, nestled
among the olives and the vines, rose the Villa Arnolfini, a time-
and weather-stained Tuscan country-house, with its
rose-hedges gone wild among the beans and artichokes, its grotesque
ivy-draped terra-cotta statues, its belvedere towers, from
whose crannied sides and yellow lichened tiles
the pigeons swept down on to the lawn of overgrown grass, thick with dew in the blue morning shadow. It had a sort of half-romantic, half-idyllic charm, which Hamlin could not help recognising: it certainly was better than an American hotel, with ten lifts, thirteen brass bands, and fifteen hundred inmates. But, like everything else, it was a snare; for behind those sleepy-looking green shutters were the pink and blue chromo-lithograph pot-boilers of Melton Perry, were the five girls and the last year's baby, nay, were the Sapphic leer and limp dresses of Mrs Melton Perry herself.
Making these reflections, Hamlin pushed open the green and blistered
house-door and entered the wide hall, with rickety
eighteenth-century chairs and tables marshalled round the walls.
There was one good thing about his hosts, he thought, and that was, that
they had no common breakfast, but invited their guests to do whatsoever
they pleased in the early morning. The hall was very silent, and
Ham-
lin wondered how he should get any breakfast. It struck him that he had better go and ring the bell in his bedroom. But on going upstairs he found there was no sign of a bell either in it or in the vast scantily furnished drawing-room, where a thick layer of dust reposed on tables and mirrors, and the smell of last night's oil-lamp still lingered. He saw the open door of Perry's studio; it was empty, and so was the adjoining dressing-room, where boots and canvases littered the floor. But on the mirror was a paper, on which was written in the largest characters: "I am gone to sketch at the Lake of Massaciuccoli; shan't be back till lunch; please look after Hamlin."
"Confound it!" thought Hamlin, "am I to be left in
tête-à-tête
with Mrs Perry all the morning?" But since Melton Perry thought
nothing of leaving his guest alone all the morning, he too--the
guest--might surely be permitted to slip away after breakfast from the
effusive æstheticism of his hostess. Hav-
ing found no sign of life on the first floor, Hamlin went down-stairs once more, and proceeded to ramble about in search of breakfast, or, at least, of some servant. The ground-floor seemed to consist entirely of servants' rooms, offices, and strange garners, where sacks of potatoes, garden-tools, silkworm-mats, and various kinds of pods were gathered together. They were all empty; and empty likewise was the kitchen, its brass saucepans and huge spits left invitingly for any one who might care to step through the open garden-door. But next to the kitchen was a sort of nursery, at least so he judged from the children's chairs and battered dolls lying about--and here a table was spread with cups and saucers and jugs, and a cut loaf and a plate of figs. "This looks more like it," thought Hamlin, wondering what had become of the inmates of this mysterious abode of sleep. Suddenly he heard children talking in a room at the end of the passage, and a sort of subdued, deep, melancholy chant, like some church song. He went
to the door whence came the sounds, and knocked gently. The childish chattering did not stop, nor the fitful gusts of chant--deep, nasal, but harmonious and weird, with curious, sudden, metallic falsetto notes, less like the voice of a woman than of a youth. Hamlin knocked again, and receiving no notice, boldly opened the door and stood on the threshold. He was struck by the sight which met him. The room was low and vaulted, with walls entirely frescoed with dark-blue skies sprinkled with birds, mountains like cheeses, rivers, box-like houses, people fishing, and plentiful ducks and parrots on perches; a faint green shimmer of leaves came through the open windows; three or four little yellow-headed children were scrambling on the floor, struggling violently over the funeral of a doll in a biscuit-tin. In the middle of the room was a large deal table, covered with singed flannel, on the corner of which stood a brasier with some flat-irons, and a heap of crumpled pink pinafores; and behind this table, her tall and
powerful figure, in a close-fitting white vest and white skirt, standing out against the dark-blue painted wall and the green shimmer from outside, was a young woman bending over a frock which she was ironing, her bare brown arms going up and down along the board; her massive and yet girlish body bending with the movement, and singing that strange chant which Hamlin had heard from outside.
"I beg your pardon," said Hamlin, in Italian, as he stood in
the doorway. The children looked round, tittered, and made remarks in
shrill whispers; the girl stopped her work, stood erect, putting her iron
on the brasier, and stared full at Hamlin with large wide-opened
eyes of strange dark-greyish blue, beneath heavy masses of dark
lustreless hair, crimped naturally like so much delicate black iron wire,
on her narrow white brow.
"I beg your pardon," said Hamlin again; "but can you
tell me how I may get some breakfast?"
He could not help smiling in proffering this innocent request, so
serious and almost tragic was the face of the girl.
"It's Mr Hamlin," tittered the children, rolling under
the table, and hanging to the table-cloth.
The young woman eyed Hamlin for a second in no very gracious manner;
then answered, with a certain contemptuous listlessness in her slightly
hollowed pale cheeks and beautifully curled but somewhat prominent
lips--
"I don't know anything about your breakfast, sir." She
spoke, to his surprise, in perfect English, with only the faintest guttural
Italian accent. "Mr Perry went to sketch at Massaciuccoli early this
morning, and took the boy with him; Mrs Perry may never be disturbed till
nine; and the cook is gone to Lucca for provisions."
"That's very sad," remarked Hamlin, laughing, and
looking at this curious and picturesque being.
The girl seemed annoyed at being discovered
in that guise, for she pulled down her white sleeves quickly.
"I suppose the cook has orders about your breakfast," she
said, in a tone which seemed to put an end to the conversation; and she
took up her iron once more. "Mrs Perry did not think you would want
anything so early; the cook will be back about nine."
But Hamlin would not be shaken off; the fact was, he enjoyed watching
this beautiful sullen creature much as he might have enjoyed watching a cat
whom he had disturbed in its sleep.
"Nine o'clock!" he said; "that's a long
time to wait. Couldn't you give me something to eat? I saw a table
spread in the next room."
The girl put down her iron with a sort of subdued irritation of
manner.
"It's the children's breakfast, sir," she
answered; "we have neither tea nor coffee."
"We have milk," said the eldest of the little girls pertly,
"and figs."
"Milk and figs!" exclaimed Hamlin; "why, that's
a breakfast for the gods! and won't you," he went on rather
appealingly--"won't you share a little of it with
me?"
"You are Mrs Perry's guest," said the girl more
sullenly than ever, "and of course you are welcome to anything you
choose."
Hamlin felt rather taken aback.
"Indeed!" he said. "I don't wish to do anything
against the habits of the house, or disagreeable to you."
"It is not against any rules," she answered. "If you
will excuse me, I will see whether the milk is heated. The children will
show you the way."
ly answering the chatter of the children by his side.
"And you know," said the eldest child, a pretty little minx
of eleven, fully conscious of her charms, "mamma told us you were the
great poet, and she read us a poem of yours about Sir Troilus. Mamma always
reads poetry to us--and we liked it so much,--and I liked all
about where he kisses the lady so much, and her purple dress with the
golden roses, and then about Love, where he comes and takes her by the
throat, and chokes her, and makes her feel like a furnace. Mamma says
it's just like love. Mr Thaddeus Smith was in love with the
gardener's girl when he came here last year, mamma says."
"Good heavens!" thought Hamlin, "what a mamma and what
children!"
"And mamma told us to get some myrtles and put them in your
room," blurted out a smaller one.
"Hush, Winnie! You know you shouldn't tell," said the
eldest.
"And you know," insisted the younger, in her little,
impertinent lisp, "mamma said we should put the myrtles, because you
made poems about myrtles; and we were to have had on our best frocks, and
met you in the hall, and--"
"Hush, Winnie!"
"And thrown roses on the floor before you; only then papa got a
telegram saying you were coming by the late train, and we had to go to
bed--"
Miss Winnie's revelations and her sister's expostulations
were interrupted by the entry of the nurse, or governess, or whatever else
she might be, carrying a large jug of milk. She had slipped on a skirt and
loose jacket of striped peasant cotton, which at a distance looked like a
dull, rich purple. She sat down at the head of the table, and began
silently helping the hot milk.
"May I cut the bread for you?" asked Hamlin, feeling quite
shy from her silence.
"I don't think you will know how to do
it," she answered. "We have only yesterday's bread at this hour, until the cook returns from market." When the milk was helped and the bread cut, she said, rather sharply--
"Now, children, say your prayer."
The children immediately set up a shrill chorus; the elder, who wished
to show off, slowly--the little ones, who were hungry, quicker; an
absurdly pseudo-poetical thanksgiving, which reminded Hamlin of the
sort of poetry presented to rich foreigners by needy Italians on creamy,
embossed, and illuminated paper. He was struck by the fact that the girl
did not join, but waited passively through this religio-poetical
ceremony; doubtless, he thought, because she was a Catholic.
"That's mamma's Tuesday hymn," said Winnie;
"she makes a different one for each day of the week."
Whereupon the children fell vigorously to their breakfast of bread and
milk. Heaven knows when Hamlin had eaten bread and milk
last--probably, he thought, not since he
had been out of frocks; but it seemed to him pleasant and pastoral. He would have enjoyed this improvised breakfast had the children chattered less incessantly (Hamlin did not care for children), and had he not continued to feel rather as if he had been courting a nursemaid. The young woman had as much as she could do in pouring out more milk, giving out more figs, and cutting more slices of bread and butter for the children; and her conversation was entirely engrossed in admonitions to them not to spill their milk, not to jump on their chairs, not to talk with their mouths full, and so forth. She seemed determined, in her sullen indifferent way, to make Hamlin understand that he might intrude his person at that breakfast-table, but that he had no chance of intruding his personality upon her notice. But her very indifference afforded Hamlin an opportunity, and, as it were, a right, to examine her appearance: one may surely look at a person who obstinately refuses to notice one. She was very beautiful, and even more than
beautiful--strange. She seemed very young, certainly, thought Hamlin--not more than nineteen at most; but her face, though of perfectly smooth complexion, without furrow or faintest wrinkle, was wholly unyouthful; the look was not of age, for you could not imagine her ever growing old, but of a perfect negation of youth. Hamlin tried to think what she might have been as a child, looking round on the childish faces about him, but in vain. The complexion was of a uniform opaque pallor, more like certain old marble than ivory; indeed you might almost imagine, as she sat motionless at the head of the table, that this was no living creature, but some sort of strange statue--cheek and chin and forehead of Parian marble, scarcely stained a dull red in the lips, and hair of dull wrought-iron, and eyes of some mysterious greyish-blue, slate-tinted onyx: a beautiful and sombre idol of the heathen. And the features were stranger and more monumental even than the substance in which they seemed carved by
some sharp chisel, delighting in gradual hollowing of cheek and eye, in sudden cutting of bold groove and cavity of nostril and lip. The forehead was high and narrow, the nose massive, heavy, with a slight droop that reminded Hamlin of the head of Antinous; the lips thick, and of curiously bold projection and curl; the faintly hollowed cheek subsided gradually into a neck round and erect like a tower, but set into the massive chest as some strong supple branch into a tree-trunk. He wondered as he looked at her; and wondered whether this strange type, neither Latin nor Greek, but with something of Jewish and something of Ethiopian subdued into a statuesque but most un-Hellenic beauty, had met him before. The nearest approach seemed to be certain mournful and sullen heads of Michaelangelo, the type was so monumental, and at the same time so picturesque; and as he looked at the girl, it seemed, despite its strangeness, as if, at some dim distant time, he had seen and known it well before.
He looked at her with the curiosity of an artist examining a model, or a
poet trying to solve a riddle; there was, he felt conscious, nothing
insolent or offensive in his stare. Yet he felt he must break the silence;
so, with real indifference, he suddenly asked--
" How is it that you speak English so marvellously well? No one
would ever guess that you were not English."
"I am English," answered the girl.
English nationality had explained many otherwise unaccountable mixed
types to Hamlin; but this took him by surprise, and left him utterly
incredulous. This girl certainly was no Englishwoman--a Jewess,
perhaps. No, never; no Jewess was ever so pure and statuesque of
outline: some Eastern, dashed with Hindoo or Negro; they were much
coarser, more common, of far more obvious, less subtle beauty.
"You mean English by adoption," he suggested, "surely
not by blood?"
"My mother was an Italian. I think her
family came from Sicily or Sardinia, or somewhere,where there are Spaniards and Moors," she answered; "but my father was Scotch. He came from Aberdeen."
"Have you ever been in Scotland?" he asked, just by way of
saying something to mitigate the personalness of his previous
questions.
"No," she answered, and her lips closed as with a spring;
then she added, as if to close all further conversation, "I was born
in Italy; my father was employed at Spezia in the docks."
The eldest Miss Perry raised her pretty little sentimental head
pertly.
"Annina's father was one of those who make the big
men-of-war at Spezia."
"Oh, you know, we once went with papa, and saw a
man-of-war, and all the boilers and big, big cannons,"
interrupted a smaller one.
"And he was a bad, bad man," went on the eldest, composedly.
"He used to drink quantities of
acquavite; and one day when he had
drunk so much acquavite, do you know what he did? He tried to throw Annina's mother out of the window, and then shot himself with a revolver."
Hamlin listened as the cruel words dribbled out, and stared at the
childish face. He had never taken any interest in children; but he had
never thought that a child could be so deliberately (as it seemed to him)
malignant. The words made his ears burn, and he felt indignant, confused,
and humiliated, as if he were a party to them. He did not look at the girl;
but he somehow saw, or felt, the sullen, suppressed bitterness of shame in
her tragic face.
"And is it true," interrupted Winnie, "that you are
going to do our picture? Mamma said you would want to paint us angels or
fairies. All the painters paint us, because, mamma says, we are the most
beautiful children in Florence. They always give us chocolate and
marrons glacés to keep us
quiet."
Hamlin looked down upon the innocent-looking little fiend with a
sort of disgust and contempt. "Thank you," he said;
"gardens aren't much in my line."
The little thing scowled at this rebuff of her fascinations. But a
sudden thought struck Hamlin. "Yes, by the way," he said,
"I do take an interest in gardens sometimes. Come and show me
yours."
Mildred slipped her arm through his--a long-legged,
fair-haired, pre-Raphaelite child, in much-darned
stockings and patched pinafore--Winnie, the second, a rounder, more
comfortable, cherubic beauty, seized his hand. He let himself be led along,
among the prattle of the little one and the assumed shyness of the elder,
through the vineyard, where the tall, red-tipped sorghum brooms
stood among the trailing pumpkins and the tufts of fennel, to a small grove
behind the house, in whose shade were four little raked-up spaces,
with drooping marigolds and zinnias stuck into the earth, and small box
sprigs.
"This is my garden!" cried Winnie, dragging him along, and
pointing to the melancholy little patch. "I have marigolds, and
sunflowers, and red beans and potatoes."
"And this is mine," said Mildred, raising her big blue eyes.
"I call it the garden of Acrasia; because mamma told us once about
Sir Guyon--"
"Won't you give us anything to buy seeds
with; we want tomato seeds," clamoured Winnie.
"Hush, Winnie! I wonder you're not ashamed!" cried
Mildred.
"They are very good sort of gardens," said Hamlin, fishing
in his waistcoat for loose silver, while the children looked at him with
beaming eyes; "here--I hope your tomatoes may prosper and prove
eatable."
Then he suddenly turned to Mildred. "Come here," he ordered,
"I want to speak to you ;" and he sat down on a stone bench
under a plane-tree, in which the cicala was sawing away with all his
might.
Mildred stood in front of him, wondering, half hoping for the usual
request that she should sit for an angel or a fairy.
"Look here," said Hamlin, quietly; "I want to know how
you would feel if your papa had been in the habit of drinking too much
acquavite, and had shot himself after trying
to murder your mamma, and some nasty little girl blurted it all out at
breakfast to a perfect stranger?"
The child flushed with surprise and anger; she looked as if she would
have scratched Hamlin's eyes out. But he looked steadily in her face,
and he was a stranger, a gentleman, a man, and not her papa; circumstances
which entirely overawed her. She recovered her composure marvellously, and
answered after a moment's reflection, "My papa is a gentleman,
and Annina's papa was a common man --a
mascalzone,"--with considerable
triumph at her dignified argument.
"Your papa is a gentleman," replied Hamlin,
sternly; "I have known him long before you were born. But remember,
if you say cruel things which hurt people's feelings, whether they be
gentle people or servants, however much your papa may be a gentleman,
you won't be a lady."
And Hamlin left the little Perrys to muse upon this moral truth. He felt
quite excited; and when the excitement had subsided, he felt quite
astonished at himself. He could scarcely realise that he himself had
actually been
meddling in other people's affairs, had been reading a lesson to other people's children, all about a little girl saying offensive things to her nurse. It was so strange that it quite humiliated him: he had first pushed his company on to a nursemaid, and then, unasked, fought the nursemaid's battle. This confounded Perry household! Was it going to turn him also into a ridiculous caricature? He went up-stairs and wrote some business letters, and corrected a lot of proof of his new book. Then he thought it would be pleasanter to correct the remainder in the garden; so he brought down his writing-case, and established himself on the grass behind the house. The first-floor balcony and the roof projected a deep shade; and on the high grass flickered shadows of plane-trees and laurels, as through their branches there flickered the pale-blue sky. The swifts flew round the eaves with sharp noise, the cicalas sawed in the trees; all was profoundly peaceable. But suddenly, from the first-floor windows came a vague sound of
childish sobbing, a confused murmur as if of consolation. Then a pause, after which a well-known voice arose shrill in glib Italian.
"Annina, how dare you distress the signorina Mildred? How dare you
say cruel things to my poor, poor sensitive child?"
"I have said nothing cruel to the signorina Mildred,"
answered a deep, quiet voice; "the signorina Mildred went to show her
garden to Mr Hamlin, and then came back crying. I asked her what had
happened, but she refused to tell me. I have nothing to do with her
tears."
"How dare you tell such an untruth?" shrieked Mrs Perry.
"The signorina Mildred said something about your father at breakfast,
and you, like a little viper, turned round upon the poor little darling.
She is nearly in hysterics! You little serpent!"
"It is one of Miss Mildred's usual lies," answered the
other voice calmly--"una delle solite bugíe."
Hamlin had been admitted too much into
confidence. He took up his writing things hastily, and removed to the furthest end of the garden, out of reach of the dispute.
This was the pretty result of his interference! He had merely got this
poor devil of a nursemaid into a scrape. It was the fit punishment for his
folly in going out of his way to meddle with other folk. He was very much
annoyed; he had been dragged into a sordid woman's squabble; Mrs
Perry's scolding had seemed addressed to him. At the same time, he
did feel indignant that the girl should be treated in this fashion:
such a splendid, queenly creature slanged by a sentimental, æsthetic
fishwife, as he defined his hostess to himself.
The return of Melton Perry interrupted his reflections. Perry was quite
astonished to find him up, and extremely distressed at his having had no
regular breakfast.
"You see," he said, "Mrs Perry is very
delicate--in short, scarcely fit for any kind of household
bother,--so that--"
"Oh," answered Hamlin, "I had a capital breakfast with
your children."
Then they fell to talking of old times; and little by little there
emerged from out of the overworked, henpecked Melton Perry of the present,
the resemblance of the proud and brilliant Melton Perry of the past.
"Of course," said Perry, as they sat smoking in the
sheltered studio--"of course I'm very happy, and that sort
of thing. My wife--well, she's a little impetuous, and I
don't always agree about her way of bringing up the
children--but there's no saying that she isn't an
immensely superior kind of woman. I don't always agree with her, mind
you; but she has the true poetic temperament, and"--here he made
an evident effort--"she keeps me up to the mark with my work. I
was always a lazy hound, you know, and all that. In short, I know I'm
quite a singularly fortunate man. Nevertheless,--well, I tell you my
frank opinion about matrimony: never do it; the odds
are too great. My own belief is, that, especially for an artist, it's a fellow's ruin. Mine, you see, is an exceptional position. But if you take my advice, old man, never marry."
"I don't think there is the faintest chance," answered
Hamlin. "Women have got to bore me long ago: all that in my
poems is mere recollections of the past--descriptions of a myself
which has long come to an end."
"I'm glad of it," replied Perry. "It is a
foolish thing to get tied to a woman."
"Foolish indeed!" thought Hamlin, looking from his shabby,
depressed old comrade, to the blazing sunsets and green moonlights on the
easels about them.
"That is a very strange-looking girl you have in your
service," he remarked to his hostess, over their grapes and thin
wine.
"The cook?" cried Mrs Perry. "Isn't she a divine
creature? I call her Monna Lisa's younger sister."
"I don't know your cook by sight," he answered.
"I mean the other young woman they call Annina--"
Mrs Perry's brow darkened.
"The nurse--or governess,--I don't know exactly
how to describe her,--of your little girls."
"My children's maid," answered Mrs Perry, with
considerable emphasis. "Thank heaven, my children have never had and
shall never have any other nurse or any other governess than their own
mother."
"Well, now, Julia," remonstrated her husband, "I
think, you know, that's pushing it a little too far."
"My children shall never learn anything from a menial,"
insisted Mrs Perry, "neither to walk bodily, nor morally, nor
intellectually, as long as I am alive."
"Good heavens!" thought Hamlin, "what a
bandy-legged family they are likely to turn out!"
"I suppose you mean Annie," said Perry. "Yes,
she's a good girl, and a good-looking girl."
"You are mad, Melton," cried Mrs Perry, "with your
idea of goodness and good looks!"
"I think her extraordinarily good-looking," put in
Hamlin, enjoying the authority of his own verdict.
"I always told you so," replied Perry.
"When I say good-looking," corrected Hamlin, "I
don't mean it at all in the ordinary sense. There are dozens of
Italian girls five times as pretty as that girl, and I daresay most people
don't think her at all attractive."
"Yes," burst out Mrs Perry, "vulgar minds and eyes
never appreciate the higher beauty. They see only the body."
"This is exactly a question of the body," went on Hamlin.
"That girl is one of the most singular types I have ever come across.
She is like some of Michaelangelo's women, but even stranger--a
superb creature."
The revelation of her maid's beauty by so great an authority as
Hamlin quite dazzled and delighted Mrs Perry.
"All our servants are handsome," she said; "the
cook's the finest Leonardo da Vinci type--when you see her you
will want to do her
picture, Mr Hamlin, as Venus Mystica," and Mrs Melton Perry set her meagre features and wide-opening mouth into a mystic smile, intimating that she knew a great deal about Venus Mystica, and her guest doubtless likewise.
"And the footman" . . . she went on.
"Errand-boy," corrected Mr Perry, suddenly,
emboldened by his friend's presence.
"The footman is quite a type of manly beauty--a young
Hercules,--such a neck and shoulders and arms--and a head like a
cameo. I always make it a rule to engage only handsome servants, because it
spiritualises the minds of our children to be brought up constantly
surrounded by beautiful human forms."
"I see," answered Hamlin drily, entirely neglecting his
opportunity of making the usual reply to this remark--namely, that the
young Perrys were so abundantly provided with beautiful human form in the
person of their mother that any other was superfluous.
"That girl you noticed has rather a curious history," said
Perry.
"Indeed!" answered Hamlin;"she looks as if she ought
to have some sort of tragic past--a kind of Brynhilt or
Amazon."
"It's tragic enough if you like, but it's
unfortunately not at all poetical," replied Perry.
"There is poetry in all suffering, Melton," corrected his
wife gravely.
"Well, this girl is the daughter of a Scotch mechanic, a very
clever fellow, I believe, who fell in love with the Italian maid of some
old friends of ours, and followed her to Italy. He got a very good position
in the docks at Spezia, but then the other chaps caballed against him, and
made him lose his place. They had to live from hand to mouth for a long
while, doing odd jobs for the railway company; he squandered his money also
on inventions, so, little by little, he and his wife and children got into
great distress. Then he took to drinking, poor devil! (I'm sure I
should have done so long before;) and one day that he had again been done
out of a place by some Italian scoun-
drel, he tried to throw his wife out of the window, and then shot himself. It was a dreadful business."
"He was a great republican, poor dear," added Mrs Perry.
"I'm a republican too, a socialist--quite a dreadful
creature, Mr Hamlin."
"What became of the wife and children ?" asked Hamlin.
"The children had all died by this time, except Annie; and the
poor wife was quite broken in health. There was a nephew of the
husband's, a Scotch lad, quite a boy, who was awfully plucky and
worked for them for some time. Then the widow died; and an old friend of
ours, old Miss Curzon, the famous singer that had been--perhaps you
may have heard of her--took Annie into her house."
"Darling Miss Curzon!" exclaimed Mrs Perry. "She was
the noblest woman that ever lived. How she loved me! I always say that I
lost my voice--I had a lovely voice before my marriage--when dear
darling Miss Curzon died."
"Miss Curzon was an excellent old woman," went
on Perry: "she took Annie when she was eleven, and kept her in
her house and educated her till her own death two years ago;" and
Perry sighed, as he peeled a hard white peach.
"Then I said to my husband, 'Perry, this child is a legacy
to us from our dearest friend,'" went on Mrs Perry, solemnly;
"'we are not rich, but Heaven will send us enough for our
children and this child; and if it don't, why, we must do
without.'"
"So she has been with you ever since?"
"Yes," answered Perry, sharply; "and I should like her
to remain for the children's sake, only that I feel the girl ought to
look out for some better place." And he turned rather gloomily to
his wife.
Mrs Perry answered his look with one of sweet and ineffable
astonishment. She naturally viewed all her property, servants, children,
husband, &c., as emanations from herself--that is to say, from
perfection, and consequently as
more perfect than other folk's property, servants, children, husbands, although occasionally falling short of this ineffable origin; and she accepted, with alacrity and pleasure, the belief in the transcendent beauty of the nursemaid whom she had shrieked at only a few hours before. She was quite reconciled to her, evidently.
"And what is this girl's name?" asked Hamlin.
"Anne," answered Perry--" Anne Brown."
The whole of the two following days, Hamlin neither saw nor particularly
remembered the strange girl whose champion he had constituted himself
against the little Perrys. An old chaise, with an older pony, was produced
from the neighbouring farmhouse, and Mr and Mrs Melton Perry took it by
turns to drive their guest along the dusty roads to the old town of Lucca,
to various villas, and other sights of the neighbourhood. In the evening
Perry led his friend out for a stroll among the vineyards and
the olives, and across the low hills covered with bright green pines and dark cypresses. At the end of the third day, Hamlin, while smoking after dinner with his host, insinuated to Perry that he really thought he must be pushing on to Florence. A look of blank terror overspread poor Perry's face.
"Nonsense!" he cried--"don't say that;
don't leave me in the lurch yet."
"You see," said Hamlin, hypocritically, "I intend
going to America; and I really think I ought to do a little work before
leaving Italy."
"What sort of work?"
"Why, I suppose--I think--I ought to take this
opportunity of working a little at one of my pictures for the next
Grosvenor."
"Which picture?" asked Perry, eagerly.
"I really scarcely know. I suppose I ought to be making some
studies for Circe and the child Comus."
"Child Comus!" exclaimed Perry. "Why, I've the
very thing you want here at hand.
Such a Comus for you! There's not a model in all Florence will suit you so well; it's the farmer's son. Such legs, and such a chest!"
"I don't intend doing him naked," answered Hamlin,
whose strong point was not anatomy.
"Naked or not, he's what you want. The head, since you
don't care for legs and chest. You shall have him to-morrow;
and you can work much better here than in that swelter at
Florence--"
"In short," burst out poor Perry, "don't leave
me yet, old fellow. You don't know what it is for me to have you
here--I feel quite another man. It seems to me as if I were ten years
younger. The fact is, don't you know, a man's never the same
when once married; it's a weight round his neck. Don't go away
yet, dear old Watty, for the sake of auld lang syne."
Hamlin could not help being touched by the way in which his old friend
threw himself on his compassion. Poor old Perry! How
dreadfully dreary and broken-spirited he must be when all alone with that awful wife of his!
"Well, I'm willing enough to stay, if you'll keep
me," answered Hamlin.
"That's right!" cried Perry, squeezing his hand.
"Keep me from growing into a turnip for a little longer, for
goodness' sake."
So the next morning the farmer's boy was sent for, and Hamlin
began, in a desultory way, to make some studies for his picture. The fact
was, he was so utterly indifferent as to all his own movements, that it was
an absolute relief to be pinned down to one place by his old friend.
Accordingly he unpacked his things, and prepared to stay at the Villa
Arnolfini until the Perrys should themselves return to Florence in
October.
Little by little he got to arrange his day so as to avoid as far as
possible the dreaded
tête-à-tête
with Mrs Perry; spending the morning lying on the sear grass or the fallen
fir-needles under Melton Perry's sketching umbrella; and
locking himself up during the afternoon with the pretext of his picture. Locking himself up, and sometimes unlocking the door and letting the lank and limp lady come and sit in his improvised studio, entertaining him with her views on life, poetry, art, love; and invariably representing herself as the devoted slave of a kind of fierce and gloomy lover-husband of the Othello description. During this first week of his stay at the Villa Arnolfini, Hamlin did not lose sight of the Perrys' strange nursemaid. The girl's exotic, and, so to speak, tragic style of beauty, had made a great impression upon him, but a sort of impression such as only a temper entirely artistic could receive. He was interested in Anne Brown, but not in the whole of Anne Brown. He wished to see more of her, but to see more only of her superb physical appearance, and of that sullen, silent, almost haughty manner which accompanied it. As to anything there might be, intellectual or moral, behind this beautiful and dramatic creature, he did not
care in the least, and would much rather have seen nothing of it. So far, she was striking, admirable, picturesque, consistent; further details might merely spoil the effect. Hence it was that, although he made several sketches of her head from memory, and although he rhymed the first half of a sonnet upon the strange fate which had, to put it in plain prose, given the beauty of an Amazon to a nursemaid, he instinctively abstained from seeking in any way to renew the acquaintance which he had made that first morning. The picturesque and imaginative figure was just in the right light and at the right distance,--a single movement, and all the picturesqueness and strangeness might vanish. Walter Hamlin had had but too many instances of the melancholy results of trying to approach and become familiar with creatures who had caught his æsthetic and poetic fancy. He often saw her hurrying (if she might ever be said to hurry, for there was something wonderfully measured about her) to and fro, filling up,
it would seem, the gaps in Mrs Perry's rather theoretical housekeeping; and sometimes, passing through the ground-floor passage, he would also see her ironing, like that first time, or laboriously presiding over the little Perrys' lessons; for it appeared that Mrs Perry's intellectual guidance of her children consisted in telling them the plots of novels and repeating choice poetry, leaving such mechanical matters as reading and writing to what she called a menial. And even more frequently Hamlin would meet her taking the children for a walk, or sitting in the vineyard sewing or reading, while they built houses of leaves and sticks, and cooked dinners of maize-grains and unripe figs. Hamlin scarcely ever spoke to her; and if the children forced him to remain and examine their houses or their dinners, he would watch the girl, but without the slightest desire of entering into conversation. He wished to know only as much as he could see of her. But this much which he saw inspired him with a kind of respect,--a respect not for Anne
Brown, nursemaid or nursery-governess of Mrs Melton Perry, but respect for a beautiful and solemn kind of Valkyr or Amazon; for there is no doubt that to certain temperaments not given to respect for social distinctions or religious institutions, or even the kind of moral characteristics held to be worthy of respect by ordinary folk, there is something actually venerable in some kinds of beauty: the man respects the unknown woman as a goddess, and respects himself for having discovered her divinity. So that, habitually and instinctively, Hamlin displayed towards the young woman a degree of courtesy which astonished the little Perrys, who had seen young men flirt with various of their mother's carefully selected beautiful servants, but never treat them, as Miss Mildred expressed it, as if they were funerals passing. All of which distant respect Anne Brown received coldly, as if it were a matter of course; showing astonishment only on one occasion, when Hamlin answered, being requested to lift little Winnie into the branches
of an olive-tree--"You must first ask permission of Miss Brown."
The girl looked up from her work, and fixed her great
greyish-blue eyes upon him in wonder. No one had ever called her
Miss Brown before.
Thus things might have continued, and Hamlin have left the Villa
Arnolfini with only a few lines of a sonnet on the fly-leaf of his
'Vita Nuova'--a few scratched-out sketches of a
face with strange, curling full lips, and masses of wiry hair, in his
sketchbook--and a daily fainter remembrance of Mrs Perry's
nurse; when one day he took it into his head to construct a kind of
medieval costume for his peasant-boy model, and accordingly went to
Mrs Perry for assistance in sewing together the various shreds of old
brocade and satin which he had bought at Lucca, the various bits of
weather-stained cotton which he had obtained by barter from the
peasants. Mrs Perry, lying languidly on a sofa in her dusty boudoir,
littered over with
books and reviews, afforded him a variety of valuable pieces of information upon harmonies of colours and the magic of folds; but when it came to practical tailoring, she smiled with reproachful gentleness, and, clapping her hands, called out for Annie. Annie--that is to say, Anne Brown--emerged from an adjacent room, silent and sullen as usual; but when she understood that the job was for Hamlin, she seemed suddenly to develop a certain interest in it. The pieces of stuff were spread out on the drawing-room table, and Hamlin proceeded to explain what manner of garment he wanted, Mrs Perry joining in from the next room with various bewildering instructions. The girl immediately understood; but the piece of work was complicated and tiresome. The stuff had several times to be sewn together, tried on to the live model, and then taken down-stairs to be altered.
"Won't you sit down and do it here, Miss Brown?"
Hamlin at length suggested.
The girl hesitated for a moment, and then
settled herself to sew at the table of the empty drawing-room. Hamlin went into the studio next door, and tried to draw a little; but he felt himself attracted to go and watch the girl as she leaned over the table, or sat with her beautiful head bending over her sewing. Every now and then she looked up to ask him some question: a regal, tragic, out-of-our-world, almost weird face, the contrast of which with her prosiac questions about seams and tucks was almost comic.
Hamlin looked at her as he might have looked at a beautiful cathedral
front; and he began to feel that kind of anticipated regret at the thought
of losing sight of something beautiful and rare, that almost painful desire
to keep at least some durable likeness of it, which, in former years, had
often tormented him in the midst of the enjoyment of lovely things. He did
not see his way to introducing Anne Brown into any picture; nay, he perhaps
did not even think of his work; but he determined that he must have a
likeness of
her to take away with him. Accordingly, that same evening, as he was seated with the Perrys in front of the villa, watching the stars gradually lighting themselves in the bright metallic blue sky, Hamlin suddenly turned to his hostess, and asked her whether she thought it would be possible for him to make a sketch of Anne Brown.
"I may want her for a picture some day," he added, half
hypocritically.
Mrs Perry's enthusiasm was immediately kindled.
"Oh !" she exclaimed, "paint a picture of her as the
Witch of Atlas, with a red cloak and red roses all about her, and a
background of cactuses and aloes all twisting and writhing, and looking as
if they gibbered. Do paint her like that, dear Mr Hamlin--and Mildred
and Winnie will do for attendant spirits. Begin to-morrow--you
shall have her to sit to you all day; and she has such lovely arms and
shoulders, you must paint her in some kind of dress that will
show them."
"I think it's rather cool of you to promise Annie as a
sitter in that way," put in Melton Perry--"especially with
so few clothes on, Julia."
"Why not?" asked Mrs Perry, in astonishment. "If she
is beautiful she must be painted. She shall begin sitting to-morrow
morning."
"She shan't do anything of the kind!" exclaimed Perry,
suddenly. "I don't see at all what right we have to dispose of
her. We pay her wages as a servant for our children, not as a model for our
visitors."
"I never dreamed of Miss Brown being in any way compelled to
sit," remonstrated Hamlin, rather indignantly. "I only wanted
your assistance in asking whether she would."
"Of course she will," insisted Mrs Perry. "Why, I
wonder what great hardship there is in sitting for one's likeness?
Haven't I done it hundreds of times? When a woman is beautiful,
it's her duty; that's what I was always told."
"It may be the duty of a lady, Julia,"
an-
swered Mr Perry, gloomily, "and it may be yours; but it isn't the duty of a servant girl--the difference lies in that."
"Well," retorted Mrs Perry, angrily, "I think you
don't show much appreciation of the honour of having one of the
greatest of living painters in our house, Perry. I do, and I shall see to
his having the proper model."
"Please, I entreat you, dear Mrs Perry," cried
Hamlin," do let the matter go--it really is of no consequence;
and, indeed, it would be in the last degree distasteful to me to have an
unwilling sitter."
"You shall have a willing one, Mr Hamlin;" and Mrs Perry
walked off with dignity.
Melton Perry suddenly shook off his languor, and started after his
wife.
"Julia," he cried, "do leave it to me--I'll
speak to Annie--only do leave it to me."
"I see no reason for this," she answered.
"Then I shall speak to Annie at once," replied Perry.
"There's been far too much of this turning of servants into
models in this house," he said, turning to Hamlin. "Mrs Perry
can't be got to see that it isn't at all the right sort of
thing. I don't mind so much with the others, for I suppose
they're a parcel of sluts; but Annie is another matter. I don't
mind it's being you, you know, old fellow; but I object to the
principle. Annie! Annie! I want to speak to you a moment," and Mr
Perry went into the house.
After a moment he returned.
"I've spoken to her, Hamlin," he said. "I told
her that she was just what you wanted for the Lady Guenevere or the Lady of
the Lake, or some lady or other--all a lie; but you see I didn't
wish her to know it was merely because she's handsome. I told her she
was like a portrait of one of these persons. Please don't tell her
she's not. I really expected she'd refuse; and I said to her,
'Annie, mind you don't let the mistress force you into sitting;
don't do it to please anybody.' I'm
really quite surprised, for she's such a very reserved girl always; but then she is an obliging creature too, and I think she'll do more to please me than perhaps my wife, because I always let her understand that this isn't a good place at all, and that she ought to try for another. Well, she says she'll sit; but not till after the ironing is done in the morning. I proposed half-past nine--will that do?"
"Thank you," answered Hamlin, putting his hand on
Perry's shoulder; "you're a good old creature,
Perry."
"I have bungled everything," he said at last, rising,
"and kept you here for nothing,
Miss Brown. The fact is, that you are far more difficult to draw than I expected."
He felt very humiliated at having, as it were, to confess himself a bad
artist before such a model.
"Try again," suggested Perry. "I daresay Annie will
sit for you again--won't you, Annie?"
"If Mr Hamlin wishes me to sit, certainly," answered the
girl simply.
"She is confoundedly difficult to draw," said
Hamlin, when she had turned her back.
"She's difficult because she's a kind of
mystery," explained Perry. "I've felt it ever since we
have had her. One thinks there must be something behind that face, and yet
it seems to be a mere blank. My belief is, that people of this condition of
life often have very little character--at least none in particular
developed. Because, after all, it's talking and jawing about things
which don't matter a pin that develops our character. The people who
have no opportunity for that remain quite
without character, until some day they are forced to choose whether they'll be self-sacrificing creatures or mean pigs."
"There's something in that," answered Hamlin, tearing
up his abortive sketches in a huff; "but it is hard that
a man should be unable to copy the shape of a handsome face as he would
copy the shape of a handsome vase, without wondering what there may be
inside."
The fact was, that the utter silence of his model, and his own utter
silence, except when begging her to turn a little more in this direction or
that, made Hamlin nervous. He had, of course, sketched and painted scores
of people who had sat as utterly silent as Anne Brown, but then Anne Brown
was not a model of that kind. Indifferent as he felt towards the hidden
reality of this girl, he was, nevertheless, fully conscious that she was a
personality, something much more than a mere form; or rather, the form
itself was suggestive of something more. It would be an easy thing to have
to sketch Michaelangelo's Dawn, or
his Delphic Sibyl become living flesh, in utter silence with those eyes fixed upon one. If only he could speak to her, or make her speak, he was persuaded it would be much easier; but for some unaccountable reason it seemed impossible to set up a conversation. One morning accident came to Hamlin's assistance. Strolling about after breakfast, he found in a corner of the vineyard, where the trampled grass revealed the recent presence of the little Perrys, a couple of books carefully buried under a heap of dead leaves just where he chanced to walk. The children had evidently hidden them out of mischief. One was a cheap copy of Dante, with notes--the other an Italian grammar. Turning to the fly-leaf he found, written in a curious hand, a stiff imitation of English tradesmen's writing, the name "Anne Brown." He wiped the books, for they were wet with dew, and deposited them upon the window-sill of the nursery. At half-past nine the girl came to the studio. She had been sitting a little while, when Hamlin,
bending over his work, suddenly broke the silence--
"I find we have a common friend, Miss Brown," he said.
The girl, without stirring, opened her large eyes.
"A common friend?" she asked, with a scarcely perceptible
agitation in her quiet manner; then added, "I suppose you mean Mr
Perry; I haven't many friends now anywhere."
"Oh! this is the friend of a great many
people--thousands--besides ourselves, so you need not feel
jealous; his name is Dante."
"Indeed!" answered Anne Brown, and relapsed into
silence.
But silence did not suit Hamlin. "I found two books belonging to
you in the vineyard early this morning," he continued; "and I
put them on the nursery window-sill."
"Thank you," replied Miss Brown, in her taciturn manner;
"I missed them last night."
"I was indiscreet enough to wonder whether
you and I cared for the same things in Dante," pursued Hamlin; "so I ventured to open the book. I found you had marked the passage about Provenzano."
"Yes," said Miss Brown.
"How is it that you marked Provenzano, and did not mark Ugolino, I
wonder?"
"I don't care about Ugolino. He was a traitor."
"Do you consider that traitors ought to be starved to
death?" asked Hamlin, with a smile.
"I don't think any one ought to be starved to death,"
she answered very seriously; "it is too dreadful. But I don't
care about Ugolino, because he was a traitor; and the Archbishop was a
traitor too. There is no one to be glad or sorry about."
"And Francesca da Rimini? Do you find there is nothing to care for
or be sorry about in her?"
A faint redness welled up under the uniform brown pallor of Anne
Brown's face.
"The husband was quite right," she said, after a pause.
"You are very severe," remarked Hamlin--"much
more severe than Dante. He was sorry for them."
"They were quite happy," she answered. "They did not
mind being killed; they did not mind being driven about in the wind, of
course"--then she stopped short suddenly.
"Why of course?" and Hamlin went on scraping at his
pencil.
"Because I don't think one would mind, if people cared for
one, being driven about in the wind like that. Lots of people have been
driven about in revolutions, and put into dungeons together, and so on. If
they had put papa in prison, I should have wanted to go in with
him,"--for once she spoke with a certain amount of
vehemence.
Hamlin looked up from his pencil-cutting. The expression which he
suddenly met in her face made him feel that at last he had what he wanted.
It was a curious mixture, possible
only in those strange features, of a kind of passionate effort with dogged determination: the head a little lifted, cheeks and lips firmly set; but in the eyes, and even in the curl of the close-set lips, a sort of strain, as of a person trying to inhale a larger amount of air, or to take in a larger sight. In a second it was gone.
"That is what I want!" thought Hamlin; "the Amazon or
Valkyr--as I thought."
"Tell me why you care for Provenzano," he went on, now much
more interested in his work again.
"Because he was so proud, and did not like to do humble
things," she answered; "and yet he begged in the streets for a
ransom for his friend."
She showed no desire to say more, and Hamlin was now engrossed in his
work. They exchanged but a few trivial remarks during the rest of the
sitting. The girl seemed to have contracted a habit of silence, to break
through which required a positive effort. When the
sitting had come to an end, Hamlin asked whether she could possibly give him another.
She hesitated. "If Mrs Perry wishes it, of course," she
answered.
"Excuse me," corrected Hamlin. "Mrs Perry's
consent may be necessary for you; but for me, the sitting depends upon your
wishes, Miss Brown."
"I don't care one way or another," she answered
hurriedly.
Mrs Perry of course gave her consent.
She had carefully collected and pieced the scattered remnants of
yesterday's abortive sketches, and Hamlin found her pasting them on
to cardboard.
"Do let me keep them, dear Mr Hamlin," cried Mrs Perry;
"they are the most precious things I possess."
"They are horrible rubbish;" and Hamlin rudely tore them to
shreds. "If you want something of mine, I will make you a sketch of
little Winnie--only please don't keep these fearful
things."
"Thank you, thank you so much!" she
exclaimed--"but oh, mayn't I keep this? it is such a
lovely head!"
"It's the head of Miss Brown," he answered angrily.
"You don't care for it much on her shoulders,--why should
you care for it on my paper--an abominable caricature? Really, I must
be permitted to tear it up"--and he tore it into a heap of
little pieces.
The next day but one he had another sitting from Anne Brown; and he was
so pleased with his drawing, that he begged for permission to finish it in
colours. During these additional sittings there was not much conversation.
The Dante topic was perfectly worn to shreds, till at last it seemed as if
it could be made to go no further. In despair, Hamlin remembered the
Italian grammar which he had picked up together with the Dante.
"What do you want with an Italian grammer?" he asked.
"You surely don't require to study it yourself, Miss
Brown?"
"I want to teach some day," she answered.
"Do you mean to teach the Perry children?"
"Oh no--to teach, to be a daily governess, what we call a
parlatrice here. It is not difficult. The
lessons are all conversation. Many English ladies want those sort of
lessons. I know a girl, the daughter of Mrs Perry's dressmaker, who
gives ten lessons every day, and and gets two francs a lesson."
"Ten lessons a-day! But that's fearful. What awful
slavery! Surely you don't want to do that?"
"I wish I could. I should be so happy."
"Then you want to leave the Perrys?"
"I want to give up being a servant."
Hamlin paused, and looked at this superb and regal creature. He did not
know what to say.
"You don't care for children?" he asked at random.
"I don't know. I don't care for these children,"
she answered bluntly.
"I thought women always liked children."
She smiled bitterly.
"Oh," she said, "children are worse sometimes than
grown people; and then one can't resent it, or answer bad words, or
strike them, just because they are children."
"Then you think you would prefer being a teacher of
Italian?"
"Oh yes, I must become that some day; I study when I have a little
time. A teacher talks with ladies, and talks about all sorts of
things."
"How do you mean--about all sorts of things?"
"About things--which are not things to eat, or mend, or
clean,--about books, and places, and people."
Hamlin could not help smiling. "Is that such a rare
pleasure?" he asked, thinking not of the girl with whom he was
talking, but of those weary æsthetic discussions which he had left
behind him in London.
"Miss Curzon used to talk about books to me--and about music,
sometimes," said the girl. "She made me read Shakespeare with
her. That is long, long ago."
"And since then. Do you never talk about such things?"
"Never."
"Never?"
Anne Brown raised her eyes quietly. "Never, except with you,
sir."
Hamlin did not answer.
Towards the end of the sitting, he suddenly looked up.
"Have you ever read the 'Vita Nuova,' Miss
Brown?" he asked.
"What's the 'Vita Nuova'?"
"It is a little book by Dante, in prose and verse, telling how he
met Beatrice, and then how she died. It is much more beautiful than the
'Divina Commedia.'"
She looked incredulous.
"Is it more beautiful than Bertran del Bornio, where he carried
his head like a lantern? Or Bocca degli Abati, where they all change into
snakes? Or Cacciaguida when he prophesies about Dante's
exile?"
"It is quite different--all about beautiful things, and
love."
"I don't care for that."
"You must read it some day, though."
Miss Brown was silent, and relapsed into her usual sullen
appearance.
"I say, Hamlin, old fellow," said Perry, as they walked up
and down in the garden that evening, "do you care to see the festival
at Lucca to-morrow? I'm going to take the children in for a
treat, and I shall take Annie too--for she never gets any amusement,
poor girl. I've hired a waggonette--will you be of the
party?"
"Will you let me think about it, Perry? I don't much go in
for festivals."
"This is a picturesque affair--really worth
seeing."
"By the way," asked Hamlin, "I have nearly finished my
sketch of Miss Brown, and I should like--I suppose I ought--to
make her some little present."
"I wouldn't," answered Melton Perry sharply;
"she's an odd girl, and you might just hurt her feelings. You
see her father was a republican, and that sort of thing, so she's got
all sorts of notions about equality and so forth. Awful bosh, of course, but still I think it's as well she should have them as not."
"I didn't mean any money," said Hamlin, feeling
himself grow red at the mere thought.
"Then, if you will run the risk, give her some
school-books. You know she wants to set up as a teacher.
Grammars--that sort of thing."
Hamlin made a gesture of disgust.
"Horrible!--to give her grammars!"
"It's what she wants."
"Why, it would seem--well--it would be like encouraging
her to become a daily governess."
"That's just what I wish to do."
Hamlin did not answer. The idea of Anne Brown giving lessons at two
francs the hour jarred upon him.
If there was a thing Hamlin hated more than another, it was a holiday, a crowd, a lot of people on a jaunt.
After breakfast he went to the studio and sat down before his sketches
of Miss Brown. They were unsatisfactory, but they were as good as he could
hope to make them. He had fancied that a coloured sketch of her head would
be all that he could possibly want; but he now recognised that, after all,
the head, beautiful and singular as it was, was yet the least part of the
matter. It was the girl's gait, her way of carrying her head and
neck, her movements when at work, her postures when in repose--a
number of things of which that head gave no indication, and which, indeed,
it was difficult to render in painting, since it was all movement. He had
scribbled a few lines--just fragmentary metaphors and scraps of
description--suggested to him by Anne Brown, and wondered what use he
would make of them; indeed, what use he could make of Anne Brown
altogether. Here was a
splendid model, a splendid heroine, but he was in the mood neither for painting nor for poetry writing. He put a background of dark bay trees to one of his sketches, and then regretted having put it in at all. He no longer felt inclined to work; and, all of a sudden, an unaccountable fancy struck him to follow the holiday-makers--to go quietly into town--to see them, without, perhaps, letting himself be seen.
The sun was already high as he walked, or rather waded, along the dusty
road, with its garlands of dust-engrained vines hanging from tree to
tree on either side; its dust-stifled marsh-flowers in the
ditch; its white farmhouses, and white stone heaps, white upon white,
brilliant, relentlessly white, under the deep blue autumn sky. Before him
the bullock-carts, with sleepy drivers prostrate on their back,
moved in a white cloud; a whirlwind of dust was raised by every cariole,
heavily laden with singing and yelling peasants, which dashed past. Within
sight of the rampart trees, like a pleasant oasis of leafage in
the treeless green desert of the town, the crowd of vehicles of all sorts began. Under the red brick gate, with its statue of Justice and motto "Libertas," there was a perfect block of carts, gigs, bullocks, horses, and screaming country folk. Hamlin wriggled through, and slipped along in the scant shade of the narrower streets--empty and desolate on that holiday--ribbons of brilliant light cut into, bordered by the black shadows of overhanging roofs and balconies. A great buzz of voices came from the square of the cathedral; peasants and townsfolk elbowing about, people at booths yelling their wares, boys screeching on whistles and trumpets, cathedral bell tolling, and all the neighbouring church bells clattering and jangling. From the windows of the blackened palaces fluttered strips of crimson and yellow brocade; across the street, from balcony to balcony, and from twisted iron torchholder to twisted iron bridle-ring, were slung garlands of coloured lamps for the evening's illumination; and in the
midst of all rose the cathedral front, its tiers and tiers of twisted and sculptured pillarets, with the massive grey belfry soaring by its side into the high blue sky. Hamlin pushed his way in at one of the side gates; a rolling of organs, and quavering of choir voices, and clash of brass instruments; a hot mouthful of heavy, incense-laden atmosphere; a compact moving human mass beneath the Gothic arches; beams of light flickering among clouds of dust, and incense and taper smoke high in the arched nave; constellations of lights on altar, and organ-loft, and chandelier, yellow specks in the mid-day twilight of the cathedral; something tawdry, hushed, unbreathable, and yet impressive and beautiful.
Hamlin gradually made his way to the side of the altar-steps.
This part of the cathedral was full of women--provincial great ladies,
and shopkeepers' wives and daughters in their Sunday clothes,
brilliant caricatures of last year's Paris fashions--close
packed together on reserved seats, enjoying the incense, the
lights, the music, the holiness of the ceremony, the clothes of their neighbours, the appealing glances of the young men in elaborate silk and alpaca summer coats, with artistically combed-up heads of hair, sucking their canes all about the altar. Hamlin's entry, however quiet, was soon perceived, and the eyes of all this womankind were fixed upon the sight, rare in that country town, of an Englishman; and white silk bonnets, and black lace veils, and big red fans, and fuzzy yellow and smooth black heads, leant towards each other,--while questions went round in a whisper, who was the forestiere--the handsome forestiere--small, slight, meagre, white, with the light hair and moustache, and that melancholy face like a woman's? Hamlin was quickly bored by all this magnificence; jostled to pieces, stifled by the heat, and incense, and heavy smell of the crowd. He was going out, when, as his eyes wandered from the silver and lights of the altar, and the shining mitres and stoles of the priests, to that sea of heads and bonnets and
hats in the nave, they were suddenly and unexpectedly arrested on the side steps of the high altar just opposite to him. There, among a lot of heads, but high above them, was a head half covered with coarse black lace and crisp dark hair half turned away from him; a majestic sweep of cheek and jaw, a solemn bend of neck. A moment later the bell tinkled for the elevation of the Host, the organ burst forth into a rapid jig, and the church was a sea of bent heads, of kneeling and stooping men and women. As the people suddenly sank like a wave about the steps, there remained, stranded as it were, and rising conspicuous, the tall and massive figure of Miss Brown. She was standing on the altar-steps, whose orange-red baize cloth threw up faint yellowish tints on to her long dress of some kind of soft white wool, while the crimson brocade on wall and column formed a sort of dull red background. In the mixed light of the yellow tapers and the grey incense-laden sunbeams, her face acquired a diaphanous pallor, as if of a halo surrounding
it, as she stood, her hands hanging loosely clasped, looking calmly upon the bowed-down crowd below. One minute, and the bell tinkling again, the people rose with a muffled, shuffling noise, and hid her from Hamlin. The organ and bells were pealing, the voices and violins rising shrill, the incense curling up in grey spirals into the sunbeams among the crimson hangings. The sonnet of Guido Cavalcanti, about the Madonna picture, enshrined at Or San Michele behind the blazing tapers, and in which he recognised his lady, came into Hamlin's mind, with the sound of the music and the fumes of the incense; and together with it, a remembrance, a sort of picture, hopelessly jumbled, of Laura in the church at Avignon that Good Friday, and Beatrice among the blazing lights of the Heavenly Rose. The Mass was over, and people began to stir and leave the cathedral. Why had she remained standing while all the others had knelt? Perhaps from some Scotch puritanism; it was incongruous, thought Hamlin. But at the same time
he felt that, while incongruous in one way--for she ought certainly to have knelt like the others--it had in another respect completed an effect; this disbelieving girl had herself become, as it were, the Madonna of the place. He stood aside and let the crowd slowly pass out. Suddenly he saw, among the moving sea of heads, the flaxen curls of the little Perrys--the reddish beard of Melton Perry--the head, half covered with black lace and towering above the others, of Miss Brown. She was leading the two smaller children, and looked anxious in that great crowd. Up went one of the little yellow heads; she had taken the child in her arms. All of a sudden her eyes caught those of Hamlin standing close by, and yet separated from him by an impassable gulf of people. Her own lit up, and with them her whole face, in a smile, which he had never seen before. At last, near the church door, the crowd bore his friends straight towards him.
"What! here after all!" cried Perry. "Up to some
mischief, you cunning dog!"
"Up to the mischief of watching these good people's
devotion," answered Hamlin.
"Why did you come?" asked the children eagerly.
"I suppose because I thought I should like to amuse myself after
all," answered Hamlin.
They were out on the cathedral steps, in the full glare of the blue sky.
Outside a fountain was playing, penny whistles and trumpets shrilled on all
sides, and the people at the stalls shrieked and bellowed out their wares
to the motley crowd pouring out of the church. The children cast eyes of
longing upon the booths, decorated with tricolour flags and sprigs of
green, full of gaudy dolls, and squeaking wooden dogs, and tin trumpets,
and drums; upon the tables, covered with bottles shaped like pyramids, and
china men, and Garibaldi busts, full of red and yellow and green stuff, and
with piles of cakes with little pictures of saints stuck in the middle of
them.
"Buy us something," cried the little ones to their father
and Hamlin; and they squeezed
through the crowd, and began to hesitate before the varied splendours of the fair.
"You look very happy, Miss Brown," said Hamlin, as they were
waiting while the children made their choice. For really the girl looked
quite radiant,--an expression of unwonted happiness, of freedom and
amusement, shone through her quiet, almost solemn, face, like sunshine
through a thin film of mist, all the richer for being half suppressed.
"It is all so beautiful," she answered, looking round at the
square surrounded by high black palaces draped with crimson brocade, and
terraces covered with green, and at the cathedral, carved like a precious
casket, beneath the blue sky.
"Not more beautiful than at the Villa Arnolfini,
surely?"
She paused.
"No, not more beautiful; but more--I don't know
what."
"More cheerful?"
She shook her head. "Yes; but not so
much that; more free--more--I don't know how to call it."
The children were laden with lollipops and sixpenny toys.
"Come," said Perry suddenly, very cheerful, in his
unaccustomed freedom from his better half, "you must choose a
fairing, Annie. What will you have?--a doll?--a beautiful yellow
'kerchief with purple flowers, warranted the very worst colours in
creation? some gingerbread?--a penny whistle? No, I'm sure
you're dying for some literature"--and he turned to a
stone bench under a palace, where twopenny books were piled up, and
quantities of leaflets of ballads, and lives of saints, and romantic
histories, were strung to the wall.
"Oh!" he said, "there's nothing for Annie
here--she hates saints and knights and poetry; we must get her a book
on the 'Rights of Man,' or a 'History of the French
Revolution,' at the bookseller's in Via Fillungo. But this is
just what suits Hamlin"--and throwing
down a heap of coppers, he filled his hands with printed leaflets. "The tremendous adventures of the Giant Ferracciù," he read; "the lamentable history of Lucia of Lamermoor; the loves of Irminda and Astolfo; the complaint of the beautiful Fair-haired One,--these are the things for a poet," and he stuffed them into Hamlin's pockets.
"Don't be ridiculous, Melton," cried Hamlin.
"Ridiculous!" exclaimed Perry. "Who talks of things
being ridiculous? I'm in good earnest"--and as they went
along he began declaiming, with appropriate gestures, a ballad composed by
some printer's prentice from the libretto of an old opera.
The children shrieked with laughter at papa's voice and faces; and
Anne Brown burst into a curious subdued laugh, which, although scarcely
audible, was extremely childish.
As they walked along the narrow crowded streets towards the inn where
they were to
have dinner, Perry kept on ahead with the two elder children, and Hamlin hung back with Miss Brown and the two younger.
"Did you like the ceremony in the cathedral, Miss Brown?" he
asked, irresistibly drawn on to understand why she had not knelt like the
others.
"It was very beautiful," she said; "and such beautiful
vestments! Did you see the white and gold embroidery of the
bishop?--and the purple dresses of the canons?--oh, it was
lovely! But it makes me angry to see such things."
"Why so?"
"Because it is dreadful--don't you think?--to see
all those people kneeling down and believing in all that
nonsense."
"How do you know it is nonsense? It seems to me very beautiful and
consoling."
She turned her big grey-blue eyes upon him. "You
don't mean that you believe in all that mummery?" she asked,
searchingly and reproachfully--"you who have studied so much;
you don't believe that they can make God come down with their mutterings and kneelings?"
"I don't believe it," answered Hamlin, with some
embarrassment; "but I think it is very beautiful, and those who do
believe in it are very happy."
"But you don't think it is right that people should believe
in falsehoods, and be the slaves of wicked priests?"
"How rabid you are!" laughed Hamlin. "No, I
don't believe; but I like to see others believing."
"I don't;" and after a minute she added,
"Don't you believe in anything at all?"
"Perhaps I do," he said, fixing his eyes upon her. "I
believe in beauty--I believe that is the one true thing in
life."
"I don't know what you mean," she answered; "but
it seems to me dreadful that people should believe in priests and kings,
and all sorts of lies."
They relapsed into silence. As they walked along, Hamlin stole glances
at his companion,
walking stately and serious like a saint or a sibyl by his side. He wondered what this girl would have been had she lived three or four centuries back. All this common modern radicalism distressed him in her--it had no colour and no perfume. Yet, after all, it was but the modern accessory instead of the medieval. This was the way in which beauty and romance were wasted nowadays--wasted, he thought, half consciously, yet not perhaps entirely, since it went to make up a characteristic whole.
Melton Perry took them to the chief inn of the place for dinner. He let
each of the children choose whatever she preferred, ordered several bottles
of Asti spumante, and gave it them to drink
in champagne-glasses. The one or two furtive English spinsters who
were sipping their tea and reading their "Murray" at the other
tables of the huge dining-room, profusely ornamented with casts from
the antique, and with cut-paper fiy-floppers, looked up with
surprise at the festive party headed by Perry.
After dinner the two little ones began to hang their heads in the hot room, and gave signs of going to sleep.
"Good gracious!" said Perry, in a consternation, "what
are we to do with these wretched infants? They'll just prevent our
taking a stroll in the town before returning home."
"I think the best thing will be for them to sleep a little,
sir," suggested Anne Brown. "I will tuck them up on the sofa,
and stay with them here while you and Mr Hamlin take Miss Mildred and Miss
Winnie for a walk."
"But I can't think of leaving you behind, Annie,"
cried Perry., "I know how much you would like to see the
town."
"I saw part of it this morning," she swered; "and I
really would just as soon stay with the children here." There was no
gainsaying her; so the two men sallied forth with the two elder children on
a walk through the crowded and bannered streets; while Anne Brown remained
sitting in the stuffy inn dining-room by the side of the torpid
little
ones. When they were out an idea suddenly struck Hamlin: this was the opportunity of getting a present for Anne Brown. He left Perry regaling the children on ices at a café opposite the Church of St Michael, which rose like a great marble bride-cake into the bright blue sky, and made his way to a bookstall which he had noticed in the morning. He asked for the 'Vita Nuova.' The old bookseller looked over a number of little schedules in his desk, and produced several copies, new and second-hand. They did not please Hamlin. At last he displayed a tiny Giunti volume, just delicately yellowed by age, and bound in vellum. Hamlin bought it, and secreted it in his pocket, and then joined Perry.
They went to the stable, where all the carioles from the country put up,
and ordered the waggonette to be at the inn door in an hour. But as they
were slowly mounting the wide stone staircase, with the eternal plaster
dancing nymphs tripping it on each landing, Perry's eye fell upon a
large bill pasted upon the
opposite wall,--the playbill of the Teatro del Giglio,--on which, among the names of singers, fiddlers, chorus-directors, scene-painters, theatre tailors, and hairdressers, streamed, in scarlet letters, the title "Semiramide."
"Tò!" cried Milton
Perry, with the Tuscan expression for a sudden bright thought; "what
do you two young minxes say to going to hear an opera for the first time in
your lives?"
"Oh, papa!" shrilled Mildred.
"Oh, papa!" echoed Winnie, catching hold of his
knees--
"Not so quick!" exclaimed Perry; "I'm by no
means so sure of it. What's to become of the two sleepy little
worms?"
"Send them home with Annie," suggested Mildred, promptly;
"and you'll take us home later."
"Nothing of the kind, my young woman," he answered sternly.
"If any one goes to the opera it shall be Annie. Make up your mind
for that."
The dining-room was deserted. On a sofa
near the open window lay the two tiny girls, propped up with cushions; Anne Brown, surly, flopping away the flies which buzzed about them, and reading a newspaper. She was resting the paper on her knees, and supporting her head with one hand, while the other moved slowly with the cut-paper flopper; and in this position the young nursemaid struck Hamlin as a resuscitation, but more beautiful and even stranger, of one of Michaelangelo's prophetic women.
"I say, Annie,"' cried Perry, "what do you say
to taking these two brats to the opera this evening?"
Anne Brown started up.
"To the opera, sir?" she cried, flushing with pleasure.
"Yes; these creatures have never been. They're giving
'Semiramide' to-night. I think it's a good opera
for children to begin with; because it will teach them betimes the unhappy
complications which are apt to result from murdering one's husband,
and trying
to marry one's son unawares. I'll take the little ones back to the villa in half an hour, and quiet Mrs Perry's feelings. Mr Hamlin will be delighted to accompany you and mesdemoiselles my daughters, to the theatre, and then bring you home. It won't last late."
"But," exclaimed Anne Brown,--" oh, how good of
you, sir!--but are you sure you would not like to stay for the opera
yourself? I could take the little ones home."
"No, thank you, Annie. The fact is, I never have
approved of Rossini's music. Ever since my earliest infancy I have
been shocked by its want of earnestness; what I like is a symphony in P
minor, with plenty of chords of the diminished seventeenth. That's
the right sort of thing, isn't it, Hamlin?"
A few minutes later Perry went away with the two little girls, leaving
Mildred and Winhie with Anne Brown. Hamlin accompanied them
down-stairs to the waggonette.
"I will go to the theatre and secure a box," he said,
"and order a trap to take us back."
"All right!" cried Perry, as the waggonette rolled off.
"Mind you don't let those children bore you or worry poor Annie
too much; and don't leave them alone the whole afternoon."
But, for some unaccountable reason, Hamlin did leave them alone the
whole afternoon. After he had secured the box and ordered the carriage, he
felt a sort of unwillingness to go back to the inn, perhaps unconsciously,
to sit opposite the Perrys' nursemaid; so he walked about the town
till tea-time, not troubling himself to inquire whether Anne Brown
and the children might not prefer a stroll on the ramparts to the monotony
of sitting for two mortal hours in the inn dining-room.
"Mildred shall take mine," she
said--"that's the best way in case of a crowd."
A crowd, alas! there was not; the liveried theatre servants (doubtless
the same, in yellow striped waistcoats and drab gaiters, who carried out
Semiramis's throne, when the drop-scene fell) made profuse
bows to the little party, and handed them at least
half-a-dozen play-
bills, each as large as an ordinary flag. The children had never been in a theatre before, and were in a high state of delight at the lights, the gilding, the red plush, the scraping of fiddles; especially at being in a box, although the box on this occasion cost only about half as much as would a single seat in an English playhouse. Gradually the theatre filled; the boxes with people of quality from surrounding villas, gentlemen displaying an ampleness of shirt-front, and ladies an ampleness of bosom conceivable only by the provincial mind; the pit with townsfolk and officers: the whole company staring with eyes and opera-glasses, talking, singing, rapping with sticks and sabres till the overture began to roll out, when the audience immediately set up a kind of confused hum, supposed to be the melody of the piece, and which half drowned the meagre orchestra.
Then the opera began--an opera such as only the misery and genius
of Italy could produce. There was a triumphal procession of six
ragamuffins in cotton trousers and with brass kettle-covers on their heads, marching round and round the stage, bearing trophies of paper altar-flowers and coffee-biggins; there was a row of loathsome females, bloated or fleshless, in draggled robes too short or too long, shrieking out of tune in the queen's chamber--and four rapscallions in nightgowns and Tam-o'Shanters, and beards which would not stick on, standing round the little spirit-lamp burning in front of Baal's statue; there was the little black leathern portmanteau containing the Babylonian regalia, which a nigger with a black-crape face carried after the Prince Arsaces; and there was the "magnificent apartment in the palace of Nineveh, disclosing a delicious view of the famous hanging gardens," as described by the libretto, and furnished solely with a rush-bottomed chair and a deal table, the table-cloth of which was so short that Semiramis was obliged to lean her arm on it to prevent its slipping off, which, however, it finally did. Moreover, an incal-
culable amount of singing out of tune and pummelling one's chest in moments of passion. No training, no dresses, no scenery, no orchestra. Still in this miserable performance there was an element of beauty and dignity, a something in harmony with the grand situation and glorious music: a splendidly made Semiramis, quite regal in her tawdry robes, who showered out volleys of roulades as a bird might shower out its trills; another young woman, plain, tall, and slight, playing the prince in corselet and helmet, with quite magnificent attitudes of defiance and command, with bare extended arm and supple wrist. The two girls who played the principal parts were sisters, and although they had certainly never sung much with a teacher, they must have sung a great deal together; and their voices and style melted into each other quite as if it were all a spontaneous effusion on their part. All the realities which money can get, dress, voice, training, accessories, scenery, utterly wanting; but instead, in the midst of pauperism, something which money
cannot always get, a certain ideal beauty and charm. Anne Brown was intensely interested in the performance; indeed, quite as much so, though in another way, as the children. During the intervals between the acts, she could speak of nothing but the story of Semiramis, and wonder what would happen next. Hamlin could scarcely help laughing at the concern which she manifested each time that the hero Arsace was bullied by the wicked Assur; but he could not laugh at the tragic way in which she conceived the whole situation. To him all that florid music of Rossini would already have destroyed any seriousness there might have been in the matter; but to Anne Brown it seemed as if all these splendid vocalisations took the place of the visible pomp and magnificence of Assyrian royalty: for her the heroes and heroines, the magi and satraps, were clad, not in the calico and tinsel of the theatre tailor, but in the musical splendours of Rossini. Hamlin, to say the truth, found the performance very wearisome; he had been
bored by Semiramide too often with Tietiens and Trebelli, to find it particularly interesting at the Teatro del Giglio of Lucca. He sat looking on listlessly, not so much at the stage as at the girl who was leaning out of the box before him, watching each movement of her hand and neck, as she devoured the performance with eyes and ears. But when at last there came the grand scene between Semiramis and her son, whatsoever was good in the performance suddenly burst forth; the two young women sang with a sort of spontaneous passion, a delight in the music and their own voices and themselves; and when, Semiramis having let down her back hair (as distressed heroines always do) from utter despair, Prince Arsaces, not to be outdone, pulled off his helmet, letting down his or her back hair also, and the two sank into each other's arms and began the great duet, even Hamlin felt in a kind of way that this was passionate, and tragic, and grand. Anne Brown was seated sidewise in the front of the box, resting her mass
of iron-black hair on her hand, her other hand lying loosely on her knees. Her chest heaved under her lace mantilla, and her parted lips quivered. It seemed to Hamlin as if this were the real Semiramis, the real mysterious king-woman of antiquity--as if the music belonged in some sort of ideal way to her. When the curtain had fallen amid the yells of applause, she remained silent, letting Hamlin help her on with her shawl without turning her eyes from the stage. The lights were rapidly put out.
"We must go, Miss Brown," cried Hamlin, "otherwise we
shall be left in the dark."
She turned, took little Winnie by the hand, and followed him, who led
the elder Perry child, prattling loudly, to the stairs. There was a great
crowd going down, whistling and humming tunes from the opera. From the
force of habit Hamlin again offered Anne Brown his arm. But instead of
accepting it, she, so to speak, rapidly plucked little Winnie from the
ground, and raised her in her arms as if she were a feather.
"Please let me carry that child," cried Hamlin.
"Oh no," she answered quietly. "I don't mind
carrying her at all; but she's too heavy for you, sir."
Out in the square the carriage was awaiting them in the bright
starlight, where the red and green lamps were already dying out among the
plane-trees. In a minute they were rattling through the narrow
streets, and out of the town by the dark tree-masses of the
bastions. The bells of the horses jingled as they went; the melancholy
shrilling of insects rose from the fields all round; the
vine-garlands creaked in the wind. The two children were speedily
asleep--one with her head on Hamlin's shoulder, the other
wrapped in her nurse's shawl. Anne Brown bent over the side of the
waggonette, a dark outline, the damp night breeze catching her hair.
Neither spoke. Hamlin felt a sense of guilt stealing over him; of guilt for
nothing very definite; of guilt towards no one else, but towards himself.
The drive passed like a dream. Suddenly the wheels grated on the gravel of the villa garden; dogs barked; lights appeared; the children were lifted out of the carriage asleep; and the voice of Perry whispered to Hamlin--
"I caught it nicely when I came home--I don't know why,
upon my soul! I'm sure I wish I had remained and amused myself with
you."
"I wish you had," said Hamlin quite seriously, always with
the sense of vague guilt towards himself; then added,--
"By the way, old man, I fear I really must go on to Florence
to-morrow afternoon."
"And where are you going?" asked the limp and Sapphic lady,
as they sat at lunch.
"I have no notion," answered Hamlin. "I know nothing
beyond Florence for three days. I may go on to Rome, Naples, Egypt,
America, Japan, or return to Hammersmith. I have no notion."
"Ah, these poets!" cried Mrs Perry; "they never can
tell whither their soul may waft their body."
When they had finished, Hamlin asked whether he might say
good-bye to Anne Brown. "I have a little farewell gift to make
her," he explained.
Anne Brown was summoned into the studio; she evidently had only just
heard the news.
"Are you going away, sir, really?" she asked.
"Yes," answered Hamlin, drily; "I expect the gig must
be waiting for me already."
"And--are you not going to return, Mr Hamlin?"
"Oh no; I think I shall go to America this winter."
She was silent, and stood by the table in the attitude of a servant
waiting for further orders.
"Before I go away," said Hamlin, "I want to thank you,
Miss Brown, for your kindness and patience, which have enabled me to make a
sketch which will be very valuable for one of my next pictures, and,"
he added, as she merely nodded her head, "I want to beg you to accept
a little gift in remembrance of all the trouble I have given
you."
Anne Brown flushed, and her face suddenly changed, as if a
whip-cord had passed across it.
Hamlin took the little vellum-bound volume from his pocket.
"You told me you had never read the 'Vita Nuova,' Miss
Brown," he said, "so I venture to ask you to accept this copy
of it. I don't know whether you like old books; I think them much
prettier to look at. Good-bye."
The girl's face cleared into a kind of radiance.
"Thank you so much," she said; "I will read it
often."
"And think of me sometimes and the trouble I gave you?"
"It was my duty, since Mrs Perry wished it, sir.
Good-bye--a good journey to you."
"Good-bye, Miss Brown."
self up in his studio at Hammersmith, among smoke and river-fogs, seeing not a living creature, learning Persian and studying Sufi poets until next spring, when he would set off for the East, never more to return to Europe, except for the Grosvenor private view. But when the moment for return north approached, Hamlin began to hesitate; and the very day before his friends' departure, he informed them that he had come to the conclusion that there was still some work for him to do in Italy.
"I shall be in England at the end of two months at latest,"
he said.
And on their remonstrating at his fickleness, he merely
answered--
"I have a notion for a new picture, and I think I have found my
model for it."
"'The Queen of Night' in your portfolio,"
suggested one of his friends.
They had noticed and generally admired that strange head, the like of
which none of them had ever seen before, and they had given the drawing,
which Hamlin described
merely as "a girl near Lucca," the nickname of "The Queen of Night."
"Yes," answered Hamlin, "that's the one
I'm thinking about."
So the rest of the party set sail from Civita Vecchia; and one drizzly,
foggy morning, Hamlin got into the train to carry him northward to
Florence.
During those three months, he could scarcely himself have explained when
or how, strange notions had come into Hamlin's head, and a still
stranger plan had finally matured in it. He had been haunted by the
remembrance of the Perrys' nursemaid at the Villa Arnolfini, and
gradually taken to brooding and day-dreaming about her. He had made
up his mind that Anne Brown was the most beautiful girl, in the strangest
style, whom he had ever met. What was to be her future? Of two
possibilities one must be realised. Either this magnificent blossom was to
be untimely nipped,--this beautiful and strange girl was to fritter
away her life, unnoticed, wasted, to
little by little lose her beauty, her dignity, her grandeur, her whole imaginative aroma; or the rare plant of beauty was to be cherished, nursed into perfection, till it burst out in maturity of splendour, a thing of delight for the present and of wonder for the future. Either Anne Brown must turn into a sordid nursery-governess, or into the avowedly most beautiful woman in England--that is to say, in the particular pre-Raphaelite society which constituted England to him.
Yet not necessarily; there was still a middle course--she might
marry some small shopkeeper or teacher of languages at Florence; or,
perhaps, some artist might notice her, make her his mistress, perhaps his
wife. This last thought of Anne Brown as the possible wife of some other
Melton Perry (for they were all Melton Perrys at Florence) filled Hamlin
with a vague disgust and irritation. Much better that she should end her
life as a nursery-maid, or a daily governess at a franc the hour.
Still, it was dreadful to think that something so
unique should be lost, wasted for ever. "Such things must be," said Hamlin to himself; "it is sad, but it can't be helped." And he wrote two sonnets, "Lost Loveliness," and "Stillborn Joy," which were extremely beautiful, and quite among the finest he ever wrote. But this did not despatch the subject. The sense of having made the most of the fact that this loveliness was to be wasted, this joy of beauty to be stillborn, did not make up for the consciousness that the waste, the abortion, had not actually taken place, might yet be prevented, and were dreadful in themselves. Was he, Hamlin, to marry Anne Brown? He shrank in terror from so Quixotic, and at the same time so commonplace, so school-girlish a thought. But if he did not marry her no other man could; at least, no other man who was to prevent the act of wastefulness to be consummated. She might marry a clerk, a shopkeeper, even a servant, or even some miserable little Anglo-Florentine artist; but if she married a man above that, a man to appreciate and
make the most of her, that man must evidently be himself. It is difficult to follow the logic of this notion; but certain it is that Hamlin never doubted for a second that either Anne Brown must bloom for him and by him, must be his most precious possession and his most precious loan to the world--or that Anne Brown must be simply and deliberately buried under a bushel. Such arguments are matters of character, I suppose; be it as it may, the argument was absolutely cogent.
When Hamlin had got thus far he stopped for a long time, revolving the
matter in his mind in a purely abstract way, without attempting to realise
how things might be settled. He was not a man of action or of resolves, and
would usually let things slip on and look at them slipping; and during this
ruminating condition, he did not once seriously ask himself whether he
intended marrying the Perrys' nursemaid. But suddenly, the very day
before his friends were to carry him back to England, a new notion came
into his head. His life seemed
suddenly filled with romance. The matter was settled in a minute. Anne Brown was to be filched triumphantly from oblivion: he telegraphed Perry to hire him rooms in Florence. As the meeting of certain chemical substances will sometimes produce a new and undreamt-of something of wholly unprecedented properties, so ideas had come in collision in Hamlin's mind, and out of a mere perplexity had arisen a stranger scheme--out of the question what should be the fate of Anne Brown, had originated the decision what was to be the future of Walter Hamlin. The situations seemed changed: instead of his being a mere possible, but by no means probable, instrument of a change in her life, she was the predestined instrument for the consummation of his life. Anne Brown should live for the world and for fame; and Walter Hamlin's life should be crowned by gradually endowing with vitality, and then wooing, awakening the love of this beautiful Galatea whose soul he had moulded, even as Pygmalion had moulded the limbs of
the image which he had made to live and to love. The idea, once present to Hamlin's mind, had been accepted at once; and in another hour he had worked out all the details of the real romance in which he was embarking; he had determined exactly where he would send Anne Brown to school, where he would go during her stay there, what settlements he would make to ensure her complete freedom of choice when she should choose him, in what part of London he would buy a house for her, which of his female relations should have charge of her, by whom she should be introduced into artistic society;--he began to imagine all the details of his long courtship. Beyond the courtship, into their actual married life, his fancy did not carry him; it was that year, or two or three years of gradually growing devotion, upon which he cared to dwell. Whether such a scheme was wise or right it never occurred to him to question. He had determined on educating, wooing, and marrying a woman like what Anne Brown seemed to be,
as a man might determine to buy a house in a particular fishing or hunting district--the only thing is to make sure whether the particular house is the suitable house. The only further concern of Hamlin was to make sure that Anne Brown was really all that she seemed to him to be; and Hamlin looked forward as to a kind of preliminary romance to the strange inspection, this minute examination of a creature who should never guess the extraordinary metamorphosis which might, or might not, be in store for her.
"I don't see why Annie should be particularly delighted at
the prospect of sitting for two hours, twice a-week, with her head
raised and her throat outstretched, in a beastly cold
studio," answered Perry, affecting, as he frequently did, from a curious kind of coyness, not to understand his wife's underlying meaning.
"She is a mere soulless body," repeated Mrs
Perry--"as indifferent to Hamlin as a handsome cow would
be."
"Do you expect her to throw herself into Hamlin's
arms?" cried Perry, angrily.
"I expect her," answered Mrs Perry, with a kind of haughty
mystery and sadness, "to be a woman."
"And I expect you to attend to her remaining what she is--an
honest girl," retorted Perry.
"Melton!" said his wife solemnly; and immediately poor
Perry's principles drooped like a furled sail.
Melton Perry had always an uncomfortable feeling of responsibility
regarding Anne Brown; a sort of sense that, as poor old Miss Curzon had
been grievously mistaken in intrusting a girl like Anne Brown to a lady so
mystical
and romantic as his wife, he, on his part, hardened sinner, social wreck as he doubtless was, was in duty bound to make up for the good old woman's want of discernment. If it had been any one except Hamlin, he repeated to himself, he would never have permitted a single sitting; but Hamlin was a Sir Galahad--at least with regard to servant girls and suchlike--who had always struck Perry dumb with wonder; and in this instance in particular, Hamlin seemed really to consider Anne Brown much in the light of a picture by an old master. Yet even thus, it had taken him by surprise, and relieved his mind of a heavy weight, when, the day before the first sitting in the studio, Ham]in had asked Mrs Perry to tell him of some elderly woman--some former housekeeper or nurse in an English family--who could come to his studio and keep it in order two or three times a-week.
"I can recommend you a most delightful young laundress,"
exclaimed Mrs Perry with fervour--"quite a Palma
Vecchio."
"Thank you," answered Hamlin, drily; "I particularly
want an elderly woman who can take charge of my things, and who can be
there when--I mean, who can take Miss Brown's bonnet and shawl
when she comes to sit to me."
Mrs Perry confessed to no knowledge of such a person, but sat down to
write to the German deaconesses,--"such real
saints,"--in quest of the desired piece of elderly
respectability. But when she had gone to her writing-table, Melton
Perry kicked Hamlin's foot under the table, and said in an
undertone--
"You are a damned moral dog, certainly, Wat. Thank you so much,
old fellow."
So the old housekeeper was hired to go three times a-week to
Hamlin's studio, and twice a-week she opened the studio door
to Anne Brown, and took the girl's poke-bonnet and grey shawl
in the little anteroom, crammed full of dwarf orange-trees, which
opened into the pillared balcony circling round the topmost floor of the
old palace, and from which
you looked into the lichened court, and saw the steel-like sheen of the water in the well. Hamlin had determined to embody one of his usual mystical fancies in his new picture. His pictures came to him first as poems, and he had written a sonnet descriptive of his intended work before he had painted a stroke of it. It was called Venus Victrix; and the strangeness, the mysteriousness which gave a charm to his beautiful church-window-like pictures, and made one forget for a minute the uncertainty of drawing and the weakness of flesh-painting--this essential quality of the pictorial riddle depended very much upon the fact that his Venus Victrix was entirely unlike any other Venus Victrix which the mind of man could conceive. Instead of the naked goddess triumphing over the apple of Paris, whom such a name would lead you to expect, Hamlin made a sketch of a lady in a dress of sad-coloured green and gold brocade, seated in a melancholy landscape of distant barren peaks, suffused with the grey and yellow tints
of a late sunset; behind her was a bower of sear-coloured palms, knotting their boughs into a kind of canopy for her head, and in her hand she held, dragged despondingly on the ground, a broken palm-branch. The expression of the goddess of Love, since such she was, was one of intense melancholy. It was one of those pictures which go to the head with a perfectly unintelligible mystery, and which absolutely preclude all possibility of inquiring into their exact meaning. A picture which might have been one of Hamlin's best, only that it was never finished.
For, it must be remembered, the picture, or rather the painting of it,
was merely an excuse invented by Hamlin for an opportunity of seeing, of
examining, the creature whose future was in his hands. He wished to assure
himself that Anne Brown was really the Anne Brown of his fancy; and as he
stared at that strange and beautiful face, it was not in reality with the
object of transferring it on to his canvas, but to make sure whether it was
really as strange as it seemed to him. It was also to gauge whatever mystery there might be hidden in that singular nature. Whether he ever did gauge it, it is impossible to tell. There was, he felt, something strange there--something which corresponded with the magnificent and mysterious outside,--a possibility of thought and emotion enclosed like the bud in its case of young leaves--a potential passion, good or bad, of some sort. At Anne Brown's actual character it was difficult to get; or rather, perhaps, there was as yet but little actual character to get at. He became more and more persuaded, as he sat opposite to her, painting and talking--or, interrupting the sitting, playing to her strange songs which he had picked up in his travels, and fragments of forgotten operas which it was his mania to collect--that Anne Brown was in reality much younger than her years; that beneath those solemn features there was a still immature soul wrapped up in mere conventional ideas of right and wrong,
a few inherited republican formulæ, and a natural pride which had grown, as does any protecting skin, physical or moral, where surroundings are for ever chafing and wearing. A soul, above all, which had never yet sought for an ideal--had never loved; and this knowledge was to Hamlin a source of infinite satisfaction.
It was a satisfaction, also, to notice how, little by little, whatever
ideals seemed to bud in Anne Brown's mind, were connected with him,
or at least with the things which he presented to her imagination. Nay,
with himself, as a person not at all, but yet with the books, the music,
the pictures about which he talked to her. This studio, so unlike the bleak
and tobacco-reeking workshop of Melton Perry, with its curious
carved furniture, its Japanese screens, its bits of brocade and tapestry
(rubbish which Hamlin would have blushed at in London), its shelves of
books and chipped majolica and glass, its quantity of flowers, was
evidently a sort of earthly paradise to the
girl. And the handsome, pale, serious young man, with womanishly regular feature and world-worn look, who treated her with a sort of protecting deference, who instructed her in what she ought to like and dislike, and at the same time asked with real earnestness for her opinion, was evidently its affable archangel. This Hamlin perceived to his pleasure; but, nevertheless, he perceived also that all feeling, all ideas, were in Anne Brown vague, immature, or merely potential--unless, indeed, this tragic-looking creature repressed and drowned in the darkness of her consciousness anything more definite and developed.
They did not talk very much, for they were both of them rather taciturn;
but what they said acquired therefrom more than doubled importance. And of
this talking Hamlin did by far the greater share. Anne Brown had indeed
little to say--a nursery-maid of nineteen has not much to tell
a fashionable poet-painter of thirty-one: slight
descriptions of places she had been to, villas, or bathing-places,
and one or two
excursions from them; vague reminiscences of old Miss Curzon, of the books which she had made the girl read, the music she had heard, the anecdotes of Landor and Rossini and Malibran which the old lady had narrated; a few allusions, short and passionate, to her father; a few more, sullen and dreary, to her own future life;--that was all that poor Anne Brown could say.
For when he told her the plots of novels, and repeated scraps of poems
to her, she scarcely ventured to give him her opinion. She was so earnest
that she felt that only something worth saying should be said; and what
things worth saying could she say to him?
"By the way," said Hamlin one day, as she stood, tying her
bonnet, and looking out over the sea of shingly roofs, the sudden gaps
showing shady gardens far below, open
loggias, between whose columns fluttered
linen, and irregular rows of windows with herbs in broken ewers on their
sills--"by the way, you have never
told me how you liked the 'Vita Nuova,' Miss Brown." He had talked of so many books, making her wonder and sometimes laugh at his account of them, but never about that, nor about his own.
"It is very beautiful," she said, still looking out of the
window--"but do you think it is true?"
"Why not?" he said.
"I don't know--I don't think there are men like
that;" then she suddenly added, with a sort of melancholy humorous
laugh, which was frequent with her, "I will make my pupils read it
when I am a parlatrice. Those ladies will
tell me their opinion."
Hamlin was looking at her, as she still turned her massive head, with
its waves of iron-black hair, away from him, towards the light.
"Good-bye," she said, with her hand on the
door-latch.
"Stop a minute," said Hamlin; and going
to a book-shelf, he got down a little green-bound volume.
"I don't know why," he said, "but I should like
you to read these. It is idiotic trash after the 'Vita
Nuova'--but it is mine."
"Thank you," she said. "I will bring it you back next
sitting. I will cover the binding."
"I want you to keep it. Won't you do me that
favour?"
She reddened all over her pale face.
"Thank you," she said. "'It is very good of
you."
"What's that book, Annie?" he inquired, as they walked
side by side.
"Mr Hamlin gave it me--it's his poems."
"Let me see." Perry was more peremptory than usual.
He turned over the leaves as they went along, and then returned it to
her.
"You may read that," he said--"it's sad
trash, but you may read it. All poetry isn't fit for women to
read," he added, by way of explanation.
The gift of this book somehow disturbed Perry's equanimity.
"What made him give you that book?" he asked.
"I don't know, sir. We were talking about the 'Vita
Nuova.'"
"A lot of confounded medieval twaddle," cried Perry.
"Why don't you read 'Lady Audley's Secret' or
'The Heir of Redclyffe'? that's the right sort of
thing."
She seemed hurt, and they were silent. Suddenly Perry said, with some
roughness--
"I'm sorry to inconvenience Hamlin, but this will be the
last of the sittings. I am going to send you to the sea-side with
the children in a day or two. Little May needs change of air. When you
return, Mr Hamlin will be leaving Florence."
"Yes, sir," answered Anne Brown; and a kind of suppressed
spasm passed across her face.
Perry saw it.
"It's high time," he said to himself.
Melton Perry could not screw up his courage
till he and his wife and Hamlin had already finished dinner that evening.
"I say, Hamlin," he began, lighting his pipe, while Mrs
Perry artistically twisted a cigarette in her long brown
fingers--"d'you think you could finish off that picture
with only one more sitting? I'm sure Mrs Perry thinks it is time for
the children to go down to the sea-side--only, of course, she
doesn't like disturbing you in your work."
"Go down to the sea-side!" exclaimed Mrs Perry, not
at all mollified by her husband's deference; "who talks of
going to the seaside? and what has that to do with his work?"
"You forget, my dear, that you said this morning that May requires
change of air--and, of course, Annie will be required to take the
children down to Viareggio. I am extremely sorry for you, old fellow, but I
fear you must finish that picture--at least so far as Annie is
concerned--by the beginning of next week."
"I see," answered Hamlin, briefly. For the first time in his
life almost, he felt angry with
his old friend; an unspeakable resentment at this interference with what he considered already as his.
"I see nothing of the sort," burst out Mrs
Perry; "I will never, never permit dear Hamlin's masterpiece to
be spoilt. I would rather take the children to the sea-side
myself--oh yes. I would rather they did not go at all. My children are
the dearest things I possess, but I have no right selfishly to prefer their
welfare to the completion of such a picture. I should never forgive myself.
That unfinished picture, that strange, terrible Venus, would haunt me in my
dreams, and I should hear the whole world asking me, 'What have you
done with a thing meant for our joy?'"
"Bosh!" cried Perry, stretching out his legs and puffing at
his pipe--"rubbish! A fine thing if May gets low fever
again: much you'll think of Hamlin's masterpiece
then."
"May shall not have fever," answered Mrs Perry, haughtily;
"and Hamlin's masterpiece, which you choose to sneer
at--"
"Oh, please, don't bother about my masterpieces!"
interposed Hamlin.
"--Shall not be sacrificed. You shall take the children to
the sea-side, Melton; and Annie shall continue to give him as many
sittings as he may wish." And then, passing over her husband's
nauseous existence, she began a mellifluous and irrelevant conversation
with Hamlin across him.
But after two or three minutes Perry could stand it no longer.
"Damn your sea-side!" he suddenly burst out.
"Melton!" shrieked Mrs Perry, falling back on her chair.
"Damn your sea-side!" repeated Perry.
"Haven't you eyes in your head to understand that the
sea-side has nothing to do with the matter? The children no more
require to go to Viareggio than I require to be made Khan of Tartary. What
is required is that an honest girl, who was intrusted to us by an old
friend, should not get to be talked of as a--"
"This loathsome coarseness is too much for me. Adieu, Mr
Hamlin!" and Mrs Perry flounced out of the room.
"Lord deliver us from womankind!" exclaimed Perry, as the
door shut upon his wife, and he fell back in his chair. "What a nice
breakfast I shall have to-morrow!"
Hamlin did not answer, but merely lit another cigarette, and looked into
the smouldering fire.
"Hamlin, old boy," resumed Perry, "don't be down
upon me. I really am confoundedly sorry to bother you--indeed I am;
but--you see--about this girl--"
"I understand," answered Hamlin, shortly; "don't
let's talk about it."
"But--please don't be in a rage with me, Watty,"
cried Perry, appealingly; "really I don't know what to do. You
see, it's not as if she were an ordinary girl or an ordinary servant;
then I should say--hang it, please yourself!"
"Sweet morals!" sneered Hamlin.
"But with her it's different; I'm sure you must
recognise that yourself. Now I don't mean to say you are in the least
to blame, or that the girl cares the least scrap about you; but still, this
sort of thing won't do. I know you're the last man to do a
dirty thing--indeed you're the only man whom I would have
permitted to go on so long. But then, quite without meaning anything, all
that sitting, and talking, and discussing poetry and 'Vita
Nuova' together--without knowing it, it puts ideas into a
girl's head, makes her dissatisfied, that sort of thing, and the
result is that she goes to the bad. And then, here in Florence especially,
a girl's none the better looked at for having sat, if even only to
one man. People begin to talk (at the villa it was another matter), stories
go round, and it becomes difficult for her to get a respectable
situation."
"You needn't say any more," cried Hamlin, with almost
feminine impatience. All this gave him a sense of moral nausea.
"You understand, old fellow, I don't mean
it about you in particular," persisted Perry; "indeed you've behaved like Sir Bors, Sir Percival, and Sir Galahad all rolled into one. But it's the fatality of the circumstances, the beastly world about us. You're not angry, are you, with me?"
"Not a bit," answered Hamlin, quietly, minutely examining
one of the pictures on the wall, which was not worth looking at, and had
been thoroughly looked at by him already; "not a bit, my dear Perry.
I suppose you have no objection to Miss Brown giving me one more
morning?"
"Not the least--two, or even three, for the matter of that. I
was only anxious not to spin out things indefinitely."
"One more sitting will be more than enough," answered
Hamlin. "By the way, before I go, I want to do a drawing of little
Mildred."
than usual taking off her bonnet and cloak in the anteroom filled with orange-trees, for she felt as if she must look at everything well one last time--at the bits of brocade and the photographs on the wall, the plaster-casts on the shelf, the scarlet and purple anemones in the cracked china bow], the brass synagogue lamp hanging in the window.
"It is bad weather," said Hamlin's old
housekeeper.
"Horrible," answered Anne, looking vacantly through the
window at the grey sky and wet roofs.
The old woman opened the studio door and drew the curtains. Hamlin, who
was at a table writing, rose and came to meet his model.
"It is very good of you to come in such horrible weather, Miss
Brown," he said.
"It is the last sitting--I thought I ought not to miss
it," and she sat down at once in the arm-chair of faded green
velvet opposite Hamlin's easel.
"Won't you warm yourself a little?" he asked.
"No, thank you; I am not cold."
Hamlin began to prepare his paints.
"You are going to Viareggio, Miss Brown," he remarked.
"Yes; I believe I am."
"You will enjoy the change of air. The sea--you told me you
liked the sea one day,"--and he went on squeezing the paints on
to his palette.
"I suppose so." She said no more.
Hamlin was seated before his easel, looking now at his work and now at
her, and making minute alterations with a small brush. They did not talk
much. He seemed bent upon his work. He had told her that she need not keep
her head in position, as he was merely finishing some unimportant details.
Her eyes wandered round the room--at the books, the sketches on the
wall, the rugs under foot. On the chimney-piece was stuck a
photograph of Melton Perry. If only she might have a
photo-
graph of Hamlin! . . . For less than a second she thought she might beg for one; then it seemed to her impossible, and the wish beat itself painfully against that cold, dead impossibility, like a bird against its cage-bars.
Hamlin called the old woman--
"Take that letter to the post-office at the Uffizi,"
he said, pointing to his writing-table, "and mind you get it
registered."
It was the first time that Hamlin had sent the old woman on an errand
during one of Anne Brown's sittings, when she was wont to go in and
out of the studio noiselessly, like a watchful duenna.
The heavy stairs door banged behind her. Anne listened to it dully,
vacantly, as one listens to things when deeply preoccupied. For a few
minutes Hamlin worked on in silence, then suddenly, without looking up, he
said--
"Do you remember my finding your 'Dante' in the
vineyard at the Villa Arnolfini, Miss Brown?"
"Yes," she answered.
"And you told me that you wished to fit yourself to be a
teacher?"
"Yes, I remember."
"Well," went on Hamlin, "I have been thinking about
that; and I think it would be a pity--I mean--I hope you
won't think it horribly rude of me to say so--I think it would
be better if you went to school for a little while yourself."
Anne stared at this speech, and at the close of it her surprise turned
to resentment.
"Of course it would be better," she said, bitterly;
"of course I shall always be very ignorant; but I have no wish to set
up for what I am not. I am not going to teach people anything--only to
correct their pronunciation and a few mistakes. One does not require to
study much for that, and I shall be competent to do it."
In her quiet, subdued way she looked very angry.
Hamlin rose from his easel.
"You misunderstand me," he said; "and
indeed what I have to say is so strange and perhaps so unjustifiable, that you have every right to do so. Listen," and he drew a chair near hers.
"Please do not think me very bold, and forgive the horrid way in
which I am forced to put things, when I tell you, dear Miss Brown, that I
am very much interested in you, and, indeed--will you forgive a
comparative stranger saying so?--that I have never felt so much
attracted by any one as I do by you."
Anne Brown did not answer; she seemed literally petrified by sheer
astonishment.
"The time has come when our acquaintance must come to an
end," went on Hamlin, rapidly; "but I cannot let this happen
without making an effort to prolong it. I have no brothers or
sisters--no one, at least, living with me, except distant relations. I
have never taken much interest in anybody. But now I want to
know--would you, instead of our parting company altogether--would
you let me be-
come your guardian for the next few years, and as such, would you let me take charge of your education and send you to school? It seems a very ridiculous thing to suggest. But still you must not be angry with me for doing so."
Anne's big onyx eyes had opened wider and wider. She flushed
purple in the middle of his speech, then turned ashy-white, while
she picked convulsively at the fringe of the armchair. Then suddenly a sort
of convulsion came across her face, and, as if from sheer unbearable
tension of feeling, she burst into tears.
She gave way only one second, immediately trying to stop herself, but in
vain. Hamlin felt that he was making a horrible mess of it. He came close
up to the chair where the poor girl was thrown back, shaken with sobs.
"Miss Brown," he cried, taking her
hand--"Anne--oh, don't be unhappy! I did not mean to
offend you. Don't you understand my meaning? I wish you to be what
you have a right to be. I wish you to be in
such a position that of all the men in the world you may choose the one who deserves you most. Anne, I love you--and I hope that perhaps some day you may love me; but I want you to be able to love whoever may best deserve you, and merely to do my best that you should care for me. I want you to have a future independent of me--to possess the education and the fortune which shall enable you to marry whomsoever you will, or not to marry at all. Will you let me, for the time being, be your guardian, your father, your brother; let me provide for you, take care of your money, see to your education? I do not ask you to love me, but merely to give me a chance of trying to make you prefer me."
Anne did not cease sobbing; and every convulsive heaving of her body
made Hamlin feel a sort of sickening terror. He slid down on his knees and
kissed her hand.
This action seemed suddenly to awaken her. She started up, and making a
tremendous effort, stopped her crying.
He stood aside while she went to the mirror and looked at her swollen
eyes and convulsed face.
"May I have a glass of water?" she asked; then, stopping
Hamlin, "never mind," she said--"never mind--I
must go;" and she pulled her blue veil hurriedly over her eyes and
huddled on her cloak.
"Miss Brown," cried Hamlin, "why don't you
answer me?" and he laid hold of her arm as she was about to open the
door.
"Because you do not deserve it," she answered, trying to
loosen his grasp. "Let me go, please."
"I cannot let you go," answered Hamlin calmly, standing
before the door, "until you have listened to me. Will you let me
provide for your future, send you to school, and then place you in the care
of my aunt? Will you let me act as if I were your guardian for the next
three years, and at the end of them you shall have enough to live and marry
as befits a lady, and be as free as air, or become my
wife--whichever you shall choose? Answer me, for I am serious."
Anne Brown paused.
"Don't ask me for an answer now," she said; "I
am not sure that you are in earnest."
"I am--indeed I am!" cried Hamlin; "I have
intended asking you this ever since my return to Florence. I returned
merely in order to ask you. I am in earnest; cannot you give me a serious
answer?"
"Not now--I can't think about anything; I must ask; I
don't know what is right to do."
He opened the door, and Anne Brown walked out rapidly, through the
anteroom and downstairs.
at night, and she lay awake while the clocks struck hour after hour, hot, red, half deafened by her own blood, fevered and vaguely indignant. It was as if Hamlin had struck her; she felt insulted, outraged, by this strange interference with her fate, this wonderful intrusion of excitement into her dull and sombre life. It was dawn when she awoke: a chill greyness in the sky, reddened by the pale winter sun. She knew that something had happened, that something was changed. She was almost surprised to find herself in her usual room, with the children's tea-sets on the chest of drawers, the coloured pictures from the 'Illustrated' and the 'Graphic' pinned on the walls, the dolls' houses in the corner, and little May asleep by her side in her crib. Then she remembered it all, and sat up in her bed thinking about it. Things appeared to her in quite a new light. She had been an ungrateful beast to feel as she had towards Hamlin; and a great wave of gratitude and awe, and love and joy, welled up in her heart. It was as if she were sitting
in the sunshine: an indefinable kind of happiness. How noble and generous and good he had been; and how doubly so, being so great, and she being a mere nothing in the world! Whether he loved her or she him, she did not ask herself; it seemed a thing to die of for sheer happiness, that any one should care for her and her future. And just in proportion to her usual pride, and sullenness, and joylessness, she felt happy in the idea of deserving nothing and receiving everything, from his kindness: and Hamlin, with whom she had spoken not twenty-four hours earlier, whom she would see again that day, appeared to her as a distant, dim, ineffable creature, lighting and warming her like the sun, but equally unapproachable. But on thinking it over, things came round to commonplace actuality. What was she to do? Would he ask her again? or even, had he asked her at all? It all seemed a dream, and she did not venture to examine into its reality. She determined to tell it all to Perry, and ask his advice; but she felt as
if she never could. She met Perry several times in the course of the morning, but she could not succeed in screwing up her courage. What if it should all prove to be an illusion? She took the children out for their accustomed walk, during which she was even more silent than usual. On returning home she saw Hamlin in the street, close to the door. The blood all rushed up to her head. Hamlin saluted her as if nothing had happened, and accompanied her up-stairs. When they were at the landing he suddenly turned to her--
"Have you thought over our conversation in the studio yesterday,
Miss Brown?" he asked.
"Yes," answered Anne, inaudibly, as he stood with his hand
on the bell; "I have."
"Well, then," went on Hamlin, "with regard to the plan
which I submitted to you, what is your answer? Do you consent or
not?"
Anne Brown raised her head.
"I consent," she answered quietly, looking
full at him, as if to make sure that she was not talking in a dream. He had never seen her so beautiful and majestic before; and she had a look--with dilated eyes, and rapid, oppressed breath--like the one which he had noticed once when she talked of her father, and of which he had felt at once, "this is what I want."
"Thank you," he answered gravely, and rang the bell. For a
moment they stood in silence, till the door was opened.
"That's my vocation," said Perry, "and not
painting damned landscape spinach and soapsud seas. Look! aren't they
jolly old fiends?" and he held up a group of black clowns, standing
on each other's hands and shoulders.
"Capital!" answered Hamlin. "But look here; I came to
tell you something. I want the address of Miss Brown's
guardian,--you told me there was one,--because I am going to have
Miss Brown educated, with a view, if she do not change her mind, to her
becoming my wife."
Perry let his scissors fall on the floor.
"Damnation!" he cried.
Hamlin picked up the scissors and put them quietly on the table.
"So that's it!" burst out Perry. "While I was
bothering my brains with trying to take care of Anne, you were being
inveigled by that cursed hypocritical slut."
"I shall be obliged to you to speak in rather different language,
Perry," said Hamlin, in a tone of voice and with a manner which his
friend was not accustomed to.
"Oh, beast! brute! seven-times-distilled and
most-kickable jackass that I have been," moaned Perry,
"that I should have let this happen to you!--that I should have
let you be entrapped under my very nose! But it mustn't be, old
fellow; I won't stand it."
"You will have to," answered Hamlin, contemptuously;
"and so, let's say no more about it. Only one word: Miss
Brown has not inveigled me."
Perry gave a sort of moan of disgust. "No woman ever does inveigle
a man!"
"Miss Brown has not inveigled me. I conceived the desire of
educating her, and giving myself a chance of marrying her if she would have
me, long ago, before I returned to Florence. And, as a favour, I beg you
will respect Miss Brown so long as she remains in your house, as you would
respect the woman who is at present my ward, and may possibly become my
wife."
"Ward! wife! fiddlesticks!" cried Perry. "For
God's sake, my dearest old Watty, don't go and do such a
damnable thing! don't be such an idiot as to suppose you must do it.
That was my confounded folly: let myself be led on, and then thought
it was my own choice, my resolution, all sorts of fine things. No man ever
really wants to tie himself up; it's the woman who does it, and makes
him believe it's himself. All this is bosh, mere bosh; you'll
think better of it."
"I tell you again, Perry, that there is no inveigling about the
matter. I made up my mind to this step while I was away from
Florence. Besides, I am not going to marry Miss Brown straight off; I am going to give her the education which such a woman deserves, to enable her to marry me should she care to do so."
"Education, forsooth!" groaned Perry; "you will get
yourself married before you have time to say Jack Robinson: and to
think that I have brought it all upon you! to think that I have driven you
to do it!"
Hamlin could not help smiling at his friend's distress.
"Really, you need not feel under any responsibility. I alone am
responsible in the business--I and good fortune, which has brought me
into the presence of the most marvelIous woman that ever
was--"
"But what do you do it for? You're not in love with Annie, I
do believe," cried poor Perry.
"I do it because she is the most beautiful woman I have ever
seen," answered Hamlin, deliberately; "and the woman who,
properly
educated, is of all others the one whom I should most wish to love--because, in short, I cannot see her wasted."
Perry flung his arms over his head with a gesture of grotesque despair.
At that moment the door opened, and Mrs Perry entered the studio.
"What is the matter? what has happened?" she asked with a
dramatic gesture, and a not less dramatic accent; and she remained standing
on the threshold, raising the door-curtain with much dignity.
"Hamlin wants to bring up and marry Anne Brown," yelled
Perry.
Mrs Perry tottered, let the curtain go, held her hand to her head for a
moment.
"Anne Brown--do you hear that? He wants to marry her! to
educate her! He has already proposed!" repeated Perry.
Mrs Perry came forward solemnly, and stretched out her hand to
Hamlin.
"Dear friend," she said softly, "my heart told me that
this would be."
"Fudge!" exclaimed Perry; "if it did, why the deuce
didn't you interfere?"
"My heart told me this would be. I congratulate you, dearest
friend, that you have at last found the embodiment of your mysterious
dreams of beauty. And I thank you, on my part, for giving me the happiness
of seeing that glorious dethroned goddess reinstated in her rights, and
also,"--and Mrs Perry's long mouth smiled--formidable
like an alligator's,--"for giving me the happiness of
witnessing a union of mystic perfection;" whereupon, to
Hamlin's horror, the tall and bony lady deposited a damp kiss on his
forehead.
"Oh--but--thank you so much!" exclaimed
Hamlin--"I have not asked Miss Brown to marry me; I have only
asked her to let me educate her. I wish her to choose whatever husband may
deserve her."
"And that will be yourself--your noble, darling self,"
beamed Mrs Perry.
"I am happy that you approve of my decision," said Hamlin,
quickly; "and since you
do, will you kindly tell me the address of Miss Brown's--Miss Brown's guardian?"
"Julia, I forbid you," moaned Perry feebly.
"His address"--answered Mrs Perry blandly, and taking
no notice of her husband--"is Richard Brown, care of Gillespie
Brothers, New Cross. He is foreman at a cannon-foundry, or a place
where they make torpedoes. I know it's something murderous and
dreadful."
"Richard Brown, Gillespie Brothers, New Cross," wrote Hamlin
in his note-book. "Thank you so much; I shall write to him at
once."
"Oh, idiotic beast that I was!" groaned Perry, "to
think that it should all be my fault."
"Come into my boudoir," said Mrs Perry; "you shall
write to him without a moment's delay. Denrest Mr Hamlin, it is so
noble, so lovely on your part; and dear Anne--how beautiful she will
become!"
Perry paced up and down the room in violent despair, kicking at all the
chairs and easels on his way, and hurling a tin of black
paint against the ceiling, whence, having deposited its oozy contents, it slowly descended. After this, feeling that his despair was not yet vented, he stalked off to the German beer-cellar, in the Via Lambertesca, and gloomily consumed a bock--a proceeding to which he invariably resorted whenever his wife had inspired him with a more than usually strong wish to drown himself.
Suddenly an idea struck him, and he rushed to the nearest
telegraph-office. There he spent upwards of an hour, and consumed
many pieces of paper in concocting a missive which should, within the
compass of twenty words, convey to Mr Richard Brown, care of Gillespie
Brothers, New Cross, that the proposal being made to Anne Brown by a
certain person must be immediately rejected, as its acceptance would bring
ruin, dishonour, and misery on all parties. "Proposal disastrous
snare," wound up Perry at last in triumph; and then discovered that,
in his zeal for Hamlin's good,
he had expressed disapprobation to the extent of exactly twenty francs of Italian money.
"Nothing but pipes--loathsome, smelly, filthy pipes; never a
cigar--for the next two months," meditated Perry, as he paid his
money and received the clerk's receipt; "but a fellow must save
his friend after all."
But when Hamlin returned to his lodging in Florence, on the fourth day
after his proposal to Anne Brown--it seemed to him as if he had
proposed to her months ago, nay, as if he had never existed at all before
that proposal--he was told that a gentleman had called that morning,
and had left word that he would return again later on in the day.
"Some confounded painter or poetaster of my acquaintance,"
thought Hamlin, annoyed that any one should call upon him at this point of
his adventure.
A little later a card was brought in to him. The name upon it made him
start--a large shopman's card, on which was printed,
"Richard Brown, New Cross."
"Ask him to come in," cried Hamlin.
The visitor stalked in: a tall, burly man, with bushy black hair
and beard.
"An insolent cad," said Hamlin to himself.
"Mr Walter Hamlin?" asked the newcomer, bowing very
slightly, and looking down upon Hamlin from his big, bent shoulders.
"Precisely--and you, I believe, are Miss Anne Brown's
cousin?" answered Hamlin, stiffening at the other's
free-and-easy manner. The very look of this man rubbed him
the wrong way. "Pray, sit down," he added, doing his best to be
courteous. But the other had already sat down.
"I have come here," said Richard Brown, in a deep, Scotch
voice, which made a certain abruptness of manner even more offensive to his
host, "in consequence of a telegram which I received from your friend
Mr Melton Perry."
Hamlin turned pale with anger.
"Perry telegraphed behind my back," he
exclaimed--"however, I had written to you the same day. I
presume you know the contents of my letter?"
"I have received no letter from you--I suppose I started
before it arrived," answered Richard Brown. "Mr Perry mentioned
no letter from you in his telegram, and as I understood from it that there
were plans afoot which concerned my cousin and ward, I
thought I had best come at once and inquire into them."
He stopped a moment, and looked Hamlin in the face, as if to find out
what sort of man he might be. He himself might be any age between thirty
and forty, of the darkest possible Scotch type, sun-burnt like a
bargee, snub of feature, with a huge, overhanging forehead; he was a man
such as Hamlin had never dealt with--a type which he recognised as
having seen among workmen and Dissenting preachers: ugly,
intellectual, contemptuous--the incarnation of what, to the
descendants of Cavaliers and Jamaica planters, seemed the aggressive lower
classes.
"I see," said Hamlin, coldly. "I am greatly obliged to
you for the trouble you have taken. Your presence here will make it much
easier for us to settle all necessary matters."
"Mr Perry," went on the visitor, "has given me rather
a confused account of the proposal which I understand you to have made to
my cousin; and I thought it wiser to see
you before speaking to her. I must therefore beg you to tell me whether Mr Perry's account of your proposal is correct, and also whether you are in earnest in making it."
"Had you waited for my letter, I think you could have had no
further doubts," answered Hamlin, with some irritation. "To
recapitulate, then. I proposed to Miss Brown that she should permit me to
take charge of her education for the next two years, and, on her becoming
of age and deeming her studies complete, to place at her disposal the
capital of an income which should enable her to live in a manner
corresponding with the education she had received, and to make a suitable
marriage."
While Hamlin was speaking a sneer came over his listener's
face.
"I am to understand, therefore," he said, "that I was
misinformed as to this being a proposal of marriage."
"Pardon me," corrected Hamlin, gently. "I told your
cousin that I hoped that perhaps, at the end of those two years, or more,
she might
feel inclined to accept me as her husband; but that my particular object was that Miss Brown should, on coming of age, find herself in possession of a fortune corresponding to her education, and which should leave her free to contract whatever marriage she pleased, or to continue single."
Richard Brown flushed.
"In short," he said, with a strange irony in his voice,
"you offer to provide my cousin with a competence whereon to live, or
get married, after she shall have remained for two years in your charge. I
fully appreciate the intention of your proposal; and I therefore beg to
refuse it."
The blood rushed to Hamlin's head. That such an interpretation
should be put upon his words had never entered his mind. It was as if a
whip had whizzed about his ears and cut into his face. His first impulse
was to knock the other down. But the sense of his misunderstood
superiority, superiority unintelligible to his visitor, restrained him.
"I quite understand your refusal, Mr Brown," he answered,
"as a result of your interpretation of the case; and I suppose I have
no right to ask you to see my proposal, except as you would mean it were
you to make it yourself."
Richard Brown turned pale; but he too mastered his feelings.
"If your intention is to marry my cousin, why not marry her at
once?" he asked, with something in his look which expressed that he
felt himself not to be outwitted by a vicious fool.
Hamlin hesitated. He felt that he could never make this man understand
his dreams, his plans of turning Anne Brown into a realised ideal, of
wooing and winning the creature of his own making.
"Because--because," he hesitated.
"Because," interrupted Richard Brown, "a man in your
position of life cannot marry a girl like my cousin before she has been
turned into a lady; and because, even if this be granted, he cannot bind
himself to marry her
until he see whether schooling has succeeded in making a lady of her. I perfectly follow your reasons; but you also can follow mine when I say that my cousin cannot be subjected to the ups and downs of your appreciation."
In this man there was a hatred of Hamlin, not merely as a fine
gentleman, an idler, but as an æsthete; a hatred not merely of class,
but of temperament.
"You misunderstand my motives," answered Hamlin, losing
patience. "My reason for not marrying your cousin at once is, that I
would not marry a woman who cannot possibly love me as yet; and my reason
against a formal engagement between us is, that I cannot consent to bind
Miss Brown to marry me when she has no opportunity as yet of choosing a man
more to her taste. It seems to me," added Hamlin, feeling the
advantage on his side, "that to take your cousin in marriage now, or
to bind her to marry me in the future, would be buying her in exchange for
the education and the money which she will re-
ceive from me. That education and that money are intended to secure her freedom, to secure her choice of a man whom she may love, not to make her into the chattel of a man whom she could only despise."
Hamlin's tone and these sentiments, which seemed to belong to a
world west of the sun and east of the moon, evidently impressed
Anne's guardian. He remained silent for a moment, unable to realise
Hamlin's state of mind, while no longer able to disbelieve in it. But
the temptation to disbelieve in the sincerity of this handsome, effeminate,
æsthetic aristocrat was too strong.
"All this is very noble and chivalric," he said, "and
I doubt not quite natural in a poet like you, Mr Hamlin; but for us
practical people, I fear it won't do. I am fully persuaded of the
desirability of giving my cousin some further schooling, and fully
persuaded also of the undesirability of leaving her any longer in the care
of Mr Perry. So I shall take her back to England with me."
Hamlin turned pale with anger. It sickened him to see his plans dragged
in the mire of this fellow's suspicions, and at the same time he felt
unable ever to make him understand, utterly helpless in defending himself.
Suddenly an idea struck him.
"I see," said Hamlin, rising and leaning against the
fireplace, while his guest remained coolly seated--"I see that,
in plain words, you suppose that I project settling some money upon your
cousin, with a view of making her my mistress for two years--that is
it, is it not, Mr Brown?"
The brutal frankness staggered Brown; it was impossible to make any more
insinuations now. And he began to feel ashamed of those which he had
already made. His own imagination, then, was less clean than the
intentions of this womanish fine gentleman?
Perhaps for this very reason he answered calmly, but turning very
red--
"Yes, sir; that is exactly the state of the case."
Hamlin felt a sort of triumph at this humiliation of his visitor.
"In that case," he said, "I think I can devise a plan
which shall satisfy you--which will relieve your apprehensiveness. I
offer not merely to settle upon Miss Brown the capital of five hundred
a-year, to be administered by you until her majority; but also to
give you my word of honour to marry Miss Brown at any time that she may
summon me to do so."
Richard Brown was taken aback; all this romance, which he had believed
to be but a vicious snare, was then real.
"I don't understand you," he said. "I
don't understand what you want to do with my cousin."
"It seems difficult to explain it to you, Mr Brown," said
Hamlin; "still, I may repeat it. I wish Miss Brown to receive all the
advantages of education and money which a woman gifted like her has a right
to, and which will enable her to freely marry a man worthy of her--
myself, or any other in the world. I will not hear of binding Miss Brown to me at present, either by marriage or by promise of marriage; she is to remain absolutely independent. But I offer once more to pledge myself to marry her whenever she may wish it."
Brown did not answer for a moment.
"Are you ready to sign a document to that effect?" he
asked.
"I will give Miss Brown my word," answered Hamlin,
contemptuously; "and I will give you, Mr Brown, as many signed
documents as may be equivalent thereto in your eyes."
Brown felt the insult, but he knew he had drawn it upon himself. For a
moment he hesitated; his aversion to Hamlin and Hamlin's plan
fighting painfully with his sense of the worldly interests of his ward. At
last he said--
"On these conditions I can no longer make any opposition; and it
rests with my cousin to accept or refuse your offer. I can only warn her
and you--and to do so is my
duty, I think--that, in my opinion, such an arrangement is utterly undesirable for both parties, and that my strong advice is not to enter upon it."
"I take your warning to heart," answered Hamlin,
contemptuously; "but I cannot agree with it. May I beg you to meet me
at the English Consulate to-morrow morning, to witness the document
which you proposed I should draw out; the matter of her money settlement I
shall leave in the hands of my lawyers. What hour will suit you? and may I
have the pleasure of receiving you to breakfast with me and Mr Perry, who
will doubtless be my witness?"
Richard Brown bowed.
"Thank you," he said briefly; "I think I should prefer
breakfasting at my inn. With regard to the document, I shall be happy to
meet you at the Consulate any time convenient to yourself. But," and
his face became as threatening as his voice was studiously courteous,
"we must first hear whether, on
second thoughts, my cousin accepts your proposal. Good afternoon, Mr Hamlin."
"Good afternoon," answered Hamlin.
Richard Brown's visit had left a nauseous taste in his soul.
"So you have seen our noble, darling Hamlin," she cried;
"and you have felt your heart go out to meet him as we have felt
ours."
"I have seen Mr Hamlin," answered Brown roughly, not at all
appreciating the lady's winning manners; "and I should like to
speak to my cousin, please."
"Anne--my beautiful Anne"--cried Mrs Perry,
opening the door of the next room.
"Poor child!" she added, "how she has been trembling
in her heart all day!"
Anne entered. She was paler even than
usual, and was more than usually self-possessed. She had seen her guardian for a minute early that morning, and she knew that this visit would seal her fate.
"Good afternoon, Richard," she said briefly.
Brown looked round at Mrs Perry, waiting for her to withdraw. But such
was by no means her intention.
"Don't be unhappy, darling," she said to Anne;
"I know how one woman always longs for another woman in these
moments. I will stay with you while your cousin tells you the result of his
visit."
"It is very kind of you, madam," said Brown gruffly,
"but I think this matter had better be settled solely between my
cousin and myself. Would you permit her to take me into some other
room?"
"Oh, I don't wish to intrude," sighed Mrs Perry,
"I only wished to support this poor child with my presence. But after
all, a woman who loves requires support from no one." Saying which
she swept out of the room.
There was a moment's silence.
"I have been to Mr Hamlin's, Anne," said Brown
briefly, seating himself by the fire.
"Well?"
The tone of voice was so resolute and even triumphant that he raised his
head and looked up at her where she was standing by the table, a piece of
needlework still in her hands.
"Well," answered Brown quietly, and watching the effect of
each of his words on the pale, melancholy, but dispassionate face of the
girl, "I have spoken to Mr Hamlin; and I find that you were correct
in your judgment, and that I was mistaken in mine. He is in earnest in his
proposal, and honest in it."
"I knew that;" and Anne Brown wondered whether this could be
the same cousin Dick who was a big boy, almost a man, when she was a tiny
mite at Spezia; who took care of her when her mother was ill and her father
was drunk; who used to shoulder his uncle and drag him off to bed when, in
a fit of
intoxication, he would come in and threaten to throw the babies out of the window. She recognised the small features, the dark skin and hair, the heavy intellectual brow; but he seemed to have changed in expression, to have grown hard, and arrogant, and coarse.
"I knew that," she repeated, "though you would not
believe it. So," she added, with a certain hardness in her manner,
"I suppose I am left free to decide, and that you are ready to let Mr
Hamlin do what he chooses."
"You are free to decide," he answered. "Mr Hamlin, as
I have said, is serious and honest, and willing to make every provision
which can bind him and leave you free, legally. I cannot, as your guardian,
say no. But," and his voice assumed a threatening tone, "as
your kinsman, and as the representative of your father, I most earnestly
dissuade you from accepting this proposal."
Anne reddened. "But you can no longer oppose it," she said
quickly.
"I have told you before that you are free,
Anne. And because you are free," continued Brown, a sort of despair coming over him at the sight of the girl's indifference--"because you are free, I want you to listen to me. This proposal is one which, in the eyes of the world, will change your life for the better: you will be educated, get the manners of a lady, be rich yourself, and marry a rich man. But will you stand higher in your own opinion? Would you stand as high as you should in that of your father, if he were alive? You, having bartered your freedom, having accepted all from this one man?"
Anne did not answer.
"Of course," went on Richard Brown eagerly, "you will
have every worldly advantage. But will you be happy taken out of your own
sphere of life, knowing yourself to be bound in gratitude to this man, who
will always continue to feel your superior, to look down upon you as a
beggar whom he has fed, or a chattel which he has bought? This man is, for
his class and ideas, honourable: he wishes to leave you free
to marry him only if you please; he wishes to marry you really and truly. But in reality he is making you his slave; for how can you refuse him the only thing which you, my poor Nan, can give him in return for his money? And in reality he is making you his mistress; for what sort of marriage is it which is a marriage merely before the world--where the one buys and the other is bought?"
Anne flushed still deeper, and trembled from head to foot as she leaned
against the table. A dull pain clawed her at the heart, a lump rose up to
her throat. But she did not speak.
Richard Brown misunderstood her silence. He rose and approached the
table, and tried to put his arm paternally on her shoulder. She shrank
back, but let his heavy hand rest on her shoulder. What did his touch
matter when there were his words?
"Annie, dear," said Brown more gently, "you know I am
a rough man, and don't know how to mince matters and say things to
women; but you know that I am fond of
you. Don't you recollect when you were a wee lassie, and I used to carry you about on my back, and go into the water to get you the sea-weeds and the little nautiluses. I suppose you don't any longer. But still, you know I would not for the world hurt my poor little Nan."
Anne held on to the table, and as she recognised that familiar
intonation, hot tears rolled down her cheeks. Her whole childhood seemed to
return to her.
"Don't cry--don't cry!" exclaimed Brown,
taking her hand. "Poor child! I know it must be very hard for you who
are so young; I know what it must be to be tempted with a lady's
education, and money, and a fine gentleman, who's in love with one,
for a husband. But remember what your poor dad used to tell us, that we
common folk must make our own way--make the others feel that
we're as good as they, and not accept anything from them. D'you
remember how he used to say to me, 'Work and be proud'? Well,
and I
have worked and have been proud, and it's that that has enabled me to rest a little. And you, too, must be proud, and work, my little Annie."
"Look here," he went on, "you must not think you are
never to be anything but a servant. I feel I've been to blame, and
neglected you too long. You see, I've had to work hard for my life,
out in England; but now I am quite safely off--indeed much better off
than I ever anticipated: my employer is going to take me into
partnership next year. Well, since you wish to go to school, I will send
you there. You shall come back with me to England, and I will send you to
the very best school to be found: you shall be as good as any lady,
and you shall owe nothing to any one. Annie, do say yes."
He spoke, this rough man, almost as one might to a sick child; and as he
spoke, he tried to pass his arm round the girl's waist. But Anne
shuddered, and freed herself from his grasp. There was something in this
big dark
man, with his bushy hair and beard, which made her shrink physically, although she felt no suspicion of him morally. The thought of Hamlin passed across her mind--Hamlin, who was everything which Richard Brown was not.
"You are very good, Dick," she said, feeling ashamed of her
ingratitude; "but--but--oh no, no, I can't, I
can't!" and she hid her tears with her hands.
"Can't what?" exclaimed Brown, and his voice and face
changed; "can't what? Can't accept my offer; can't
owe anything to me, to your cousin, to the man to whom your father confided
you? No! you won't be under such an obligation, eh? Nay, don't
humbug me. You can't give up the money, the land, the house, the fine
name--all the things which he can give you and I can't; for I
can only give you an education, and I was such a fool as to think that you
wanted that!" and Brown laughed a loud, bitter laugh.
"You want to marry that man," he went
on brutally; "well, do so. But remember what marriage means. You are a girl of the people, who has had to take care of herself--not a fine young lady, as yet, thank God, with all the fine names which fine folk have for nasty things. You know what marriage means. It means being a man's chattel, more than his beast of burden, his plaything, the toy of his caprice and sensuality. It means, also, that you must smother all love for a worthier man, or degrade yourself in your own eyes. Will you be this, sell yourself thus--?"
"Mr Hamlin does not wish me to degrade myself," cried the
girl. "He respects me,--yes, he does; and you--you
don't!"
"He respects you!" sneered Brown. "And he does not
want to degrade you. Of course, he's a respectable, highly moral man.
But, upon my soul, I would rather you had been seduced by a man you loved,
than that you should have sold yourself coldly in this way."
Anne felt herself choking. For a moment she could not utter a word. Then
suddenly,
with a strange look in her eyes, she cried, in a tone which smote her cousin on the mouth--
"I love him!"
Brown turned and looked her in the face. She was very flushed, and her
slate-grey eyes gleamed feverishly. But her face was calm, and she
returned his taunting gaze, which sought for the proof that she lied, with
a look of irrepressible contempt.
"I love him!" she repeated.
Brown took his hat.
"Good-bye," he said, stretching out his hand;
"I left the choice in your hands, and you have chosen.
To-morrow morning I shall settle everything with Mr Hamlin--the
papers, I mean--which shall make him henceforth your sole protector.
Then I shall go. Goodbye. I wish you joy of your choice"--he
paused--"you mercenary thing!"
Anne did not move.
Richard Brown had already turned the handle of the door when he stopped.
"One thing more," he said, "which I desire you
to know. You have taken care of yourself hitherto, and you are prudent enough in all conscience, and world-wise enough, and heartless enough, to do so in future; so this piece of information may be of use to you. To-morrow he will sign a paper, which I shall keep till you come of age, declaring that, although he leaves you complete freedom in the choice of a husband, he binds himself to marry you whenever you may call upon him to do so. You will doubtless know how to turn this to profit. Good-bye."
Anne sank into a chair, excited, exhausted, all her blood in movement,
she scarcely knew why--insulted, maligned, and yet with a great sense
of joyfulness in her heart.
When Richard Brown had returned to England with the signed documents in
his pocket, Hamlin had immediately written two letters,--one to his
lawyers, instructing them to settle the capital of five hundred
a-year, that is to say, one quarter of his property, on Anne Brown;
the other, narrating the history of his engagement (if engagement it might
be called), to the widow of his former tutor, and asking
her to admit the young lady in whom he was interested into her school at Coblenz. It was the Easter holidays, and Mrs Simson had taken advantage of the fact to come to Florence in order to take back her pupil herself.
There was still a fortnight before the school would reopen, so Hamlin
suggested that they should slowly travel north, and it was settled that he
should accompany the schoolmistress and his ward. The greater part of that
fortnight was spent at Venice, where Anne Brown had never been, and Hamlin
parted company from them to return to England, only at Munich.
Mrs Simson was of that particular type of Englishwoman which, however
much it may marry, always seems to remain an old maid; but an old maid
whose old-maidishness is an incapacity of feeling any difference of
age between herself and her youngers, of maintaining any stateliness of
superior age and experience: a hopeful, believing, shrewd,
happy-go-lucky, enthusiastic creature, invariably making
one think of a remarkably good-natured old grey mare. Youth was the greatest attraction in the world to her, and she identified herself completely with the young women that came under her influence. Hamlin had known her in his boyish days, and lately, passing along the Rhine, had stayed with her for a day or two in her old-fashioned house by the confluence of the Rhine and the Mosel. The impression that this school was so utterly unlike any of the girls' schools he had read of in novels; the impression that a young woman might develop there into whatever pleasant thing nature intended,--had been so strong, that from the moment of his first contemplating a possible marriage with the Perrys' servant, Mrs Simson and her school at Coblenz had formed an essential part of his plans. The lady, on the other hand, was exactly the kind of woman to whom a situation like this would appeal: Hamlin, whom she had entertained on buns and ginger-beer, and then, in later years, raved over after the first sonnet which he sent to
the 'Athenæum,' had always been her especial object of adoration; and his adoption of a beautiful and strange young woman, his preparation of a bride for himself, was for her the finishing touch to his perfection. She would indeed have preferred had Anne Brown been small and fair, and garrulous and impish, and shown a love for mathematics and flirtation; but, nevertheless, Anne Brown, inasmuch as she was the elect of Walter Hamlin, and inasmuch as she was a beautiful young creature, immediately won the facile but not fickle heart of Mrs Simson. The whole business seemed to her as natural as possible; and it was she who proposed that Hamlin should accompany her and his ward part of their way northwards.
What was Anne's own condition? During those hours in the train,
when Hamlin was for ever jumping out and overwhelming them with coffee and
stale cakes and newspapers at every station; during those days at Venice,
when they stayed at the same hotel (the headwaiter quite spontaneously
wrote "Mrs Sim-
son and niece" in the strangers' book), and spent their days in picture-galleries and churches and gondolas, and their evenings at theatres,--during all that journey Anne was as cold, and silent, and melancholy as she had been when first they had met at the Villa Arnolfini; indeed any man but Hamlin, and any woman except Mrs Simson, would probably have been disheartened and disgusted by this apparent stolidity of behaviour. But Mrs Simson had already made up her character of Anne Brown, and fallen in love with it quite independent of realities; and Hamlin was rather pleased that the creature whom he was going to teach how to think and how to feel, did not manifest any particular mode of thinking and feeling of her own. So they were both extremely assiduous to Anne Brown, and in reality thought much more about what she was going to be than about what she actually was.
The fact was that the poor girl was in a dazed condition--that all
this journey seemed
to her unreal, and all the things around her unsubstantial. Her head felt hollow, she seemed to be informed about her feelings rather than to experience them, her own words sounded as if through a whispering-gallery. A couple of weeks ago she had had so strong a consciousness of identity and existence, of her own desires and hopes; now she could not well understand how she came to be where she was. Sometimes, while mechanically talking with her companions or walking in their company, she used to ask herself how it had all come about, and then she could see no reason for it all; it seemed accidental, inexplicable, causeless, and almost incredible. Whenever, on the other hand, she awakened to the reality of things, she was depressed by a sense of transition; she was afraid of speaking, and almost of feeling. As long as she had been the Perrys' servant, she had experienced no shyness with Hamlin; as far as her taciturn nature would allow, she had spoken out whatever she had thought or
felt, without considering whether or not it might surprise, annoy, or amuse him. Now, on the contrary, she gradually became conscious of a fear lest Hamlin should have cheated himself in choosing her. Unable to tell any one of this feeling, she let it overshadow her. One evening at Munich, two or three days before they parted company with Hamlin, Mrs Simson, coming into Anne's room, found the girl seated with her head in the pillows of her bed, sobbing.
The excellent and somewhat romantic heart of the schoolmistress
immediately melted at this sight.
"My dear child," she cried, looking more than ever like a
friendly grey old mare, "what is the matter with you?"
But Anne merely buried her head deeper in the pillows, and sobbed harder
than before.
"What is the matter?" repeated Mrs Sireson, laying her hand
on Anne's shoulder.
"Oh, leave me, leave me!" moaned the girl.
Mrs Simpson gently passed her arm under
the prostrate girl's breast, and lifted her up from the bed.
"What is the matter with you, my dear?" she asked.
"Nothing--nothing," sobbed Anne, trying to hide her
cried-out eyes with her hands.
"Nonsense; nothing!" said Mrs Simson, briskly. "You
are unhappy about something, you poor little thing."
Girls, and especially girls in distress, invariably appeared little to
Mrs Simson, even when, like Anne Brown, they overtopped her by a good
head.
"Something is the matter with you," she insisted. "Now
just let us see together what it may be;" and she made the reluctant
girl sit down by her side on the sofa. "Are you homesick?--do
you feel very strange, poor dearie, with strange people?-- are you
frightened a little by the sudden change in your life?--it's
very natural, my dear little girl, but you'll get over it
soon."
Anne shook her head. But the
impossibil-
ity of making Mrs Simson understand what depressed her, sent the sobs once more into her voice.
"No, no," she said; "oh no, no--you can't
understand. I don't feel lonely--I don't feel
unhappy--but it's only because Mr Hamlin--"
"Because Mr Hamlin is going away, my dear?" Mrs Simson
smiled as she kissed Anne on the crisp iron-black hair, for the girl
would not loosen her hands from her face--"Because he is going
away? That's very natural too; but it won't be for long,
dearest."
Anne broke loose from her embrace. "It's not that!
it's not that!" she sobbed; "please go away--you
can't understand--it's not that! Oh no, I shall be glad
when he be gone away!"
Mrs Simson rose. At first she felt pained, disgusted; but her frigidness
melted with the speedy reflection that girls don't know what the
matter is with them in such cases.
"Good-bye, dear," she said; "I shall send you
up some tea in a few minutes; that will set you all right. But don't
fret because
Mr Hamlin is going. You will see him soon again."
"I shall be glad when he is gone!" repeated Anne, in a
paroxysm of grief.
It was not a mere foolish, hysterical falsehood. It was a real relief
when, one morning at Frankfurt, Hamlin was standing on the platform of the
station, speaking to them at the door of their carriage. The guard came to
slam the door.
"Good-bye, Mrs Simson," said Hamlin.
"Good-bye, Miss Brown."
"Good-bye, sir," she answered, extending her
hand.
He kissed it hurriedly. The door was slammed. The train moved on slowly,
and Hamlin walked along its side. Gradually it went quicker and quicker,
and Anne Brown saw Hamlin for a minute on the platform; he was pale, but
radiant. He waved his hand.
"A rivederci !" he cried,
waving his hat.
A pillar of the station hid him. Anne turned away from the window and
opened a
book which he had given her. She read so assiduously all that day, that poor Mrs Simson, who was a sociable woman, resorted, in sheer despair, to talking with the other travellers, who stared in puzzled surprise at the tall girl with the melancholy pale face and masses of crimp black hair who sat opposite her.
When they had got out of the train, rattled over the round stones of
Coblenz, and were finally following the obstreperously welcoming cook and
housemaid up the stairs of Mrs Simson's house, Anne felt relieved.
And when she had been left alone in her room, she felt a weight off her.
When she had taken some things out of her box, she went to the window. The
last flare of sunset was on the marblelike brownish-green swirls of
the Rhine; and filaments of reddish gold streaked the sky above
Ehrenbreitstein, whose windows gleamed crimson. A steamer was puffing and
whistling by the wharf; the trumpets of the
rappel shrieked through the streets and were
reechoed from the opposite shore. From inside
the house rose the sound of a piano; some one was playing Bach's "Mein gläubiges Herz."
It was the beginning of a new life. Anne Brown left the window, hung her
clothes in the wardrobe, folded her linen in the drawers. Then she took
from her trunk a framed photograph of Hamlin, and stuck it on her
dressing-table; he was very handsome, with his straight,
keen-featured, almost beardless Norman face and waves of light
hair: she looked at it long. Then she dived to the bottom of her
trunk and brought out two little books; the "Petrarch" he had
given her at Lucca, and the volume of his own poems. She sat down by the
open window and began reading them, and glancing at the redness dying away
from river and sky. She felt very solemn and happy.
"I must become worthy of him," she thought.
which already existed in her. No one ever required to say to Anne, "You must not do, or think, or say such or such a thing." She surprised people only by her timidity, her silence, her passiveness, and by a sort of haughtiness which accompanied them strangely enough; a certain solemn, and, at the same time, abrupt way of judging of things and treating people, and which was the mental counterpart of her look, gait, nay, even of the folds which her dresses took on her. Ignorant though she was, she seemed at her ease with the new culture with which she was presented, just as, for all her habits of waiting on instead of being served, she seemed at ease in her behaviour. But it was difficult for Anne to tune herself or get herself tuned to the pitch of the everyday feelings and life of her companions; she could not understand these young ladies. The girls at Mrs Simson's did not exceed half-a-dozen, and they were none of them schoolgirls in the ordinary sense. They were, like Anne, eccentrically placed young women; orphans, or girls
whose parents were in the colonies, or girls who could not get on at home,--girls, all of them, with a certain pretension to superiority, and a great habit of independence, which was fostered by the schoolmistress, whose theory was that women could not possibly be left too much to their own devices.
Mrs Simson was very fond of preaching this gospel of higher education,
to the great scandal of the respectable German matrons whom she visited.
"Narrow-minded, vicious creatures," she used to say, who
shook their heads at the young ladies attending public lectures, walking
about by themselves, and flirting in the most stalwart and open manner
(quite unsentimental and unwomanly, said the Germans) with the Prussian
officers. Of these girls two were orphans, and had been sent to Coblenz as
a convenient riddance by their guardians; one had been deposited in Europe
by her parents, to be called for when educated, and shipped off to New
Zealand; one, a huge damsel approaching thirty, was studying eye-
surgery with a famous Rhenish oculist; the fifth was going to Girton and was studying German; the sixth had found her home too much for her, and was perpetually complaining of the hardness of her fate and the viciousness of her own character, aspiring to impossible ideals of knowledge and usefulness and self-sacrifice, and spending her leisure making up frocks in which to disport herself at the garrison balls.
Each of them studied whatsoever she thought fit: Greek and Latin
professors, piano and singing masters, German governesses, were perpetually
going in and out of the house; the girls were continually running to
lectures on botany or physiology or comparative philology, where the youth
of the town eyed the Schöne
Engländerinnen with rapture, sending them anonymous bouquets
and verses, and bringing them serenades, and even, to poor Mrs
Simson's horror, slipping love-letters of the most burning
description into the door-hinges. Among these girls poor Anne would
have felt utterly lost, had she not been accustomed for years to be
her own sole company, letting her life brush by that of other folk, without ever mixing. It seemed to her quite natural to exchange one kind of isolation for another: to drudge on at improving her own mind as she had formerly drudged on at mending the clothes and making the beds of the little Perrys, interesting herself as little in, and awakening as little interest among, her companions as she had done among her fellow-servants in Italy. Mrs Simson had received full instructions from Hamlin as to all the things which she was and was not to teach or have taught to his ward; and Anne would have been perfectly satisfied with working for her French and German masters, preparing her lessons of geography and history, and reading such books as Hamlin would send her, but the other girls were not at all so minded.
Anne Brown's arrival created a tremendous sensation in Mrs
Simson's establishment. Her strange kind of beauty, which did not
strike the conventional spectator as being beauty
at all, excluding, as it did, fairness, rosiness, youthfulness, daintiness, liveliness, voluptuousness, sentimentalness, or any of the orthodox ingredients of female charm,--her wholly unlike-everyone-else appearance, her silence, sullenness, haughtiness, all took the girls by surprise. Her shyness, ignorance, newness in her position, was obvious from the very first day. The knowledge of what she had been and what she was going to be, all this romance was quickly wheedled out of Mrs Simson by the misunderstood little girl who wished to turn sister of mercy, and carried on a simultaneous flirtation with a lieutenant, a Bonn student, a painter, and a piano-master; and bullied out of her by the bouncing amazon who talked about nothing but retinal impressions and optic nerves. From that moment Anne became a subject of intense interest at the school: most of the girls had heard of Hamlin in England, and all of them had heard of him from the enthusiastic schoolmistress. To possess in their midst his chosen one was a great privilege,
although they sometimes made fun of Anne and him behind her back, drawing pictures of the solemn and tragic girl dressed in the most draggled æsthetic manner, surrounded by a circle of young æsthetes copied out of 'Punch' (Bunthome did not exist at that time) holding lilies and swinging censers as she went. They all thought Anne a strange, awe-inspiring, and, at the same time, somewhat ridiculous person; but they all got to like her, although the misunderstood High Church flirt could never be got to see why Anne should despise officers and garrison balls; and the scientific girl of twenty-eight thought æstheticism and æsthetic poets idiotic and immoral; and each of the others found some reservation to make about the Italian, as they called her. Yet, as I said, they did grow to like her; and Anne, who was unaccustomed to friendliness, was so touched by the familiarity and good-nature of her companions, that she gradually began to take a great and serious interest in their concerns. She became quite enthusiastic about ocular
surgery, listening with scarcely any shudders to the narration of the most complicated operations; she let herself be overwhelmed with discourses about Middle High German and Gothic, and the connection with Sanskrit; she firmly believed in the mystical fervours, the desire of self-sacrifice, the wasted passion of the little fair-haired flirt, reasoning seriously about them, and trying to check what she believed to be a suicidal tendency; she was greatly touched by the home-sickness and family squabbles of the other girls. Not that Anne was a fool, or made to be a dupe; on the contrary, she saw well enough the funniness of the contrasts between her friends' words and their life; but Anne was so earnest, so simple, so homogeneous of nature, she was so fervent in all her feelings, that she always imagined that the serious things which people said or affected must be the reality; and, as in her own case, the levity, the frivolousness, the fickleness, must be the mere exterior clothing of social fictions. Thus she gave her sympathy wherever it was asked
for, while asking for no sympathy herself. The girls used often to remark upon this, and complain that for all they did, Anne Brown remained surrounded by a sort of moral moat, alone, isolated, impregnable in a kind of moral fortress.
The real life was not with these girls and these teachers, but with
Hamlin; not in this Rhineland town, but in the distant places where he
travelled. He wrote to her very often, from London, from Italy, from Greece
and Egypt, and wherever he roamed about. At first she was surprised by the
frequency of his letters; then she became accustomed to it as to a
necessity of her existence, but a necessity to which she had no right. It
seemed to her wonderful that he should write so often, and yet that the
time which elapsed between his letters should be intolerable. In her great
desire for them she used to have recourse to all manner of unconscious
sophistications. She tried to train herself to disappointment, to chastise
her own impatience and greediness, saying to herself, on the days when she
thought that a letter might come, "It is impossible that there should
be one to-day," although her heart fell when the prophecy
sometimes came true; and she stayed up-stairs, her eyes pinned to
her book,
when she heard the postman's ring at the door, although that ring put her all into a tremble, and made her feel faint when she heard it. Thus with the letters from him. It was almost worse about her own answers. Often she could stand it no longer, and would begin a letter to Hamlin--only a few lines, which might be finished when his next letter should be received. The few lines turned to pages; yet the next day no letter would come, and she was unable to resist the temptation of writing even more; then, when the long-wished letter at last came, there came with it such a number of new things to say, that her previous epistle must needs be torn up. Also, on re-reading what she had written in answer to Hamlin, she was often filled with shame and fear. She had entertained him with such trifles, or been so pedantic, or put things in such a horrid way, she must needs tear it up and write once more. Then the length, the frequency of her letters frightened her: he would grow weary and impatient; she tried
to write briefly, but failed; she tried to write rarely, making solemn resolutions to let two, three, or four days pass without answering him; but it was not of much use. She was dreadfully afraid lest Hamlin should think her a drag upon him, lest he should write one single letter more than he would naturally have done, from goodness to her. She never told him with what tremulous expectancy she waited for the post; with what heartburn she saw it come empty-handed; with what avidity she read his letters, re-read them furtively by snatches, carried them about in her pocket, made them last over days, till she knew them by heart, and, even then, how she was for ever doing up and undoing again the packet in which she kept them: if he knew that, he might feel obliged, being so kind, to write oftener; and that must not be.
Any one who had seen these letters which were her soul's food,
would have been surprised how they could awaken such a longing, how they
could produce such emotion and
keep alive such passion. In accordance with his whole plan of proceedings, Hamlin never once wrote to Anne as if there were any question of her ever becoming his wife. "My dear Miss Brown," they all ceremoniously began, and ended off "Yours sincerely," or "Your sincere friend, Walter Hamlin." Affectionate they were, and even adoring, in the sense of looking up, or affecting to look up, at her as a sort of superhuman and wonderful creature, not quite conscious of its wonderfulness, perhaps, and certainly not responsible for it; the mental attitude of an artist before a beautiful model, of some Italian medieval poet before a Platonic mistress. There was not much perception of the reality of Anne Brown's personality, nor indeed of her having any personality at all, being a thing with feelings, thoughts, hopes, interests of her own. Sometimes even poor Anne felt, on reading his letters, as if a lump of ice had been laid on her heart, when she came upon certain sentences; she could scarcely tell you why, but
those sentences made her feel numb and alone, like a wrecked sailor at the north pole, for days. Then a reaction came; a burning indignation with herself, a burning adoration of Hamlin. She felt as if she had done him some injury; and once or twice, amid tears of shame, she wrote that she had become unworthy of his friendship--why, she could not well explain. But she tore it all up, or left only dim hints which Hamlin misunderstood, and became more respectful and adoring than ever, imagining that he must have said something to slight her. He really was adoring; it was such a lovely Madonna this, that it seemed to him that all the most beautiful and precious things of his mind, and other men's minds, must be heaped up before her, like offerings of flowers, and rich ointments, and jewels, and music. He copied out pages of poetry and prose in his letters, and wrote to her the most lovely descriptions of things he saw or things he felt. Whenever he recollected a fine poem, or saw a beautiful scene,
or was struck by a beautiful thought or a happy expression, he hastened to offer it to Anne, as the kings of the East offered gold and frankincense and embroidered raiment to the little Christ. That this was the result of his love, she never thought; for she never ventured to think that he condescended, or even would ever condescend, to love her; but it was in her eyes the result of his greatness, his generosity, the largesse, as it were, of his sublimity. About himself Hamlin would also write a great, great deal. Of singularly delicate mental fibre, and somewhat weak will, he was for ever tormented (or pretending to himself to be tormented, for to be so was pretty well a matter of choice) by unattainable ideals, by conflicts in his own nature: mysterious temptations of unspeakable things, beckoning his nobler nature into the mud, which he never at all specified, but which moved Anne to agonies of grief and admiration. The poor girl, not understanding how such things will shoot up in the poetic mind as a result of mere
reading, and be nurtured there for a day for the sake of their strange colour, would screw up all her might to help him, writing to him to be patient, to be strong and bold, to remember the nobility of his nature,--strange passionately earnest entreaties written in tears, or in moods like those which send people to the stake; and which, in their ludicrous disproportionateness to their cause, would bring the tears to almost any one's eyes who should read them.
A strange correspondence; and of which Hamlin's half, although
beautiful with all manner of artistic prettinesses, would have struck one
as the less beautiful and interesting part: the suppressed
passionateness, unconscious of itself, of the girl's letters, her
mixture of prim literary daintiness, absorbed from her reading, and of
homely, tragically-hurled-about imagery (Hamlin used, without
revealing the author, to read out some of these metaphors of Anne's
to his friends, pointing out their Elizabethan, Webster-like
character), were much
more really striking. But Anne thought that what she wrote was unworthy to be seen by Hamlin; his condescension was mere goodness.
Hamlin, indeed, was very good to her--very gentle, courteous,
generous, and assiduous. There was scarcely a book read by Anne Brown which
was not of his selecting; and even in the midst of his journeys he used to
elaborately select things for her reading, cutting out all but a very few
pieces out of books of poetry, and copying and pasting into them all manner
of extracts. "I should be grieved to think that anything save the
very best should ever be read by you," he often wrote. Thus, in the
most singular way, Anne, only a nursemaid a few months before, became more
deeply versed in poetry and poetical and picturesque history than most
girls; Greek lyrism, Oriental mysticism, French æstheticism, but
above all, things medieval and pseudo-medieval; imbued with the
imagery and sentiment of that strange eclectic school of our days which we
still call pre-Raphaelite. And
such an education, while putting her in complete harmony with Hamlin's aspirations and habits, also brought home to her the merit of Hamlin's own work. Of his pictures, she had, indeed, only vague recollections, besides the little sketches, wonderful jewel-coloured things, full of poetic suggestion, which he would send her at Christmas and on her birthday, to the amazement of the whole school. But he sent her a good deal of his poetry, and that only of the best. She did not always understand exactly the things to which he alluded, seeing only the beauty, the vague passionate wistfulness, the delicate sadness of what he wrote. His greatness perfectly confounded her. She found allusions to it in everything: in reading of dead poets, of Shelley, Keats, Goethe, a kind of passionate interest thrilled through her, for she seemed to be reading about Hamlin. And the same held good as to artists; they were all his kinsmen, of his blood--nay, they all, in a mystic manner, foreshadowed him.
Of these matters she never spoke to any of the girls. But often, while
walking with them, her pride would swell with the thought that she belonged
to him--that he had chosen her. And when the New Zealander, who was
musical and had a fine voice, used sometimes to sing Schumann's song,
"Er der herrlichste von allen," the words and the music sent a
flood of love and pride to her heart; it was he, "he the most
glorious of all," who was thus gracious and good to her.
sombre, quiet, strange, half-Italian girl had suddenly turned crimson, and clutched a chair, as if afraid to fall, while the company stared and whispered. Hamlin left that same evening; and as the day in Paris had been spent in seeing and talking about pictures, so this afternoon passed in trifling conversation at Mrs Simson's table. Alone, Anne scarcely saw him for an instant. Only, when he left Coblenz, he seized her hand as he stood at the door, and kissed it fervently. It seemed to her, during the long months of absence, that she would give all her life to see him again, to be able to tell him how grateful she was to him. Yet, in reality, his presence passed like the picture of a magic-lantern on a wall; and she felt as if her lips were glued together: it was a vision, and no more. But on that second visit Hamlin had been dazzled. He had recognised from the first the exotic beauty and strangeness of the Perrys' servant; he had seen in Paris that his judgment had been correct; but when, after eighteen months of schooling, he
suddenly saw Anne again, it was as if he had never seen her before, a fresh revelation. A year and a half of a lady's life, without bodily fatigue or mental weariness, had developed to the full the girl's marvellous beauty: strange, mysterious, amazonian it was as ever; but it was as the regalness of a triumphant queen by the side of the queenliness of a deposed Amazon chief. The haughtiness which had struck him in the nursemaid of the little Perrys, was not diminished, but softened, by a kind of quiet graciousness and goodness. Hamlin remarked that she seemed, now that she was no longer humbled and cramped, to have a much kindlier spirit and a sense of humour which had at first seemed scarcely to exist, or to exist only in bitterness. But what struck him most of all was an indefinable change in Anne's expression: the soul, which had lain as a tiny germ at the bottom of her nature, had expanded and come to the surface. She was as beautiful and singular as ever, but more manifold and subtle: her mind had increased threefold. Hamlin
went away, intending that Anne should remain at Coblenz another year. But he found that his patience, hitherto inexhaustible, had suddenly departed. He found the time intolerably heavy on his hands. He travelled about in out-of-the-way countries, having fragmentary love-affairs, in a dreamy, irresponsible way, with other women; and sending Anne more letters than usual, and presents of all manner of outlandish stuffs--silver ornaments and so forth--which used to create great excitement at the school; but he fretted with impatience. Impatience, be it well understood, not to marry Anne, for he always thought of marriage as the return from, the end of, a sort of spiritual honeymoon; but impatience to commence that long courtship which had, from the beginning, been the object of his desires. He grew tired of their correspondence, found that he had exhausted all the delights of unconsciously revealed love, love budding and developing with the girl's mind. It began to be mere repetition; and he scarcely knew
what to write about now: the prologue had lasted long enough; the piece must begin.
One day, some two years or so after her arrival at Coblenz, Anne Brown
received a letter in which Hamlin reminded her that she was
twenty-one, and that his guardianship had consequently come to an
end already some months before; and suggested that, as he heard that her
education was now completed, at least in so far as Coblenz went, he thought
that it might be wiser if she came to England, where she would have better
opportunities of continuing any special studies. Moreover, that his aunt,
Mrs Macgregor, a widow without any children, was coming to settle in
London, and that he thought it might be a good arrangement that she and
Anne should live together, as Anne could scarcely take a house by herself.
What did Miss Brown think of this arrangement? And would she authorise him
to settle everything for Mrs Macgregor and her? Faintly and vaguely Anne
thanked him for his forethought, and acquiesced in
everything which he might be kind enough to decide upon. She had never realised her situation, she was not the sort of mind which has clear conceptions of the future, and she had been far too much absorbed, these two years, in the unreal present. Besides, Anne felt a confused pain, a disappointment, which prevented her attending to anything else. Hamlin had said nothing about himself, not a word as to whether he also would settle in London, or whether he intended continuing his wandering life. And she had not the courage to ask him. She was conscious of a coldness and emptiness in her heart, of the disappointment of some vague, unspoken hope. But why feel disappointed? or did she really feel disappointed at all? She believed that she cared for Hamlin only as for a benefactor, a divinity, a creature who might bestow affection but could not be asked for it; and this being the case, and knowing herself to have been perfectly satisfied and happy hitherto,
she persuaded herself that she really did not feel disappointed about anything, when Hamlin thus wrote about her education and her plans and nothing else.
But as the winter drew to a close, there came another letter from Hamlin
(all the intermediate ones had been only the usual talk about himself, and
about books and scenery) telling her that, with a view to her living with
his aunt, he had, as her ex-guardian (he always spoke of himself as
her guardian, completely ignoring Richard Brown) deemed it wise to employ
part of her capital, which had been accumulating in his hands, in the
purchase of the lease of a house at Hammersmith, which he was having
prepared and furnished against her coming in May. "It is in a pretty
neighbourhood, with the river in front and old houses and gardens all
round," he wrote. "What determined my choice, as I am sure it
would have determined yours also, is that the house is itself more than a
century and a
half old, and has some fine trees in the garden. Flowers seem to grow well, as it is pretty well beyond reach of smoke. There are also some fine elms and poplars in front, all along the river-side, which is old-fashioned, and .not yet made into a modern embankment. It is rather far from the world; but the world is hideous, and the farther away from it the better, don't you think? My aunt is busy about the practical household properties; I am getting in some of the more useless furniture. If you should dislike the arrangement, it can all be easily undone. I hope you will not disapprove of this step; the house is pretty well unique, and I had to decide on taking it, unless some one else was to snap it up; otherwise I should certainly have consulted you first. I trust you will forgive me."
Anne put the letter down, and wondered whether she was dreaming. What
was all this about buying and consulting her, employing her capital? What
capital had she
got? What right to be consulted? For a moment she felt quite bewildered; and then the full consciousness of Hamlin's goodness rushed out and overwhelmed her, and she let her head fall on her desk and cried for sheer happiness. Then she thought it must all be a dream, and snatched the letter where it lay all crumpled, and smoothed it out trembling. Yes, there it all was. And then, as postscript, came this sentence, which made her heart leap:--
"There are two rooms additional on the garden, having a separate
entrance from the embankment, and which I think you will not at present
require for yourself. Would you perhaps let me rent them for a studio? My
own lodgings are a long way from St John's House (that is its name,
for it was a priory once); but if I had my workshop there, I might hope to
see you almost every day, if you would let me."
The first dinner-bell rang, and Anne, having hastily washed her
eyes and smoothed her
hair, ran down-stairs, not knowing very well why the bell rang, or what it was all about. In the sitting-room she found the girl from New Zealand, a little nervous creature, whom she had nursed through a bad fever, in her cold, absent way, and who had conceived a shy, intense passion for this beautiful strange creature, who seemed to her an unapproachable being from another world.
"I am going away," cried Anne--she felt she must say
it--"going away from school--to London, next
month."
The thin, nervous, anæmic little girl turned
ashy-white.
"Oh, are you really going?" she exclaimed faintly, for with
Anne disappeared all the poor child's sunshine and ideal from this
dreary, worse than orphaned life, among girls who had too many occupations
and interests to care for her.
"Are you really going, Annie? . . . Oh, I am so sorry!"
"Sorry?" cried Anne; "it is very nasty
of you to be sorry--I am glad; oh, so glad! so glad!"
The little New Zealander had gone to the window, and was looking through
its panes at the rainy street; she gave a little suppressed sob.
Anne felt as if she had committed a murder. She ran to the window, and
seized the struggling small creature in her powerful arms, and knelt down
before her, clasping her round the waist.
"Oh, forgive me! forgive me!" cried Anne, as the
consciousness of the girl's love, which she had never before
perceived, came upon her, together with the shame and remorse at her
heartlessness; "forgive me, forgive--I am a brute--a beast
--oh dear, oh dear, that happiness should make me so
wicked!"
The New Zealander smiled and buried her thin yellow face in the masses
of Anne's dark crisp hair.
"Will you remember me sometimes?" she asked; "I love
you so much."
Anne kissed the poor, pale, tear-stained cheeks.
"Oh yes, I will always remember you," she said.
But she was already thinking of Hamlin.
London. "I am sure you will enjoy it much more than the vile, vulgar, usual route," he wrote. But he did not tell her that he was unwilling she should get any impressions of England before meeting him, however slight they might be; that he preferred to meet her, in the evening, on the Thames wharf, to receiving his Amazon Queen, his mysterious and tragic Madonna, rather than in the shed at Victoria or Charing Cross. Anne did not care how she was to go: she was to go, to embark on a new life, to see him, to be seen by him. This thought, which had never struck her before, began to haunt her now: if he should be disgusted with her? if he should recognise that he had been mistaken in his choice?
The morning before her departure, Mrs Sireson handed Anne a letter at
breakfast.
"Mr Hamlin has sent a girl to fetch you, dear," she
said.
"To fetch me?" cried Anne, in astonishment.
Mrs Simson opened the door--"Pray, come in," she
said.
A young woman entered, whose immaculate smartness and cheerful alertness
never would have let one guess that she had just been travelling
twenty-four hours.
"This is Miss Brown," said Mrs Simson. The girl curtsied,
and waited for Miss Brown to speak. But Anne could not utter a word.
"Mrs Macgregor, Mr Hamlin's aunt, engaged me as your
travelling-maid, miss," said the young woman, handing a note
to Anne.
It was from Hamlin, and ran briefly--
"MY DEAR MISS BROWN,--My aunt is unfortunately too delicate
to admit of my asking her to fetch you from Coblenz; but she has engaged
the bearer to be your maid, unless you have some previous. choice at
Coblenz, in which case, please forgive our interference. She is highly
recommended, and seems a good girl, and accustomed to travel. She will
telegraph me how you are from Cologne and Ant-
werp. I shall await you Thursday evening on the wharf. Till then, farewell.--Your sincere and impatient friend,
"WALTER HAMLIN."
For some unaccountable reason Anne felt quite angry. She did not require
any one to travel with her; she did not want a maid. The very word
maid seemed to bring up her whole past.
"You had better go and rest yourself," she said to the girl
coldly.
"How sweet and considerate!" said Mrs Simson, reading
Hamlin's note.
"I don't want a maid!" cried Anne, angrily.
"A young lady of your age cannot travel alone, my dear,"
answered Mrs Simson, blandly. But Anne felt miserable, she knew not why,
and hated the maid.
Presently she went up to her room to pack her trunk. On opening the door
she discovered the maid--her maid--on her knees,
emp-
tying the chest of drawers, and folding thing after thing.
"Please don't do that!" cried Anne, turning purple.
"I will do it myself, please."
The girl stared politely, and answered in a subdued, respectfully
chiding tone--
"I was only packing your trunk, miss."
"I will do it myself!" cried Anne, excitedly.
"As you wish, madam," was the maid's icy answer; and
she rose.
"Can I do nothing for you?" she said, standing by the door,
with a reproachful, prim little face.
Anne was ashamed.
"You can help me if you like," she answered, rather humbled;
and she began folding her things. But the girl was much quicker than she,
and Anne soon remained with nothing to do, looking on vacantly. She felt as
if she would give worlds to get the girl away; she felt as if she ought to
say to her, "Don't do that for me; I am not a real lady; I am
no better than you; I am a servant, a maid, my-
self,"--and as if every moment of silence were a kind of deceit. At last she could bear it no longer--
"Please," she cried, "let me pack my things myself; I
have always packed them myself; I should be so glad if you would let
me."
The girl rose and retired.
"As you like, miss," she replied, fixing her eyes on
Anne's strange excited face.
"She knows I am only a servant like herself, and she thinks me
proud and ungrateful," thought Anne.
The next evening, among the lamentations of Mrs Simson's
establishment, Anne Brown set off for Cologne. This first short scrap of
journey moved her very much: when the train puffed out of the
station, and the familiar faces were hidden by outhouses and locomotives,
the sense of embarking on unknown waters rushed upon Anne; and when, that
evening, her maid bade her good night at the hotel at Cologne, offering to
brush her hair and help her to undress, she was seized with intolerable
home-
sickness for the school,--the little room she had just left,--and she would have implored any one to take her back. But the next days she felt quite different: the excitement of novelty kept her up, and almost made it seem as if all these new things were quite habitual; for there is nothing stranger than the way in which excitement settles one in novel positions, and familiarises one with the unfamiliar. Seeing a lot of sights on the way, and knowing that a lot more remained to be seen, it was as if there were nothing beyond these three or four days--as if the journey would have no end; that an end there must be, and what that end meant seemed a thing impossible to realise. She scarcely began to realise it when the ship began slowly to move from the wharf at Antwerp; when she walked up and down the deserted and darkened deck watching the widening river under the clear blue spring night, lit only by a ripple of moonlight, widening mysteriously out of sight, bounded only by the shore-lights, with here or there the
white or blue or red light of some ship, and its long curl of smoke, making you suddenly conscious that close by was another huge moving thing, more human creatures in this solitude,--till at last all was mere moonlight-permeated mist of sky and sea. And only as the next day--as the boat cut slowly through the hazy, calm sea--was drawing to its close, did Anne begin to feel at all excited. At first, as she sat on deck, the water, the smoke, the thrill of the boat, the people walking np and down, the children wandering about among the piles of rope, and leaning over the ship's sides--all these things seemed the only reality. But later, as they got higher up in the Thames, and the unwonted English sunshine became dimmer, a strange excitement arose in Anne--an excitement more physical than mental, which, with every movement of the boat, made her heart beat faster and faster, till it seemed as if it must burst, and a lot of smaller hearts to start up and throb all over her body, tighter and tighter, till she had to press her
hand to her chest, and sit down gasping on a bench.
The afternoon was drawing to a close, and the river had narrowed; all
around were rows of wharves and groups of ships; the men began to tug at
the ropes. They were in the great city. The light grew fainter, and the
starlight mingled with the dull smoke-grey of London; all about were
the sad grey outlines of the old houses on the wharves, the water grey and
the sky also, with only a faint storm-red where the sun had set. The
rigging, interwoven against the sky, was grey also; the brownish sail of
some nearer boat, the dull red sides of some steamer hard by, the only
colour. The ship began to slacken speed and to turn, great puffs and pants
of the engine running through its fibres; the sailors began to halloo, the
people around to collect their luggage: they were getting alongside
of the wharf. Anne felt the maid throw a shawl round her; heard her voice,
as if from a great distance, saying, "There's Mr Hamlin,
miss;" felt herself walk-
ing along as if in a dream; and as if in a dream a figure come up and take her hand, and slip her arm through his, and she knew herself to be standing on the wharf, in the twilight, the breeze blowing in her face, all the people jostling and shouting around her. Then a voice said--"I fear you must be very tired, Miss Brown." It was at once so familiar and so strange that it made her start; the dream seemed dispelled. She was in reality, and Hamlin was really by her side.
which was so undefinably different from the voice which had haunted her throughout those months of absence. Hamlin was seated by her side, the maid opposite. The carriage drove quickly through a network of dark streets, and then, on, on, along miles of embankment. It was a beautiful spring night, and the mists and fogs which hung over river and town were soaked with moonlight, turned into a pale-blue luminous haze, starred with the yellow specks of gas, broken into, here and there, by the yellow sheen from some open hall-door or lit windows of a party-giving house: out of the faint blueness emerged the unsubstantial outlines of things--bushes, and overhanging tree-branches, and distant spectral towers and belfries.
"You must be very tired," said Hamlin.
"Oh no," answered Anne, that repeated revelation of the real
voice still startling her--" not at all."
He asked her how she had left those at Coblenz, and about her journey;
she had to
tell him about every picture and church she had seen at Cologne, Brussels, Bruges, and Antwerp. It is strange how people whose hearts have seemed full to bursting with things they have so long been waiting to say, will talk, when they meet again, like persons introduced for the first time at a dinner-party. On they rolled, and on, through the pale moonlight mist by the river.
"I hope," said Hamlin, when they had done discussing Van
Eyck, and Rubens, and Memling--"I hope you will like the house
and the way I have had it arranged; and," he added, "I hope you
will like my aunt. She is rather misanthropic, but it is only on the
surface."
His aunt! Anne had forgotten all about her; and her heart sank within
her as the carriage at last drew up in front of some garden railings. The
house door was thrown open, and a stream of yellow light flooded the strip
of garden and the railings. Hamlin gave Anne his arm; the maid followed. A
woman-servant was holding the door open, and raising a lamp above her. Anne bent her head, feeling that she was being scrutinised. She walked speechless, leaning on Hamlin's arm, and those steps seemed to her endless. It was all very strange and wonderful. Her step was muffled in thick, dark carpets; all about, the walls of the narrow passage were covered with tapestries, and here and there came a gleam of brass or a sheen of dim mirror under the subdued light of some sort of Eastern lamp, which hung, with yellow sheen of metal discs and tassels, from the ceiling. Thus up the narrow carpeted and tapestried stairs, and into a large dim room, with strange-looking things all about. Some red embers sent a crimson flicker over the carpet; by the tall fireplace was a table with a shaded lamp, and at it was seated a tall, slender woman, with the figure of a young girl, but whose face, when Anne saw it, was parched and hollowed out, and surrounded by grey hair.
"This is Miss Brown, Aunt Claudia," said Hamlin.
The old lady rose, advanced, and kissed Anne frigidly on both
cheeks.
"I am glad to see you, my dear," she said, in a tone which
was neither cold nor insincere, but simply and utterly indifferent.
Anne sat down. There was a moment's silence, and she felt the old
lady's eyes upon her, and felt that Hamlin was looking at his aunt,
as much as to say, "Well, what do you think of her?" and she
shrank into herself.
"You have had a bad passage, doubtless," said Mrs Macgregor
after a moment, vaguely and dreamily.
"Oh no," answered Anne, faintly, "not at all bad,
thank you."
"So much the better," went on the old lady, absently.
"Ring for some tea, Walter."
Hamlin rang. In a moment tea-things were brought. Hamlin handed a
cup to Anne, and offered her some cake.
"It is a long drive," said Mrs Macgregor--
"a long drive--all the way from Charing Cross."
"Miss Brown came by the Antwerp boat--St Catherine's
Wharf--in the City, aunt," corrected Hamlin.
"Ah, yes, to be sure--perhaps she would like some more milk
in her tea. There is always such a delay at Charing Cross, isn't
there, Walter?"
But while Mrs Macgregor's mind and words seemed to ramble vaguely
about, her eyes were fixed upon Anne--large, melancholy dark eyes.
"You are glad to be back in London, aren't you?" she
asked.
"This is the first time I am in England," answered Anne,
shyly; all this dim room, with its vague sense of beautiful things all
round, this absent-minded lady, all seemed to harmonise with her own
dreamlike sensations.
"Miss Brown was born in Italy," explained Hamlin, probably
for the hundredth time.
"Oh yes, of course; how stupid I am! And,
Walter, there are some letters for you on the hall table, and Mr Chough came while you were out, and a man from--what's his name--the upholsterer who writes poetry."
"All right," interrupted Hamlin.
"Won't you have another cup, Margaret?" asked Mrs
Macgregor.
"Her name is Anne, auntie--"
"Of course--I don't know whether you take sugar in your
tea or not, Rachel."
Thus they went on for another half-hour; Mrs Macgregor calling
Anne by one wrong name after another, alluding to things which she could
not possibly know anything about, and Hamlin trying to set matters right
and induce Anne to talk.
"It is getting late," he said, "and I fear Miss Brown
must be tired after her long journey. I think you had better not keep her
up any longer, aunt."
"I am not tired," protested Anne.
"You will be tired to-morrow," said the old lady.
"Yes," added Hamlin, "and I must go. Good-bye,
aunt. Good night, Miss Brown; I hope you will have good dreams to welcome
you home to England. I shall come in for lunch to-morrow, Aunt
Claudia. Good night. Good night, Miss Brown," and he kissed her hand.
"Good night, buon riposo e sogni
felici."
The few words of Italian almost brought the tears to Anne's eyes;
she felt so strange here, so far from everything--and yet what had she
left behind? nothing, and no one who loved her, except that little girl
from New Zealand. She felt terribly alone in the world.
Hamlin had evidently not trusted to his aunt to send Anne to bed, for
the maid came in uncalled, and asked whether Miss Brown would not like to
go up to her room.
"Of course," said Mrs Macgregor; and taking a heavy
old-fashioned silver candlestick, she led Anne to her room. The poor
girl was too weary and dazed to see what it was like. She sank on to a
chair, and
passively let the maid take off her hat and cloak.
"Shall I undress you, ma'am?" she asked.
Anne shook her head. "No, thanks."
The girl retired, but Mrs Macgregor remained standing by Anne's
side, looking at the reflection in the glass of her pale, sad, tired face.
"Undo your hair, Eliza dear," said Mrs Macgregor.
Anne mechanically pulled out the hair-pins, and the masses of
iron-black crisp hair fell over her shoulders.
The old lady looked at her for a moment.
"You are a beautiful girl, Anne," she said, at last hitting
the right name, "and," she added, with a curious compassionate
look, as she kissed the girl's forehead, "are you really in
love with Watty?"
Anne did not answer; but she felt herself redden.
"Marriage without love is a terrible thing," said the old
lady, "and in so far love is a mitigation of evil; but at the best it
is only
delusion. People must marry, but it is the misfortune of their lives. Good night, my dear."
The words went on in Anne's head, but she was too worn out to
understand them. She soon fell asleep, and dreamed that Melton Perry had
painted a picture, and that in a storm the ship's crew said it must
be used as a raft; and somehow it all took place at Florence, in the large
pond in the Boboli Gardens.
mirror was like what she had seen in the illustrations to an old copy of 'Sir Charles Grandison' which had belonged to Miss Curzon; the tapered chairs and tables to match. There were blue-and-white jars and pots all about, and old-fashioned china things on the dressing-table: except for the fac-similes of drawings by Mantegna and Botticelli, and the coloured copies of famous Italian pictures which dotted the walls, the room might have been untouched since the days of the first Georges. She remembered that Hamlin had told her that the house was an old one; but she could not understand how everything came to look so very spick and span and new. She got up and went to the window. Below, in the little garden, was a lilac-tree bursting into flower, and a yellow laburnum. A milkman's cart was drawn up before the door. In front were the trees, in tender leaf, and the wooden parapet of the river-walk; then the Thames, still wide, but so different from what she had seen it the previous evening: a clear grey stream
reflecting green banks and cloudy blue sky, with here and there a barge or boat moored by the shore. The sky was blue, but covered with moist clouds, and it seemed to Anne that she could almost see where it arose on the horizon, so low did it seem. There was a scent of recent rain in the air, a shimmer of moisture on the leaves and grass. Was this London, which she had always fancied so noisy, and grimy, and vulgarly new?
Anne was already half dressed; but she spent some time wondering which
of her frocks she should put on: they had been made expressly for
London, and greatly admired by the girls at Coblenz, but now one looked
more absurd and frumpish than the other. At last she put on a sort of
greyish-blue tweed, such as were then worn on the Continent, and
having looked at herself rather anxiously in the glass, she opened her door
and hesitatingly went out into the passage. All was perfectly quiet as she
went down the carpeted stairs, wondering at the tapestry and brazen wrought
shields and
plaster casts and curious weapons which covered its walls; she could hear only the ticking of the old clock, which stood in its tall inlaid case in the hall. After the bustle of girls and servants at the Coblenz school, and the hundred and one noises of screeching well-pulleys, whirring buckets, whistling starlings, singing and chattering servants, clattering crockery, which greet the early riser in an Italian house,--this silence seemed to her almost eerie, and she wandered about over the noiseless floors like the knight in the palace of the sleeping beauty. She found her way into the drawing-room, where she had been received the previous evening; there was another next to it, and a kind of little library beyond. It was, indeed, an enchanted palace; the walls were all hung with pictures and drawings, and pieces of precious embroidery, and burnished oriental plates, and the floors spread with oriental carpets and matting, which gave out a faint, drowsy, sweet scent. The curious furniture was covered with old brocade and embroidery,
and in all corners, on brackets and tables and in cabinets, were all manner of wonderful glass and china, and strange ivory and inlaid Japanese toys. There were flowers, also, about everywhere, and palms in the windows. In the library were more books than Anne had almost ever seen; and in the chief drawing-room a beautiful grand piano, not made like those of our days, but with slight straight legs and a yellow case painted with faded-looking flowers. Anne looked at everything with astonishment and awe: it was like the rooms in Walter Crane's fairy books, with their inlaid chests and brocade couches, and majolica vases full of peacocks' feathers.
It took her a long time to take it all in. She stole to the piano,
opened it gently, and played the accompaniment of a song of
Carissimi's, which Hamlin was fond of, but inaudibly, without letting
her fingers press down the keys. Then she looked at everything once more.
She was beginning to get familiarised with the pictures on the wall; the
pale, delicate
bits of landscape; the deep-coloured pictures of ladies in wonderful jewel-like robes, with mysterious landscapes behind them; the drawings of strange, beautiful, emaciated, cruel-looking creatures, men or women, with wicked lips and combed-out locks,--all these things, which were like so many points of interrogation--when the door opened and the maid appeared.
"I have been looking for you everywhere, miss," she said.
"I thought, as you didn't answer when I knocked, that you must
still be asleep, so I carried your tea down again. Mrs Macgregor is going
to have breakfast now, and says, would you mind having it in her room with
her, miss, as she never goes down till lunch?"
Anne followed the servant to Mrs Macgregor's room, where she found
the old lady in her dressing-gown, before a table spread with
eighteenth-century china, or what to Anne seemed such.
"What an hour you do get up at, Charlotte!" said Mrs Macgregor, kissing Anne on both
cheeks. "We never think of getting up
here before half-past nine. Walter never comes in till luncheon-time, because he has so far to come, and is up so late every night. Turn round; let me see what you look like this morning."
And Mrs Macgregor made Anne turn round slowly. She looked at her
approvingly.
"You're a handsome girl, certainly," she said;
"not the style that used to be admired in my time,"--and
she smiled with the faint smile of an old belle,--"girls had to
be slight, and fair, and with little features then. But you're just
what they like now. I'm thankful at least that Walter has not brought
home a bag of bones like the other beauties of his set. Loveliness in
decay, that's what I call their style; but you look a good
flesh-and-blood girl."
Anne did not know what to answer; she poured herself out a cup of tea in
silence, and vaguely ate some bread and butter. The old lady was
good-natured, garrulous, flighty; but yet, beneath the shiftiness of
her exterior, there seemed to be something real, something
sad and bitter, when you looked at her thin drawn mouth and melancholy eyes.
"That's a pretty frock you have on, my dear," she
pursued, "and I think it very becoming. But you'll
see that Watty won't like it. He's quite the--what do you
call it?--medieval sort of thing,--no stays, and no petticoats,
and slashings, and tags and boot-laces in the sleeves, and a yard of
draggled train--that sort of thing. Oh, you'll find it a queer
world, the world of Watty's friends. Do you ever see
'Punch'? That's the sort of thing. They're
all great beauties and great painters and great poets, every
man and woman of them. Wait till you see little Chough and young
Posthlethwaite (I forget his real name). Ah, well, it's perhaps
better, after all, this kind of fooling, and masquerading, and writing
verses about things people would horsewhip a man for saying in prose;
it's perhaps better, after all, for Watty, than the sort of life
which we led when he was young"--and Mrs Macgregor became
suddenly very silent.
After breakfast Anne was free until luncheon-time, as Mrs
Macgregor proceeded to lie down on her sofa and read Leigh Hunt's
'Religion of the Heart,' or Fox's 'Religious
Ideas,' which Anne saw lying on her table. Hamlin's aunt had
evidently been an esprit fort in her youth,
and possessed in her bedroom a whole library of what were once deemed
literary firebrands, but might nowadays be described as mild,
old-fashioned free-thinking literature. Anne roamed about the
drawing-room once more, looking again and again at the pictures, and
opening the books, as people do in a strange house, before they can settle
down. She timidly also opened the piano, but shut it again after a minute.
Then she took a volume of Jean Paul out of a shelf, and carried it up into
her room. Finding it too dull to read, and with an irritating sense that
she ought to be doing something definite, she wrote a letter to Mrs Simson,
and one to the little New Zealander. She felt so much like a fish out of
water that Coblenz seemed more than her
birthplace, and the people there more than mother and sisters. At last she heard one o'clock strike, and soon after there came a knock at the house-door, and running to the window she saw Hamlin standing on the doorstep. She withdrew her head quickly, and went down to meet him.
He was more respectful than ever,--asked her how she had slept, and
what she thought of the house.
"It's lovely," said Anne, "and it is so nice
having everything old about one."
"Everything old?" asked Hamlin.
"Yes; all the hangings, and chairs, and tables, and mirrors, are
of the time of the building of the house, aren't they?"
"Oh goodness, no," answered Hamlin, sadly; "I only
wish they were. They're bran-new, every stick of them.
Everybody has them now; nobody makes anything except imitation
old-world things."
"Why don't they try and make something good and
new--something out of their own
heads, as the old workmen did?" asked Anne, looking with wonder upon these new things which seemed so old.
"There is nothing to nourish art nowadays," said Hamlin,
seating himself opposite her and looking her full in the face as he used to
do long ago at the studio in Florence. "Art can't live where
life is trivial and aimless and hideous. We can only pick up the broken
fragments of the past and blunderingly set them together."
"But why should the life of to-day be trivial and aimless
and hideous?" asked Anne, a vague remembrance of things which she had
heard her father say years ago about progress and modern achievements
returning to her mind as it had never done when, in the letters which he
used to write to her at Coblenz, Hamlin had said before what he was saying
now.
"I don't know why it should be," replied Hamlin,
"but so it is."
"Can't we prevent it?" asked Anne, scarcely thinking
of what she was saying; conscious
only that she was really once more in his presence.
Hamlin shook his head sadly.
"Why cannot we revive those?" he said, pointing to a bunch
of delicate pale-pink roses, which drooped withered in a Venetian
glass. "What is dead is dead. The only thing that remains for us late
comers to do is to pick up the faded petals and keep them, discoloured as
they are, to scent our lives. The world is getting uglier and uglier
outside us; we must, out of the materials bequeathed to us by former
generations, and with the help of our own fancy, build for ourselves a
little world within the world, a world of beauty, where we may live with
our friends and keep alive whatever small sense of beauty and nobility
still remains to us, that it may not get utterly lost, and those who come
after us may not be in a wilderness of sordid sights and sordid feelings.
Ours is not the mission of the poets and artists of former days; it is
humbler, sadder, but equally necessary."
"Oh, but you must not say that!" cried
Anne. "What you do will last, don't you know, like the things which people were able to do formerly."
Hamlin shook his head, and remained for some time with his beautiful
greenish-blue eyes fixed on Anne, as she sat twisting and untwisting
the fringe on the arm of her chair.
"There is one consolation, Miss Brown," said Hamlin, rising
from his chair and leaning against the chimney-piece, all covered
with Japanese cups and curious nick-nacks, and not taking his eyes
off her, "and that is, that even now, Nature, which is so barren of
painters and poets, can produce creatures as wonderful as those who
inspired the painters and poets of former times--a consolation, and at
the same time a source of despair."
Hamlin spoke these lover-like words in a tone so cold, so sad,
that Anne did not at first understand to whom he was alluding, and looked
up rather in interrogation than in embarrassment.
A bell rang. "There's lunch," said Hamlin. "We
must finish our discussion afterwards."
Hamlin looked at Anne, as much as to say, "Do you really wish to
go?"
"I am sure Miss Brown is too tired from her journey, aunt,"
he said; "and what is there to take her to see in this beastly
city?"
"I thought we might have a brougham and take her to see a few of
your friends, Walter," suggested Mrs Macgregor.
Poor Anne felt a sort of horror go all down her.
"Oh, please don't!" she cried--"not
to-day; don't take me to see any one, please."
"It's much wiser to let her rest," said Hamlin, in a
tone of annoyance.
"Won't you just take the poor girl to Mrs
Argiropoulo's, Watty?" insisted his aunt. "It's a
sin to keep her mewed up at Hammersmith all day; and you know Mrs
Argiropoulo was so anxious to see her at once."
"Confound Mrs Argiropoulo!" exclaimed Hamlin. "I beg
your pardon, Miss Brown, but do you feel inclined, after your long journey,
to go and see a fat, fashionable lion-huntress, with a snob of a
husband who sells currants?"
"Not at all," answered Anne, laughing. "I would much
rather stay at home, really."
"Very well; then I will show you the garden and my studio, if you
don't mind; and a great friend of mine, Cosmo Chough,--I think I
sent you some of his poems about music. . . ."
"Oh yes," cried Anne; "they are
lovely--"
"I think little Chough's poems perfectly indecent,"
interrupted Mrs Macgregor. "I would much sooner let a girl read
'Don Juan,' or even 'Candide,' any day."
Hamlin reddened, but laughed.
"Opinions differ; at any rate, Miss Brown knows only
Chough's best things; and when he is at his best, Chough is really
very good and pure and elevated."
"Ah, well," merely remarked Mrs Macgregor.
"Cosmo Chough said he would look in about four," went on
Hamlin. "He is a strange creature, and sometimes says odd
things."
"Very odd things," put in his aunt.
"But he is as pure-minded a man as I know, and a real
poet," went on Hamlin--"indeed quite one of the best; and
he is a great musician, and a most entertaining fellow--his only
weakness is that he is a great republican and democrat, but would like to
be thought the son of a duke."
"The son of a duke? " asked Anne, in surprise.
"Oh, the natural son, of course--forgive me, my dear,"
said Mrs Macgregor. "People nowadays like anything
illegitimate--it's a
distinction. It wasn't in my day, but things have changed; and Mr Cosmo Chough would dearly like to be thought a bastard, especially a duke's."
Hamlin smiled.
"Poor Chough! Some one told him he was like Richard Savage one
day, and that's his pose. Would you like to come into the garden,
Miss Brown?"
They went together into the strip of garden which lay behind the house.
There were not many flowers out as yet, only a few peonies and lilacs, and
a belated tulip or hyacinth, but there was green, daisied grass, and big
grey-mossed apple-trees still in blossom; and across the low
walls, covered with creepers, you saw big waving tree-branches, and
old brick houses covered with ivy: the birds were singing, and some
hens clucking next door. It was very quiet and old-world. Hamlin
showed her all the rose-buds which might soon come out, and the
place where the lilies would be, and the espaliers for the
sweet-peas. Then
they went into the two ground-floor rooms which he was arranging for his studio: there were quantities of beautiful rare books and volumes of prints, and Persian and Japanese and old Italian metal-work,and pottery all about, and easels with unfinished pictures evcrywhere--a great and beautiful confusion.
When he had showed her his properties, and she had reverently handled
the things which had once belonged to Shelley and Keats, and the bundles of
unpublished manuscripts, entrusted to Hamlin by living poets, they sat down
in the studio and began to discuss various matters: Anne's
school life, her readings and lessons, Hamlin's work, art, poetry,
life, all sorts of things,--a long and drowsy afternoon's talk,
such as is possible only after a long correspondence between people become
familiar without much personal intercourse, who, knowing each other's
mind, are now beginning to know each other's face and ways and heart;
and which has a charm quite peculiar to itself, like that of hearing
for the first time, with full symphony of voices and instruments, some piece of music which we have learned to know and love merely from the dry score.
Anne had never felt so happy in all her life, and Hamlin not often
happier in his, as they sat in the studio, talking over abstract questions,
which seemed to acquire such a quite personal interest from those who were
discussing them.
They were thus engaged when the servant announced Mr Cosmo Chough.
Anne's heart sank at the thought of confronting one of
Hamlin's most intimate friends, and one of the poets who constituted
the stars of his solar system. To Anne's surprise Mr Chough did not
at all resemble either Shelley or Keats, as she imagined; he was a little
wiry man, with fiercely brushed coal-black hair and whiskers,
dressed within an inch of his life, but in a style of fashionableness,
booted and cravated, which was quite peculiar to himself.
"Miss Brown," said Hamlin, "let me introduce my old
friend, Cosmo Chough."
Mr Chough made a most fascinating bow, and swooped gracefully to the
other end of the studio to fetch himself a chair near Anne's. He was
quite touchingly concerned in Anne's journey and her sensations after
it; and asked her whether she liked London, with a sort of expansive
chivalry of manner, as of Sir Walter Raleigh spreading embroidered cloaks
across puddles for Queen Elizabeth, which struck her as rather ridiculous,
but very agreeable, as she had rather anticipated being scorned by
Hamlin's poetical friends. Anne thought Mr. Chough decidedly nice,
with his oriental style of politeness, and magnificent volubility,
constantly quoting poetry in various languages in a shrill and chirpy
voice; moreover, he seemed to adore Hamlin, and this was enough to put him
in her good graces. Mr Chough rapidly informed her what the principal poets
in London and Paris (for he spoke of French things with an affectation
of throaty accent and allusions to his "real country" which greatly puzzled Anne) were writing; and Anne felt so completely taken into confidence that she ventured to ask him whether he was himself writing anything at present, as she had greatly admired some short pieces of his which Hamlin had sent her.
Mr Chough was as modest as he was polite. His eyes shone, and he clasped
his small hands in ecstasy at the idea of anything of his having pleased
Miss Brown. He then proceeded to tell her that he had an idea for a long
poem--a sort of masque or mystery-play--to be called the
Triumph of Womanhood.
"We were trying over some of Jomelli's music a night or two
ago, at Isaac the great composer's," he explained;
"magnificent music, which no one can sing nowadays, and we feebly
crowed, when in the midst of the great burst of the "Gloria" I
seemed to have revealed to me a vision of a mystic procession of women
going in triumph; I understood,
in a sort of flash, the mysterious and real regalness of Womanhood."
"It must have been very beautiful," said Anne, naively.
Mr Chough had opened the piano, and began playing, in a masterly way, a
fragment of very intricate fugue.
"Do you notice that?" he asked: "that sudden
modulation there--ta ta ti, la la la--from A minor to E
major,--that somehow mysteriously brought home to me one of the
figures of that triumphal procession, and her I have tried to describe. If
you like, I can repeat you the first few lines; it is called 'Imperia
of Rome.'"
"How good of you," cried Anne.
"I think we had better put off hearing it till you have composed
rather more of the poem," interrupted Hamlin.
Cosmo Chough looked mortified, and Anne wondered why Hamlin should
silence his old friend.
"Tell me all about Imperia of Rome," she
asked. "Who was she?--had she anything to do with the Scipios, or Cato, or Tarquin?"
"Imperia was not an ancient Roman," explained Chough;
"she lived at the beginning of the sixteenth century, and it is said
that all the cardinals and poets and artists of Rome, nay, the Pope
himself, accompanied her coffin when she died."
"Why, what had she done?--was she a saint?"
"The inscription on her tomb is, I think, the most truly noble and
Roman ever composed on any woman," proceeded Chough; "Imperia .
. ."
"Miss Brown doesn't understand Latin, Cosmo,"
interrupted Hamlin, roughly, "and I am sure she would take no
interest in Imperia or her epitaph. Supposing you let Miss Brown hear some
of that beautiful Jomelli Mass you were speaking about. Chough is one of
the finest musicians I know," he explained to Anne, "and he is
quite famous
for singing all sorts of forgotten old Italian masters."
Chough sat down and began to sing, in a warbling falsetto, but with the
most marvellous old-world grace and finish.
Anne did not attend. She was wondering about Imperia of Rome. Why had
Hamlin cut short Chough? What had Imperia done? The remarks of Mrs
Macgregor came to her mind; and she felt indignant, and her indignation was
all the greater, perhaps, because Chough's offence was vague and
unknown--how nobly and simply Hamlin had silenced him! She wondered
whether he was very angry with Chough, and whether Chough's feelings
had been much hurt. She felt rather sorry for the sharp way in which he had
been treated, and terrified lest she should be a source of misunderstanding
between Hamlin and his friends. She greatly praised Chough's
singing.
"Will you sing?" cried the little poet, supplicatingly;
"you must have a beauti-
ful voice. I know it from your way of speaking."
Anne refused in terror.
"Do sing, Miss Brown," urged Hamlin. So she took her courage
with both hands, as she expressed it, and sang an air by Scarlatti, Chough
accompanying. She made several false starts, and sang the wrong words
almost throughout, for she felt a lump in her chest. Anne had a deep,
powerful, rather guttural voice, not improved by singing modern German
songs at Coblenz; but the voice was fine, and she had caught something of
the manner of her former protectress, Miss Curzon, who had been a great
singer in her day.
Chough burst out into applause.
"A splendid voice!" he cried; "you must
sing, Miss Brown--you must study--I will come and
practise your accompaniments for you, if you will permit me."
Anne looked at Hamlin; such an offer, on so slight an acquaintance,
surprised her.
"You will let Chough teach you, won't you,
Miss Brown?" asked Hamlin, approvingly. He afterwards told her that Chough spent whatever leisure remained from an inferior Government offce, in which, together with a whole band of other poets, he was employed, in playing accompaniments for various young ladies whom he considered, each singly, the most divine types of womanhood whom he had ever met.
Chough was in high spirits, and proceeded to display to Anne two or
three relics which he carried on his person. A fervent though not very
orthodox Catholic, he was prone to religious mysticism: on his
watch-chain hung a gold cross, containing a bit of wood from St
Theresa's house, which a friend had brought him from Spain; by its
side dangled a large locket, enclosing a wisp of yellow hair.
"It is a lock of Lucretia Borgia's," he said,
displaying it with as much unction as he had manifested for St
Theresa--"a bit of the one which Byron possessed,--the most
precious thing I have in all the world."
"She was rather an insignificant character though, on the whole,
wasn't she?" remarked Anne, not knowing what to
say,--"a sort of characterless villain, the Germans
say."
Cosmo Chough was indignant.
"Insignificant!" he cried--" a Borgia
insignificant! Why, her blood ran with evil as the Pactolus does with gold.
All women that have ever been, except Sappho and Vittoria Accoramboni, and
perhaps Faustina, were lifeless shadows by her side . . ."
"I don't believe in those sort of women having been very
remarkable," said Anne, in her frank, stolid way, "except for
disreputableness."
"But that is just it,--that which you call disreputableness,
my dear Miss Brown," cried Chough, "therein is their greatness,
in that fiery . . ."
Anne shook her head contemptuously.
"I daresay great women have often committed great crimes,"
she said; "but then they have had great plans and ambitions; they
have not been mere wretched slaves of passion;" and she relapsed into silence.
She had had what Hamlin used to call her Amazon or Valkyr expression as
she spoke; and he felt, as he had felt in Florence, the persuasion that
this proud and sombre woman must have in her future some great decision,
some great sacrifice of others or of herself.
While they were talking, the servant entered to tell Miss Brown that Mrs
Argiropoulo was in the drawing-room with Mrs Macgregor.
"Confound Mrs Argiropoulo!" exclaimed Hamlin between his
teeth, "to come intruding so soon."
"Is that the lion-hunting lady?" asked Anne.
"Yes; I suppose you must receive her, as she has called on
you."
"Called on me?" repeated Anne in amazement; "you mean
on Mrs Macgregor. Why, how should she have heard of me?"
"All London has heard of you, Miss Brown," exclaimed Chough
enthusiastically, as he opened the door for her; "at least all that
deserves
to be called London. And Mrs Argiropoulo said last night at Wendell the R.A.'s, that she was determined to see you before any other creature in town. You see I have gained a march upon her."
Anne did not answer, but she grew purple. So every one was curious to
see this nursery-maid whom the great Hamlin had cast his eyes on,
and whom he had generously educated; for the first time her heart burst
with indignation and ruffled pride. But after a moment, as she sat in the
drawing-room, after frigidly returning the fat and fashionable
lion-huntress's affectionate greeting, her conscience smote
her: who was she, that she should feel thus? if she did depend
entirely on Hamlin's generosity, ought she not to be grateful merely,
and proud? and if his friends felt curious to see her, was it not natural,
he being what he was; and had she a right to feel annoyed at their
curiosity, at their knowing all about her? It had been mean and unworthy.
Yet she could not help feeling a sort of vague anger
at she knew not what, as the lady chattered away, in glib Greek-English, about poets, and studios, and dinner-parties; and she answered Mrs Argiropoulo only in monosyllables.
"You must let me take your ward into society a little, dear Mrs
Macgregor," lisped the Greek lady, "for I know you hate going
out of an evening. Miss Brown must meet some of the principal persons of
our set."
She was very fat, very good-natured, and extremely
vulgar-looking, her huge body encased in a medieval dress of flaming
gold brocade. "What in the world can she have to do among artists and
poets?" thought Anne.
"Her husband is in the currant-trade," whispered
Chough--"an awful old noodle, but he buys more pictures of our
school than any one else. Their house is a perfect wonder."
"My aunt is going to ask a few friends to meet Miss Brown first
here," answered Hamlin; "perhaps you will join them, Mrs
Argiropoulo. There's plenty of time to think of
party-going."
"Very good, very good," answered Mrs Argiropoulo;
"meanwhile perhaps I may have the pleasure of taking Miss Brown out
for a drive once or twice."
"I am sure she will be delighted," said Hamlin.
"I hate that woman!" exclaimed Hamlin, as he returned from
escorting the wife of the currant-dealer to the door; "an
odious, inquisitive, vulgar brute."
"She looks good-natured, I think," insinuated
Anne.
"Oh, every one's good-natured!"
"In your set, Watty?" asked Mrs Macgregor, bitterly.
"Every one's good-natured!" continued Hamlin,
throwing himself back in his chair; "and so's Mrs Argiropoulo.
But a kind of grain that sets my nerves off. That's the misfortune of
London, that a lot of vulgar creatures, merely because they buy our
pictures and give dinners, have come and invaded our set, showing us, like
so many wild beasts, to
the fashionable world. Positively, I shall have to give up London. But you will find," he added, turning to Anne, "one or two houses still remaining where one meets only superior people--the houses where artistic life really goes on."
"Upon whipped cream and Swiss champagne," said Mrs
Macgregor--"what one might call the real, genuine, four hundred
a-year intellectual world. Ah, well, Walter! you needn't look
reproachful; but it is droll what sort of people you have come
to associate with--clerks and penny-a-liners, each of
them a great poet."
Hamlin merely smiled. "One must make a world for one's
self," he said, and looked at Anne.
When Mr Cosmo Chough had taken his seat next to Mrs Argiropoulo, the
portly lady deluged him with questions and replies as her landau rolled
away.
"On the whole, I'm quite as well pleased not to take her out
at once," she said. "I'm
not at all so sure about her. She seems to me too big and lumpish and healthy-looking. I should like to have one or two opinions first--one or two artists', and young Posthlethwaite's, and little O'Reilly's--of course, they'll see her at old Smith's, or Mrs Saunders's, or some such house--and all depends on their verdict."
"I know what mine is," cried little Chough,
enthusiastically--"that she is the divinest woman, in the cold,
imperial style, with a latent and strange smouldering passion, that I ever
set eyes on. And as to that flabby elephant Posthlethwaite, and that little
hop, skip, and jump of an impudent jackanapes O'Reilly, I wonder how
you can think their opinion worth having, or, indeed, their
presence supportable."
At this grand winding up Mrs Argiropoulo laughed loudly.
"I know you don't like those young men," she said.
"Posthlethwaite's your rival, they say; he writes even more
improper things
than you do; and you can't forgive Thaddy O'Reilly calling your poems the loves of the cannibals. Oh, I know you poets! Now, shall I drive you home? What's your address?"
This was an old joke, for Mr Cosmo Chough always surrounded his
dwelling-place with mystery, and had his letters addressed to his
office.
"Pray don't inconvenience yourself," he said in a
stately way; "set me down at the corner of Park Lane. I shall walk
home in less than a minute from there."
"To the corner of Park Lane," ordered Mrs Argiropoulo of her
footman, who knew, as well as his mistress and every other creature in what
they called London, that Mr Cosmo Chough lived in a secluded terrace in
Canonbury.
either distinguished poets, or critics, or painters, or musicians, or distinguished relations and friends of the above; that they all received her as if they had heard of her from their earliest infancy; that they pressed her to have tea, and strawberries, and claret-cup, and cakes, and asked her what she thought of this picture or that poem; that they lived in grim, smut-engrained houses in Bloomsbury, or rose-grown cottages at Hampstead, with just the same sort of weird furniture, partly Japanese, partly Queen Anne, partly medieval; with blue-and-white china and embroidered chasubles stuck upon the walls if they were rich, and twopenny screens and ninepenny pots if they were poor, but with no further differences; and, finally, that they were all intimately acquainted, and spoke of each other as being, or just having missed being, the most brilliant or promising specimens of whatever they happened to be.
At first Anne felt very shy and puzzled; but after a few days the very
vagueness which
she felt about all these men and women, these artists, critics, poets, and relatives, who were perpetually reappearing as on a merry-go-round,--nay, the very cloudiness as to the identity of these familiar faces--the very confusion as to whether they were one, two, or three different individuals,--produced in Miss Brown an indifference, an ease, almost a familiarity, like that which we may experience towards the vague, unindividual company met on a steamer or at a hotel.
And little by little, out of this crowd of people who seemed to look,
and to dress, and to talk very much alike,--venerable bearded men, who
were the heads of great schools of painting, or poetry, or criticism, or
were the papas of great offspring; elderly, quaintly dressed ladies, who
were somebody's wife, or mother, or sister; youngish men, with
manners at once exotically courteous, and curiously free and easy, in
velveteen coats and mustard-coloured shooting-jackets or
elegiac-looking dress-coats, all rising in poetry, or art, or
criticism; young ladies, varying from sixteen to six-and-thirty, with hair cut like medieval pages, or tousled like moenads, or tucked away under caps like eighteenth-century housekeepers, habited in limp and stayless garments, picturesque and economical, with Japanese chintzes for brocade, and flannel instead of stamped velvets--most of which young ladies appeared at one period, past, present, or future, to own a connection with the Slade school, and all of whom, when not poets or painters themselves, were the belongings of some such, or madly in love with the great sonneteer such a one, or the great colourist such another;--out of all this confusion there began gradually to detach themselves and assume consistency in Anne's mind one or two personalities, some of whom attracted, and some of whom repelled her, as we shall see further on; but to all these people, vague or distinct, attractive or repulsive, Miss Brown felt a kind of gratitude--something, in an infinitesimal degree, of the thankfulness for undeserved kindness and courtesy which
constituted a large part of her love for Hamlin.
It was a curious state of things, thus to be introduced by a man whom
she knew at once so much and so little, to this exclusive and esoteric sort
of people; and whenever the thought would come upon her how completely and
utterly she, the daughter of the dockyard workman of Spezia, the former
servant of the little Perrys, was foreign to all this, it made her feel
alone and giddy, like one standing on a rock and watching the waters
below.
Such was the condition of things when one morning, about three weeks
after Anne's arrival, Hamlin put upon the luncheon-table a
note addressed to Miss Brown.
"It's an invitation to Mrs Argiropoulo's big party on
the twenty-seventh," he said; "you must go, Miss Brown.
She's an awful being herself; but you'll see all the most
interesting people in London at her house. Edith Spencer or Miss Pringle
can take you, if Aunt Claudia feel too tired."
"Aunt Claudia always feels too tired," answered Mrs
Macgregor, in a bitter little tone. Anne could not quite understand this
amiable and cynical old lady, who was at once devotedly attached to her
nephew, and perpetually railing at his friends. A fear seized her lest, in
her vague, almost somnambulic introduction into æsthetic society, she
might have unconsciously neglected the woman who, proud of her birth as she
was, requested this workman's daughter to address and consider her as
her aunt.
"Oh, won't you go?" cried Anne; "won't you
go, Mrs Macgregor?"
"The fact is," hesitated Hamlin, "that--you
see--Mrs Argiropoulo invites comparatively few people,
and--"
"That she wants only celebrities, or great folk, or pretty
girls," interrupted Aunt Claudia, with her friendly cynicism,
"or, as she expresses it, that she wants no padding. So you must go
with Mrs Spencer or Miss Pringle, my dear."
"But it is abominable; it is most rude of Mrs Argiropoulo; and I
certainly won't go anywhere where Aunt Claudia has not been
invited."
"Nonsense, Nan," silenced the old lady; "you're
not up to this lion-hunting world yet. Where there are so many
geniuses on the loose, and so many professed beauties, there are no chairs
for old women, except countesses or school board managers."
"But since you think Mrs Argiropoulo hateful," persisted
Anne, addressing Hamlin, "why should you wish me to go? You know I
would much rather not; and I think, considering her rudeness to your aunt,
you ought not to wish me to go."
"As you choose, Miss Brown," cried Hamlin, peevishly.
"Don't be absurd, Anne--you must go," insisted
Mrs Macgregor. "Listen: Watty has actually been addling his
brains doing dressmaking; he has invented a dress for you to go to the
party, so you will break his heart if you refuse."
Anne looked in amazement; and Hamlin reddened.
"I hope you will not deem it a liberty on my part, Miss
Brown," he said; "but as I knew that this invitation was
coming, I ventured to make a sketch of the sort of dress which I think
would become you, and to give it to a woman who has made dresses from
artists' directions; of course, if you don't think it pretty,
you won't dream of putting it on. But I could not resist the
temptation."
Miss Brown scarcely knew what to say or feel: there was in her a
moment's humiliation at being so completely Hamlin's property
as to warrant this; then she felt grateful and ashamed of her
ingratitude.
"If you had shown me the sketch, I daresay I could have made up
the dress myself," she said.
"I fear my sketch might not have been very intelligible to any one
who had not experience of making such things."
"Perhaps not," answered Anne, thinking of
all the dresses for Miss Curzon and the little Perrys which she had made in her day. "It was very good of you, Mr Hamlin."
"What an idiot I was to let the cat out of the bag!"
exclaimed Mrs Macgregor when her nephew was out of hearing.
"I've spoilt your pleasure in the frock; and there's
Walter sulking because he thinks you won't like it."
"I am very ungrateful," said Anne, sighing as she stooped
over her book, and feeling all the same that she wished Hamlin would let
her make up her dresses herself.
A few days later the dressmaker came to try on the dress, or rather
(perhaps because Hamlin did not wish Anne to see it before it was finished)
its linings and a small amount of the Greek stuff of which it was made; but
it was not till the very afternoon of Mrs Argiropoulo's party that
the costume was brought home finished. Miss Brown was by this time
tolerably accustomed to the eccentric garb of æsthetic circles, and
she firmly believed that it was the only one which a self-respecting
woman might wear; but when she saw the dress which Hamlin had designed for her, she could not help shrinking back in dismay. It was of that Cretan silk, not much thicker than muslin, which is woven in minute wrinkles of palest yellowy white; it was made, it seemed to her, more like a night-gown than anything else, shapeless and yet clinging with large and small folds, and creases like those of damp sculptor's drapery, or the garments of Mantegna's women.
"I must get out a long petticoat," said Anne, appalled.
"Oh please, ma'am, no," cried the dressmaker.
"On no account an additional petticoat--it would ruin the whole
effect. On the contrary, you ought to remove one of those you have on,
because like this the dress can't cling properly."
"I won't have it cling," cried Miss Brown, resolutely.
"I will let alone the extra petticoat, but that's as much as I
will do."
"As you please, ma'am," answered the
woman, and continued adjusting the limp garment with the maid's assistance.
Anne walked to the mirror. She was almost terrified at the figure which
met her. That colossal woman, with wrinkled drapery clinging to her in
half-antique, half-medieval guise,--that great solemn,
theatrical creature, could that be herself?
"I think," she said in despair, "that there's
something very odd about it, Mrs Perkins. It looks somehow all wrong. Are
you sure that something hasn't got unstitched?"
"No indeed, madam," answered the dressmaker, ruffled in her
dignity. "I have exactly followed the design; and," she added,
with crushing effect, "as it's I who execute the most difficult
designs for the Lyceum, I think I may say that it could not be made
differently."
The Lyceum! Anne felt half petrified. What! Hamlin was having her rigged
out by a stage dressmaker!
"Mr Hamlin is down-stairs, Miss Brown,"
hesitated the maid, as Anne bade her help her out of this mass of limp stuff. "He said he would wait to see you after the dressmaker had left, if you had no objection."
"Watty wants to see you in your new frock, my dear," said
Mrs Macgregor, putting her head in at the door. "Come
along."
Anne followed down-stairs, gathering all that uncanny white crape
about her. For the first time she felt a dull anger against Hamlin.
He met her in the dim drawing-room.
"My hair isn't done yet," was all Miss Brown could
say, tousling it with her hands.
"Leave it like that--oh, do leave it like that!"
exclaimed Hamlin; "you can't think how"--and he
paused and looked at her, where she stood before him, stooping her massive
head sullenly--"you can't think how beautiful you look,
Anne!"
It was the first time he had called her by her Christian name since that
scene, long ago, in the studio at Florence.
"Forgive me, dear Miss Brown," he
apolo-
gised. "I knew how such a dress must suit you, and yet it has given me quite a shock to see you in it."
"It was very kind of you to have it made for me," said Anne,
"and the stuff is very pretty also; and--and I am so glad you
like me in it."
Hamlin kissed her hand. He was more than usually handsome, and looked
very happy.
"Thank you," he said; "I must now go home and dress
for that stupid dinner-party. I will meet you at Mrs
Argiropoulo's at half-past ten or eleven. I suppose Edith
Spencer will call for you soon after dinner. Good-bye."
He looked at her with a kind of fervour, and left the room.
Anne sat down. Why did that dress make such a difference to him? Why did
he care so much more for her because she had it on? Did he care for her
only as a sort of live picture? she thought bitterly. But, after all, it
was quite natural on his part to be pleased, since he had invented the
dress. And it was
very good of him to have thought of her at all. And thus, in a state of enjoyable repentance, she awaited the hour to go to Mrs Argiropoulo.
Mrs Spencer, a very lovable and laughable little woman, whose soul was
divided between her babies and fierce rancours against all enemies of
pre-Raphaelitism, hereditary, in virtue of her father, Andrew
Saunders, in her family, came punctually, marvellously attired in grey
cashmere medieval garments, a garland of parsley and gilt oak-leaves
in her handsome red hair. On seeing Anne, who stood awaiting her by the
fireplace, she could not repress an exclamation of admiration.
"Yes," answered Anne, unaccustomed to have her looks admired
at Florence and at Coblenz; "it is a very wonderful costume,
isn't it? Mr Hamlin designed it for me. I think it was so kind of
him; don't you?"
"Kind? I see nothing kind about it. Walter" (she always
spoke of him thus familiarly, because he had worked as a youth in
her father's studio) "is simply head over ears in love with you, my dear."
Anne shook her head.
"Oh no," she answered, with a sort of reasoned conviction,
"he is merely very good to me, that's all--and perhaps he
likes me also, of course. But that's all."
"You know nothing of the world, Annie; and still less of Walter.
He has never in his life been fond of any one except when in love.
I've not known him these fifteen years for nothing."
"I think you are mistaken," said Anne, quietly.
"I think you are not aware, my dear girl, that you are the most
beautiful woman Walter has ever seen."